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ram gagaCuma, ratom ar wero? danamdvilebiT, arc man icoda... fsiqiatriulSi vagdivar. viRacam CamiSva, inficirebuliao da gisosebs-miRma aRmovCndi. asec rom ar iyos, ra dros weraa? marTalia, maradiul Temebze saubris dro arasodes gadis, mag-ram garSemo Sizofreniis aqamde ucnobi, virusuli saxeobis epidemia mZvinvarebs, asiaTasobiT adamians Dementia praecox _ naadrevi Wkuasustoba tanjavs. viTom mec avad var? ÙR1SS1” virusis laboratoriuli dadastureba jer ar mosula... Tumca, ra mniSvneloba aqvs, mxolod me xom ar var ase, paranoiduli bodvebi mTel qveyanas moedo. hoda, vis ainteresebs an Citebis JRurtuli, an siyvaruli, an lurji zRva da kaSkaSa mze? Tanam-emamuleebs demencia balaxiviT celavs!.. an nuTu saWiroa imaze wera, rom fsiqiatriulSi cudi ambebi xdeba, Zalian cudi?

magram xom iciT, swored sayvarel gogosTan ginda isaubro, gauziaro azrebi da raRac mainc mouTxro...

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fukos pirveli werili

Cemo sayvarelo megobaro, N, vpasuxob Sens Txovnas da gwer werils Cvens ambebze. Seni saxe, cimcima TvalebiTa da keTili RimiliT, mudam Tvalwin midgas, Seni bageebis gemo da sxeulis gamabruebeli surneli ki sasiamovnod maTrobs...

gkocni, patarav, bevrs gkocni, geferebi, gulSi gikrav da Zlier miyvarxar! mixaria, rom Sen mainc gaaRwie am Wao-bidan, xolo me tkbili mogonebebi damitove... garSemo uRimRamo saSualoTa zeobaa da gadidkacebul mdabioTa bogini. ra vakeTo? mec Senze vfiqrob, gixseneb, gesaubre-bi _ am samyaroSi mxolod Seni arseboba macocxlebs da Cems uxaliso arsebobas odnav aferadebs. gkocni, gkocni, gkocni, Cemo sayvarelo da keTilo N...

maS ase, ra ambebia CvenTan?daviwyeb imiT, rom fsiqiatriulSi movxvdi. mokled,

saavadmyofoSi viTarebis Sesaxeb. yvelani erT did samedi-cino darbazSi vwevarT da Werze dRe da Ram CarTul televizors varT miSterebuli. Zili mkacrad akrZalu-lia! RmerTma nu qnas, Tvali Tu mogexuWa, Semodis gaupar-savi sanitari, TavSi muSts girtyams da droperidols gikeTebs. ase rom, Tvalebi daWyetili unda gqondes. adgi-lobrivi legendis Tanaxmad, droTa ganmavlobaSi gaxe-lili TvalebiT Zils swavlob. gadacemebi? mudam erTi mrgvalTava, meloti, WuWyian xalaTSi gamowyobili ufrosi sanitari gamodis. metsaxeli _ `fuye“. is, damwyeb klaseb-Si CarCenili moswavlis gamometyvelebiT, ratomRac sul dakiTxvebiT gvemuqreba, nairnair braldebebs gviyenebs da gvafrTxilebs, Cven yvelaferi viciT, Tqveni bralis damadasturebeli mtkicebulebebi winaswar mzad gvaqvs da rogorc ki gaatrakebT, egreve droperidolis sammag dozaze gadagiyvanTo. Tumca garkveuli nairferovneba aqac SeimCneva _ mrgvalTava sanitars periodulad, ase,

kviraSi erTxel, patara, Tmaafofrili, farTod gaxelili TvalebiT uzenaesi feldSeri cvlis. mTavari eqimi ara-vis unaxavs, mxolod eWvebia, rom is arsebobs, marTalia, sakmaod dasabuTebuli, magram mainc eWvebi... asea Tu ise, Cveni feldSeri sasacilod sayvarelia da Tan, TagviviT sazizRari. pacientebma mas frang msaxiob Jerar filipTan varcxnilobis msgavsebis gamo, `Jerara“ Searqves. aba es uberavs, Tu uberavs! awyvetili paranoikia, bodviTi ha-lucinaciebiT, gandidebisa da devnis maniiT _ mkveTrad gamoxatuli birTvuli Sizofreniaa. bodviTi sindromiTa da demenciiT Sepyrobili umravlesoba gaiZaxis _ ver-afers ityvi, yvelas gvjobs da amitomac gaxda pirvelio, WeSmaritad Rirsiao! ̀ Jeraras“ axirebebs aSkarad romanti-kul-esTetikuri Seferiloba axasiaTebs. is teleekrani-dan sayvarlad gviRimis da raRac fantastikur dapirebebs iZleva... keTili zraxvebis gamoTqmis Semdeg mkacri re-JimiT ukmayofilo avadmyofebs afrTxilebs, Tu ar mois-venebT fsiqiatriulis mTel giJebs Tqven mogisevTo. misi yvelas gveSinia! Tumca piradad me muqara ar unda mexe-bodes, magram mainc... samagierod, dapirebebiaa, o, dapire-bebiaa, ooo! TafliviT tkbili da heroiniviT warmtaci! Sizofrenikebic sxedan da mTeli dRe imaze ocneboben, Tu ras da rogor Seusrulebs maT uzenaesi feldSeri. Ramisken, rodesac koleqtiuri halucinaciebi agresiul mimarTulebas iZens, ufrosi meddis miTiTebiT, sanitrebi Semorbian da yvelas droperidoliT aqvaveben. qandakebad qceulni, katatonur stuporSic `Jeraras“ dapirebebis garda sxva veraferze fiqroben. diliT ki, isev Tavidan, igive...

èrTmorwmune mrevlma“, ara Tu ar icis sakuTari uxmo morCilebis azri, aramed arc cdilobs, Caswvdes am dumilis arssa da daniSnulebas. damSeuli Tevzebisa da gaveSebul meduzaTa konglomeratma mxolod is icis, rom batonisa upirobod unda sjerodes, gansxvavebuli sZul-

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des da, Tu qatos aRirseben, unda uceb Sesanslos. Cemo, usayvarleso megobaro N, raRa Tqma unda, gesmis, rom swored es rigiTi avadmyofebi imsaxureben Secodebas, maTi gasaWiris gaziarebasa da Tanadgomas...

...axla weras movwydi, Semogxede _ Sens TvalebSi Cam-dgarma siyvarulis cremlebma guli amiCuya, siTboTi am-avso da... qviTiniT es strofi wamomcda:

samSoblo gorgebs rom gmirobas gvavalebs,axla gvagonebs laCrebis savanes...

mogesxseneba, Cemo N, gorgi (spars.) _ mglebis, mebrZo-

lebis qveyanas niSnavs. aqedan warmoiSva _ gorga-sar (gor-gasali) _ mglisTava...

CvenTan, rogorc vaxsene, urC revolucionerTa jgu-fic arsebobs. maT televizoris savaldebulo yurebis garda, diazepamiviT damamSvidebeli, iaponuri xalxuri hangebis sadReRamiso Terapiis kursebsac utareben, Tum-ca amaod. maTi beladi, romlis saxelis gagonebzec ki, `Jeraras“ burZglvas, ar cxreba da manifestaciebs awyobs. feldSers aSkarad eSinia misi da amitom sZuls ase Zli-er, ase gametebiT. es SiSi naadrevi WkuasustobiT daa-vadebulebsac gadaecema _ isaa am halucinatoruli idi-liis dasrulebis erTaderTi xiluli wyaro. sxedan ase `Sizikebi“ yvelani erTad, magar kaifSi da mTeli dRe ziz-Risgan kankaleben. boRma dapirebebze, ocnebasa da `Jer-aras“ SiSTan erTad, uZlieresi narkotikia!

rogorc zemoT mogwere, palatebi ar gvaqvs da erT samedicino darbazSi vcxovrobT. mizani? yovlismomcve-li TvalTvali da kontrolia, romelsac bronirebuli SuSis ukan mdgomi, udabnos saqsauliviT martosuli mTa-vari eqTani `ledi lobotomia“ axorcielebs. jer kidev mZime bavSvobidan paranoiks, mas samudamo uZiloba sWirs da skamze Semdgari, acremlebuli miminos mzeriT, is gada-

hyurebs fsiqiatriulis sivrces. wmida gadmocemis Tanax-mad, is ukvdavia da wina saukuneebSi swored is uniSnavda protestantebs lobotomias. dRes ki sxva droa _ sapyro-bileSi ùnda daisajos ufro suli, vidre sxeuli“. erTi sityviT, xsenebul narkotikul koqteils _ `zizRi, ocne-bebi da SiSi”, sisxlis momxiblav aromats `ledi loboto-mia“ sZens. mTeli fsiqiatriuli, mec maT Soris, nebiT Tu uneblied, am utkbiles narkotikze vzivarT, radgan misi wveTovani gadasxmebi yvelasaTvis aucilebelia. `boRma - dapirebebis“ koncentrirebuli xsnari sul wuil-wuiliT midis venebSi. ise, depresiul fsiqozs magrad ki Svelis. amitomac gviyvars da imavdroulad, sastikad gvZuls TmaxuWuWa `ledi lobotomia“!

fsiqiatriulSi, raRa Tqma unda, yvelas erTi moZR-vari da sulieri mama _ ùcakalelesi“ gvyavs. adre, ro-gorc Zveli avadmyofebi yvebian, isic mudam televizorSi iyo da sibrZneebs qadagebda. axla xmas ar iRebs, miyuCe-bulia, masac `Jerarasi“ eSinia da iSviaTad Tu amoiluR-luRebs raimes. Cven `cakalela“ mainc Zalian gviyvars, radgan sxva ar gvyavs.

gamigrZelda, Cemo patarav... ici, yvelaze dasanania da swored es maRizianebs, rom garSemomyofni axerxeben da Senze fiqrsa da moferebisgan yuradReba maTze gadam-aqvs... Seni surneliT Troba neldeba da Tvalebis cimcimi gonebis romeliRac kuTxe-kunWulSi qreba... ai, es magiJebs da mTrgunavs _ fsiqiatriulis personalTan brZoliT ga-tacebulma, Sen ar dagkargo da Seni rbili bageebis gemo ar damaviwydes...

ho, sul martoc ar var, megobari gaviCine! Cems mopirdapire mxares erTi wevs, Zilisagan dasiebuli, gaqonili saxiT da Cemsken momarTuli, gaSterebuli mze-riT. rogorc Cans, fsiqiatriulis Zveli binadaria, ami-naziniT (adre importuli droperidoli fufuneba iyo) gaJRenTili. mas Semdeg, rac me mimiyvanes, sul erTxel

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CaiCurCula,– oh, es putCistebio, da sabolood miyuCda. Tvalebi mudam daqaCuli aqvs da ise sZinavs _ ai, mas ukve aTvisebuli aqvs Ria TvalebiT Zili! guSin moulodnelad qaRaldis nagleji momawoda, zed ewera:

`tyuils mokle fexi aqvso, simarTlea amad kargi!ueklod da uWrilobod, vis rgebia aba vardi?“ rac ar unda iyos, kaci pirvelad Semexmiana da mec

upasuxod ar davtove. poeziis niWi janmrTels ar mqon-da da dadroperidolebuls ra gamiCenda? aviRe da ilias sityvebiT vupasuxe: àwmyo Tu ara gwyalobs, momavali Se-nia!“. uimedod gamiRimasaviT da TvalebdaWyetilma Zili ganagrZo...

sanam `TvalRias“ sZinavs, Cemo sayvarelo gogov, erT saidumlos gagimxel! me am virusuli Sizofreniisadmi, jer kidev sabWoeTSi SeZenili, myari imuniteti gamaCnia! ase rom, ha da ha, daavadebis abortuli forma Semeyaros da Semdeg viruss tvinis gaaqtiurebuli ujredebi da-jabnian. amitom var SedarebiT arxeinad da raRacas mainc vwer...

erTxel, Cemma dadumebulma mezobelma TvalebiT mi-maniSna revolucionerebze, SeiZleba iTqvas, mkiTxa: maT ratom ar uerTdebio? Zlivs msmeneli gamoCnda da Tan Cemi poziciis sakuTar TavTan gamarTlebac Zlier msur-da. mokled, mindoda mkafiod, punqtebad Camomeyalibebina Cemi pasiurobis mizezi. davfiqrdi da ganmartebis mwyobri sqema davuSvi: `pirveli, Cemo uxmo lodo isaa, rom asaki (janmrTelobac) ar miwyobs xels, radgan revolucia bevr energiasa da sirbils moiTxovs. meore, Cemo kldesaviT mdumare mowmev da swored amis gamo sayvarelo, isaa, rom Cemi sabWouri warsulidan gadmomyva yovelgvari gaer-Tianebebisadmi, raoden progresulic unda iyos is, kole-qtivisadmi sifrTxile, SiSic. mesame da mTavari! Cemo war-sulSi erovnul-ganmaTavisuflebeli moZraobis aqtiuro

mebrZolo, Sen xom mainc kargad ici es _ me vxedav, Tu ramdenad didia am wyeuli virusiT daavadebulTa ricx-vi, vici, maTi demenciis Seuqcevadobis Sesaxeb da amitom revoluciur gardaqmnebs sakmaod pesimisturad vuyureb _ xalxis ZiriTadi masa xom igive darCeba, maT xom Cven-saviT ÙR1SS1” virusis winaaRmdeg SeZenili imuniteti ar gaaCniaT, ase rom, evolucias davelodoT. xazs vusvam _ es arc cudia da arc kargi, ubralod, mxolod me mexeba...

liderebmac imedebi Zlier gamiwbiles _ yvelas ukide-gano ambiciebi axrCobs. gecodineba _ `pirveli moralu-ri monstri, politikuri monstri iyo“... erTni revolu-cias amzadeben, meoreni mas awyoben... vimeoreb, yovelive CamoTvlili arc gamorCeulobis maniSnebelia da arc dasagmobi _ Cemia da morCa... ar var aqtiuri tipis ada-miani, ufro garedan, ganyenebulad Wvreta mitacebs da procesebis arsSi wvdomaze vkaifob... `Cqim” awpasiuro da erTi SexedviT miZinebul-gaSterebulo `jima“, Cven erTad varT! ra vqnaT? rogor moviqceT? ra vakeToT? eh, esec kargad ici, ra advilia xelSi iaraRis aReba da, ra Zne-lia am umsgavsobis yureba, magram unda gavuZloT, sxva gza ubralod ar gvaqvs. Tu sakiTxs filosofiurad Sevxe-davT, cxadia, demenciis epidemiis talRa gadava, Cven imu-niteti gadagvarCens da ai, mere ki davwer kaSkaSa mzesa da lurj zRvaze... savse mTvaris qveS siyvarulsa da gariJra-Jze Citebis JRurtulze!

P.S. megobaro, miyvarxar, gkocni da uimedod, magram mainc

gelodebi _ egeb davsxdeT da mTeli Rame, rogorc adre, gaTenebamde gesaubro, gesaubro Sen, Cemo N!

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nawili I. guSin _ daTo

werili meore: morfinistuli saSiSarebi mZimeebis gareSe

usayvarleso N, ukve davasrule meore werili, kon-vertSi Cavde da, uceb, erTi ram gamaxsenda: Cemi meore wigni, romelsac 8 weli velodebodi, bolos da bolos, gamosces am mSiSrebma da, raoden gasakviric unda iyos, didad arc gamxarebia... idealebi, karga xania sapnis buS-tiviT gaskda da sadRac eTerSi gauCinarda. SesaZlebelia, Sen am auxdeneli miswrafebebis damSral cremlebsa da uxmo yvirils axla miunxenis parkebis gamWvirvale haer-Tan erTad isunTqav...

ici, modi vaRiaroT, rom didad gasakviric araferi xdeba... warmoidgine, Cven albaT, dedamiwis zurgze erTa-derTi eri varT, romelsac sakuTari dampyrobeli uyvars! meti raRa vTqva?!

mokled, daviwyeb warsuliT... saavadmyofo

1. respublikuri saavadmyofos me-12 sarTuli. gare-dan obobasaviT davcocavdi. meddebs fanjris rafebze gadasvliT morfs vparavdi. zurgSi saburTalos civi qari. TeTri xalaTis amayad afrialebuli afra. magrad meSinoda. ras ar gagakeTebinebs wamali. bevri vifiqre da davaskveni: obobebic ablabudis saqsov webovan sekrets SiSisgan gamoyofen. gadmovardnas ufrTxian.

2. Sua operaciisas muclis aorta gaskda. manamde tua-letSi Sevirbine. gaviCxire. xuTi ampula ras geyofa? didi SiSi vWame. mTeli saoperacio alisferi sisxliT gaiJRin-Ta. gulis yoveli SekumSvisas sisxli SadrevaniviT asxamda. fSSuu! fSSuu! me da qirurgebi saaRdgomo kvercxebiviT SeviRebeT. saoperacio lampa sisxliT daifara. ganaTeba

aRar gvqonda. wneva nulamde davarda. pulsi TiTqmis ar isinjeboda. kaTeteriT meore vena aviRe. swrafi gadasx-mebi nakadiT. prednizoloni. mucelSi qirurgebis brmad xelebis faTuri. gadavrCiT. guli gaeSva. wneva 80-ze das-tabilurda. yvelani oflSi gaviwureT. Semamcivna. mTeli wamali oflma gamoitana. mxolod Cemi alisfrad SeRebili xalaTiRa iyo kaifSi. iwva TavisTvis saoperacio taStSi da yvinTaobda. bevri narkotiki miaqvs avadmyofze nervi-ulobas.

3. xaSuris mowyenili saavadmyofo. didi gamoqvabuli.

Txunelebis saZromebi. qirurgiuli ganyofileba. daWrili mSvidad kvnesis. sikvdils Serigebulia. muceli amotri-alebulia. katletis azelili farSi. sisxli da denTis muri. Savi nasafantevi iarebi fuyfuyebs. mibjeniTaa nas-roli. orives wamali gvWirdeba. fentanili mogvitanes. sinamdvileSi droperidolis kuklebi yofila. droperi-doli 15-jer Zlieria aminazinze. iwvevs adamianis gaqvave-bas. mTels operciaze ori kubi keTdeba. ver mivxvdi. meCqareboda. oci kubi gavikeTe. netavi sul ar davbadebu-liyavi! magis dedac! bevri momivida. as giJs gaaqvavebda adgilze. Cafiqrebuli qvis lodi. usasrulod grZeli gvirabi. siCume. SiSi. Tavi xuTas kilograms iwonis. didi yurebi. gaparsuli drunCi. bazris daxlze Roris Setru-suli Tavi. leJanka Semoitanes. lodi daWrili avadmyofis paralelurad wamoawvines. is bneli gvirabidan narkozis warmarTvas Seudga. lodi usaSvelod gadidda. ukidega-no gvirabi gaiwela. operacia bednierad dasrulda. biWi gadarCa. daWramde naTesavebs 15 wlis colisdasTan Seus-wriaT. mucelSi Tofi CaucliaT. operaciis Semdeg xeli odnav dauCirqda. anTeba Zvalze gavrcelda. ocamde op-eracia gadaitana. Zvlis fxekiT. saSineli tkivilebiT. an-aerobuli infeqciiT dalia suli. yvelasgan mitovebulma. RmerTi namdvilad arsebobs: me ar gamwira _ daWrili jer gadaarCina da mere wamebiT waiyvana...

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4. xaSurSi varT. me da koka. Zmakacia. Zroxas veZaxdiT. operacia damTavrda. yvelani gavidnen. fentanils saop-eracio blokSive vikeTebT. lomkaSi ver vinZrevi. baianze koka gavuSvi. maincadamainc steriluri zewari aswia. saop-eracio instrumentebSi xelis faTurs Seudga. aseTi regve-ni araferi minaxavs. eg steriluria! mand WuWyiani xelis Seyofa rogor SeiZleba?! upasuxod ar damtova. Se Cemao. saWmeli vWame da Semdeg davibaneo. bozis Svili viyovo. ar gjeravso? ra ginda, debils uTxra? gvianRaa. Zroxas mud-mivad Sorisis fxaniT dakavebuli xelis mikrobebi saop-eracio instrumentze gadabargdnen. me yovelive gamovas-wore. mivvardi. sakaifo 20-iani Sprici Tavis nemsiTurT ori TiTiT amovasriale. zewari isev gadavafare. saopera-cios meddas aRaraferi vuTxari. ra meTqva? Tqvens gas-terilebul instrumentebSi Zroxam yverebiani xeli afa-Tura-Tqo? ise darCa. ras niSnavs eqimis xelii!

5. operacia damTavrda. avadmyofi reanimaciaSi mimyavs. gadavawvine. gavsinje. kargadaa. eqims gadavabare. gavedi tualetSi. gaviCxire. sigarets movukide. arxeinad mov-seirnob. reanimaciis karebTan vewevi. modis eqTani mako. guSin viJimaveT. gatexa. reanimaciaSi Sevimale. morige eqimi araa. naoperacievi gaSavebula. pulsi ar isinjeba. sadacaa wava. piri-pirSi sunTqva. gulis masaJi. adrenali-ni. prednizoloni. gavardisfrda. Tvalebi gaaRo. baro eqimoo! gadavrCiT. zogi Wiri margebeliao _ mako myavs mxedvelobaSi.

6. axalbeda eqimi var. pirveli damoukidebeli narko-

zia. vRelav. ar vimCnev. anesTetikebi Seviyvane. davaZine. xelovnur ventilaciaze gadamyavs. sunTqva unda gaiTi-Sos. relaqsanti Sedis. vakeTeb intubacias. mili traqeaSi Semyavs. Semdeg xelovnuri sunTqvis aparats SevuerTeb. davaintubire. yvelaferi kargadaa. fonendoskopiT vamow-meb. sunTqva ar ismis! amovagde mili. Tavidan vaintubi-reb. isev ar ismis! isev igive. xuTjer gavimeore. sunTqva

kvlav gaCerebulia. vcaxcaxeb. oflad viRvrebi. Semovida Tea. mometmasna. eCqareba. samorigeod vrCebiT. CamCur-Cula, fonendoskopis mosasmens xufi moxsenio. wavaZvre. davaintubire. sunTqva kargia! operacia daiwyo. ori ada-miani gadarCa. me _ daWeras. avadmyofi _ sikvdils. amdeni SeZlo wamierma vnebam. siyvaruli namdvilad gadaarCens samyaros.

quCa

1. SemeSala. wamlis magier isev droperidoli Semo-mapares. saSineli wamalia. 15-jer Zlieria aminazinze. iwvevs adamianis gaqvavebas. xmaroben giJebis dasaSoSmineb-lad. erTi kvira TavSi lodebi dagoravda. barnovis xidze videqi da vfiqrobdi. axlave gadavxte da davexeTqo keke-liZis quCas Tu mezareba? ha?

2. me da erTi wamalma agvagdo. yayaCos rastvaritelis

magier skipidari davasxiT. maRali sicxe gvqonda saSineli gulisreviT. ori dRe-Rame gverdi-gverd viweqiT. erT-maneTs varwyevdiT. aRsasrulze vfiqrobdiT. Riirs ki ase cxovreba? viyaviT ase. gadavrCiT. diliT Semonaxuli kok-nari CavxarSeT. gavikeTeT. mainc magaria wamali!

3. meCnikovze narkologiurSi vzivar. davTveri. ra va-

keTo? modi movtydebi. Sida kibidan sxvenze. iqedan saxu-ravze. zafxulia. ofli mdis. orsarTuliani Senobidan gadmoveSvi. gaTvlebSi Secdoma momsvlia! damatebiTi erTi sarTuli _ saxuravia. narkologiuris ezodan erTi sarTu-liT qvemoT sanapiroa. iq unda daveSva. movfrinav meoTxe sarTulidan. amjerad gaTvlebi zustia. gzad Semxvda xe. roks gamovede. Sarvali barZayianad gamexa. xelic movitexe. ara da vicodi _ Svidjer gazome da erTxel gaWeri.

4. damiWires. narkotiki Camides. dakiTxvaze mtkivneu-lad mcemen. Senia wamalio. saxeSi zonari mwared mxvde-

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ba. Tavze celofnis parki Camomacves. kiserSi jinsovkis sayeloTi miWeren. hipoqsia. gonebas vkargav. tvinSi raRac momeSala. gaRviZebisas mTeli guliT vxarxareb. auwerel eiforiaSi var. ratom vicini ase gulianad, ar vici. ratom mirtyamen arc es vici. biWebi ki uceb gaerkvnen. siafan-dobs es goTveranio. ZaRlebma danamdvilebiT ician, visi gaxdeba wamali. magari profesiaa _ TiTqmis yvelaferi ici!

5. axalgazrduli TamaSebi narkotikebTan riTi mTavr-deba? gadaxede preiskurants. cxovreba jojoxeTad geqce-va. sjobs Tavi daibrido. SeiZleba gagimarTlos. Rmer-Ti wagiyvans. siyvaruliT dagexmareba. droze mogklavs. an gaparviT. an tragikulad. Tu magrad ar gagimarTla _ alkaSuri gafarCakebiT.

6. saburTaloelma gigim didi fuli iSova da saxlSi

wamliT Caiketa. gareT areulobaa. biWma Zlivs cxovreba aawyo. coli moiyvana. remonts morCa. me-8 sarTulze sas-tumro oTaxSi sacurao auzsac amTavrebda. fulis kursze Tvalis devneba ki miaviwyda. gaufasurebis ambavi gvian Se-ityo. erTi Cemodani nayaCaRari fuli qaRaldad eqca. sas-tikad gautyda. gaaZro iaraRi. TavSi iglija. baax! magari braziani vinme iyo. axlad SeRebili kedelic sisxlnarevi tvinis SxefiT gasvara. Riirs amis Semdeg remontze amdeni nervebis Sla?

7. megobari myavda, Temura. uSnod gaipara. wamalze dilaadrian motyda. gvian RamiT manqaniT WiSkars moad-ga. nazranidan CamoeTra. daRlili iyo. gawvalda. farex-is Tavze gaSenebuli talaveri. gamovardnili deda da da. gaxarebuli deda danoqsironebul Svils SvebiT miegeba. dam farexis kari sixaruliT gauRo. manqana Seayena. Zravi ar Cauqria. dawynarebuli ojaxis wevrebi saxlSi Sevidnen. mSvidad daiZines. diliT, gaRviZebulebs, Temura sawolSi ar daxvdaT. gaTiSuli, pirze qafiT, loginSi unda gdebu-

liyo. daZebnes. miagnes. qafi ki hqonda. farexSi gaparula. iqve CauyvinTia. manqanis gamonabolqv mxuTav airs daux-rCvia. yvela ver iklavs Tavs. am dros gangeba gexmareba. cotas Tu umarTlebs ase.

8. erTi kirovabadSi wamalze daawva meoresTan er-Tad. gzaSi ZaRlebi daedevnen. gazi manqanis iatakSi CaaWylita. asociT xes Seaskdnen. meore gadarCa. axlaxans ciroziT daibrida. bingos grozno evaseboda. iqedan mo-dioda. gzad moefsa. gaaCerebina. Sarvlis Sexsnas Seud-ga. CaeyvinTa biWs. wabarbacda da xramSi gadaiCexa. orive SemTxveva hgavs _ gamarTlebaa. RmerTis xeli urevia ueWveli.

9. me ar gamimarTla. smisgan gafarCakebulebis siaSi Cavewere. sxva gzac ar mqonda. garSemo yvela jigrulad mokvda. me ki gadavrCi. TiTqos yvela Rone vixmare. bevri vikeTe. manqaniTac viqrole. sakmao riskebic gavwie. Senc ar momikvde! ar vevasebi RmerTs! vaJkacuri sikvdili ar maRirsa. jer iwvaleo. muxlebze ixoxeo da ise daibrideo. sxvagvarad ver daimkvidreb zeciur sa-su-fe-vel-so. ba-zari ar ariso. morCa xvewna-mudarao. ara xar Sen sxve-biviT kacurad sikvdilis Rirsio. bedi da damsaxureba unda yvelafers.

kokaini

1. qals aucileblad sWirdeba kaci. kokains _ morfini. Zlier uyvarT erTmaneTi. gansakuTrebiT qals uWirs mar-to darCena. asevea kokaini umorfinod. gaiyinebi. sicive agitans. tvinic yinulad geqceva. fobiebi icis. darCebi nevroziani Sinabera. kokainis kokorma sul patara doziT unda miiRos mamakacis Zala. morfiniT daimtveros. ko-kaini ifurCqneba. axali ZaliT yvavis. iwyebs ulamazesi, surnelovani nayofis gamosxmas.

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2. kokainiani Stangalasi. baianebs vavsebT. cota morfi. CavujeqiT. koleqtiurad vikeTebT. saxeze mkvdrebiviT cx-virsaxocwafarebulebi noxze viSxlarTebiT. yvela xmamaR-la erTmaneTze miuTiTebs. Cumad. suu... Cuu... cxvirsaxoci fobiebisgan damcvelis rols asrulebs. sinaTle saxifa-Toa. prixodSi kaSkaSa sxivebma ar unda gagaRizianos. samu-damod giJi darCebi. fsiqiatriuli seansi bevrjer meorde-ba. ase kokainis xaverdovani talRa moiTxovs. sul 5 wuTs grZeldeba. amitomaa xSiri gameoreba aucilebeli. uamravi gaCxerisgan venebi travmirdeba. xmeba. yalibdeba SuSis ven-ebi. sacodavi sisxlZarRvebi SuSis simyifes iZens. moyvi-Talo-momwvano lurji zolebi dauyvebian xels. odnavi Sexebisganac SeiZleba daimsxvres. idayvSi ubralo moxrac ki did sisxlCaqcevas iwvevs. mogewonaT? droze gaikeTeT. magaria. kokains ar sWirdeba RmerTis daxmareba. damou-kidebeli tipia. sam weliwadSi asiani mogasvenebs. gagyina-vs. lednikis susxic aRar Segawuxebs.

alkoholi

1. alkoholi gagavelurebs. sxva gza arc gaqvs. ufu-lod. uwamlod. uSvilebod. uamxanagebod. yovelgvar u-uoT. unda dalio. realobas versad gaeqcevi. sad wax-val? Tavis mokvlasac iCaliCeb. rogoria ucxo garemoSi cxovreba? uwamlod Tan! ratomRac dReSi Svidjer giWe-ren. upriCinod. iRlebi. gafarCakebisgan Zala ar gyofnis, saqme bolomde miiyvano. naxevrad siafandze iklav Tavs. venebs iWri, rom gadarCe ise, an sxvam giSvelos.

2. mdinaris piras davTveri. aTkaciani jgufi zis. mive-di. gavaboleT. davlieT. Tbiliselebs dascinian. yvelaze didi amovarCie. cxvirSi muSti vglije. gavxti. dana ga-vaZre. ver mekarebian. garSemo darbian. didma raRac awia. liandags vxedav. Cemi Tavis mimarTulebiT moZraobs. miax-lovdeba. sami Tve reanimaciaSi viweqi. yba gamityda. ybaze TabaSirs ver daadeb. kbilebs Soris mavTulebi gamiyares.

zeda da qveda yba erTmaneTs miabes. sami Tve usityvod. Cineli swavluli mandariniviT dafaze vwerdi ierogli-febs. dadebiTi Sedegi miviRe _ davdinjdi da davbrZendi.

omi

1. es omi raRa iyo? me kidev gagiJeba maklda?! daaryebu-li tvini isedac astralSia gasuli. wamali swyuria. sul gadavedi Wkuidan. jer magrad ar isrodnen. aqa-iq mxolod. isic RamiT. garToba? cota gakeTeba. bevri plani aryiT. varazisxeviT televiziis mitingze. an iSviaTad parla-mentTan. televiziis mitingi sjobda.

2. deda Sevagine. samtredielma mxedrionelebma fex-ebiT amwies. Cems Tavs asfalts atboini malatokiviT ubraxuneben. gonebas vkargav. loginze viRviZeb. yve-laferi mtkiva. neknebi maqvs gatexili. ZlivZlivobiT avd-eqi. sarkeSi Cavixede. eee?! sad wavida cxiri?! veZeb. ke-fazeaa! airwinaRiviT galurjebuli gofrirebuli miliT saxes uerTdeba. airwinaRi Zlier aferxebs sunTqvas.

3. amjerad zviadistebma viTom maradiorobaze dami-Wires. marmarilos iatakze vwevar. cxviriT univermaRis mtvers visunTqav. lula Tavzea mobjenili. sikvdili ax-losaa. Tvalebi davxuWe. sibneles simSvide moaqvs. amo-brundi! gesvri! Se axvaro mxedrionelo! amotrialeba ar SeiZleba. TvalebSi Camxedavs. mere advilad momklavs. Cemi sxeulis konturebis naturidan xatvas iwyebs megreli leonardo. galewili mTvralia. sakuTar daxvretas pir-velad veswrebi. jeri yurisZirSi. yurebi damigubda. isev jeri. kargi msrolelia etyoba. axlos ajens tyviebs Tav-Tan. saxeSi mesoba atkecili mozaikis pawawina nawilakebi. qvesknelSi viyurebi. ori mWidi damacala. amouSva boRmis orTqli. gauara gaSmagebam. megrelic WeSmariti qarTve-lia _ separatizms ver daswameb. ar dambrida. jigaria. ga-dav-rCii-i-i!

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werili mesame: LUCKY Cemo mosaferebelo gulistkivilo N, es ambebi samoc-

daTiani wlebis TbilisSi xdeboda da erT cnobil mkeTe-bels, metsaxelad `laqis”, Seexeba. imxanad bombiviT xma gavarda _ `kinos saxlSi“ Sedgeba sakulto filmis _ Ò Lucky Man!“-is Cveneba!.. mTeli qalaqi ingliseli msaxio-bis malkolm makdouelis dauviwyari, miamituri RimiliTa da alan praisis SesaniSnavi simRerebiT bodavda. filmis gmirs, komivoiaJor mik treviss, warmoudgeneli Tavga-dasavali elodeba. is SemTxveviT akrZalul zonaSi xvdeba, sadac ganTavsebulia saidumlo samxedro obieqti. miuxe-davad sasikvdilo xifaTisa, ìRblians” mudam umarTlebs: mik trevisi RimiliT xvdeba nebismier gansacdels da Tav-brudamxvevi siuJetis msvlelobisas is SesaniSnav qaleb-sac uyvardebaT. mTeli filmis ganmavlobaSi es suleluri Rimili mis saxes ar Sordeba da sakuTari iRblianobiT gmiri TiTqos dascinis kidec sastik bedisweras.

...ase Searqves mas LUCKY. rogorc yvelas miaCnda, qalaq-Si aravin iyo masaviT bednieri da iRbliani. wamalic sul hqonda, qalebSic didi warmatebiT sargeblobda, cnobili klinikis wamyvani eqimic iyo, Jiguli- 07”-Tac daqroda da ZaRlebic iSviaTad iWerdnen. mdidari mSoblebis wyalo-biT _ vakeSi bina da bednieri col- Svili. turistuli sagzuriT, germaniis demokratiul respublikaSic iyo namyofi da ungreTis socialisturSic! iqedan wamalic ox-rad Camozida da moskovis saerTaSoriso `Serementievos“ aeroportis sabaJoc uzrunvelad gadalaxa: kodein-noq-sironiT piramde avsebuli CemodniT _ `gdr“-dan da `kind-er siurprizebSi“ saTamaSobis magier CamontaJebuli erTi kilo TeTri yayaCos gamxmari wveniT _ ungreTidan. erTi sityviT _ ò, iRbliano!“.

pirvelad seriozul xifaTs, kirovobadidan momava-li, `wiTel xidze“ gadaeyara. cnobilma ZaRlma, `narkoma-

nia-prostituciis“ sammarTvelos ufrosis moadgi lem, gen-eral yurSitaSvilis Zmam avtobusidan Camoxsna da `faqti“ ver upova. gabrazda da gacofebulma sakuTar venaSi gaSve-buli opiumis `Cekebis“ nafxeki celofnebi Caudo.

`wiTeli xidi“... mdinare algeTis kalapotze gadebuli Zveleburi aguriT naSeni nageboba, romlis orive bolos ganlagebuli iyo miliciis saguSagoebi, gzis gadasaketi SlagbaumebiT. erTi SexedviT _ saqarTvelosa da azer-baijanis damakavSirebeli moasfaltebuli gadasasvleli. TiTqos, sxva araferi...

am viwro, morkaluri xidiT miemgzavrebodnen Tbilise-li mkeTeblebi wamlis Camosatanad da lomkis mosaxsnelad. ukana gzaze ki, gaCxerili biWebiTa da wamliT gaZeZgili manqana, jer gulgril azerbaijanel milicielebs Cauvli-da, Semdeg ki qarTuli miliciis mrisxane reids miadgebo-da. sastvenis xma, joxis daqneva... Slagbaumi daketilia... damuxruWeba, `Tqveni sabuTebi“, `gadmobrZandiT“, Cxreka. àba, saxelo aiwie“, venebis daTvaliereba, daCxvletili xelebi da borkilebi. cema, cema, cema _ `Tqvi!“. Tu Seni ver gipoves, `faqtis“ Cadeba da dapatimreba.

`wiTeli xidi“ nebismier narkomans SiSis ofliTa da daWeris molodinis samarisebuli dumilis gawelili wame-biT axsovs. is mudam jojoxeTidan gamosasvlel gzad darCeba. am dawyevlil adgilas dro gaiyina. aq aTeulo-biT welia araferi Secvlila, mxolod dasaxeleba mili-cieli policielze...

`laqis” 1979 wels Sevxvdi. biWebi daTosTan visxed-iT, axali wlis Rame dgeboda, marneulSi wamlis asaRebad gamgzavrebul devikas velodebodiT. imedi ar gagvicruv-da _ `Tovlis babua“ zustad 12 saaTze `Savis“ 10- gramiani paketiT xeldamSvenebuli mobrZanda. gaviCxireT, erTmane-Ti gadavkocneT da dakaifebulma stumrebma, tradici-isamebr, axali wlis ojaxebSi Sesaxvedrad gaqusles. me, daTo da ̀ laqi“ Cveul ̀ Ramis saubrebs“ SevudeqiT. swored

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im RamiT movismine `laqisgan“ vrceli dokumenturi moTx-roba im saswaulebriv gadarCenaze...

`...biWo, me da devikas kiravabadel norikasgan 9 kilo `kuknari“ mogvaqvs! imxela faqtia, barigac magrad da-izmenda. norikam Savi saTvale moirgo, piri daibana da dasvelebuli Tma gadaivarcxna. bazridan celofnis ori uSvelebeli parki amoitana da manam lurji izolentebiT gadakruli yayaCoiani parkebi did celofnebSi sagul-dagulod Capresa. samiveni devikas stafilosfer `06“-Si CavsxediT da maspinZelma lamis kiravabadis gasasvlelam-de gamogvacila. amdeni `kuknari“ gvidevs _ dafquli Te-Tri yayaCos pilcaa, 9 kilogrami, rogoria?!

`wiTel xids“ vuaxlovdebiT, vnerviulobT, reidebia gaqanebuli. kiravabadSi rom movdiodiT, maSin dgebod-nen. devikas veubnebi _ davai, me avtobusSi gadavjdebi da faqts ise gadmovitan-Tqo. marTlac, manqaniT avtobuss davewieT, gavaCereT, celofnebi zeviT, Taroze, Semovde da iqve davjeqi. avtobusi daiZra. xidze SevediT. qarTul mxares sammarTvelos gagania reidia. dedas itynaven es bo-zebi! savarZelSi Rrmad CaveWede, Tvalebi davxuWe, viTom mZinavs... `fss-ss-s...wzz... _ ìkarusis“ avtobusi gaCer-da. karebi gaiRo, am bozma, yurSitaSvilma (`yurSam“), ar Semoixeda! qalaqidan kargad micnobda _ aba, davai, Se Ce-misa, CamoeTrieo! naruCnikebi damades, kmayofilebas ver malaven _ faqtiT daviWireTo! celofnebi CamoaTries, er-Ti-ori wamiTaqes, saguSagos karze borkilebiT mimabes da reidi gaagrZeles _ Cemi dardi aRarc aqvT, ukve naRdi var! romelime ZaRli reididan Seisvenebs, jixurisken wamova, Camivlis, panRurs damiadebs, wyals dalevs. ukan wasvlam-de _ kai udarsac roJaSi miTavazebs. baksiorski gruSasav-iT var ra... mara ras vigrZnob?! jer imdeni ̀ kuknari“ maqvs naWami, mere imdeni `ximia“ gakeTebuli, matarebelma rom gadamiaros, ver gavigeb! mTavari gamayuCebeli _ 9 kilo narkotikiT var daWerili, 10-15 weli gavaze maqvs gadebu-li. col-Svili, ded-mama, cixe, warsuli cxovrebis kadre-bi _ kinosaviT miedineba TavSi. vis scalia tkivilisTvis?!

naxevar saaTSi `yurSam“, rogorc iqna, moicala, mag dalocvilma! xom ici, romelia? yofili msoflio Cem-pionia WidaobaSi! àba, Cemi biWi, axla xom dagiadeo!” _ uxaria am yles, mosalodneli kaifisgan xelebs ifSvnets. daiwyo celofnebis amolageba, guli miskdeba! ravaria 9 kilo `kuknari“?! 10 weli xelSi miWiravs! gaxsna, amoiRo... saTali... ufro Rrmad Cayo xeli _ xizilalis qilebi, kide _ isev saTali... eee! mec gamovylevdi! pri Com zuTxi? me wamali medo! `haaa, Se nabozaro _ gavarit _ ikrebiT vaW-roba daiwye, Se Cemisa?”. eca meore celofans... Cqara, Cqa-ra, xelis faTuri _ igive! krugom zuTxebSi davcuravT! vfiqrob, biWo, miraJia, sizmaria, amdeni wamlisgan, xo ar gavreke?! celofnis parkebi Cemia, saTali _ ara!

uceb sifaTSi magari damiada da yviris: `gvaToxla am nabozvarma, faqti avtobusSia!”. daaxta Tavis `06’’ da sx-vebTan erTad gaqanda... vdgavar karebTan mibmuli, isev daxvretas velodebi... naxevar saaTSi aqafebuli dabrunda _ mogvatyua amis dedao, naRdi vici, blomad mohqondao! mcemes, ra mcemes! nu, ai... mokled, boqsis dasrulebisas Cempionma Tavisi gaCxerili celofnebi _ rom afxikav, xom ici, da opiumis kvali rom rCeba, ai, is _ jibeSi Camido. mainc gqondeso, iyoso, bevri ro ar gaatrakoo.

...me viyo rihard zorge, saqmeSi figurirebda 0,04 grami! dedas geficebi, 0,04! mere gamomZiebels vekiTxe-bodi _ atomuri sasworiT awoneT nils boris labora-toriaSi, Tu rogor daadgineT raodenoba-Tqo?! karoCe, saRamomde mibmuli viyavi, TviTon reidobdnen biWebi, gadafrenaze myof morfinistebs iWerdnen da fuls awer-avdnen. Ramisken wavediT mTeli reidis sastavi Tbilisis avtosadgurSi. Cemi avtobusi unda kargad gaSmonon da `kuknari“ ipovon.

mivediT. me manqanaSi damtoves, Smotkebis sakidze xe-lborkiliT mibmuli. TaTari mZRolebi gaaRviZes, Cveneba CamoarTves _ sad amovedi, ra meWira xelSi... daiwyes avto-

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busis Cxreka. ra uqnees?! deda utires, daSales avtobusi! TaTrebi kivian: èe, TavarisC naCalniq, Tak zaCem delaeS, sto pracenTav gavaru, neTu Tam, nuuu!”.

erTsaaTiani avtobusze Sesevis Semdeg, aqafebuli `yurSa“ yviris, es iseTi goTverania, wamals pakriSkeb-Si Seamastirebdao! borblebi daaZvres _ borblebi amxe-la ìkaruss“! zafxulia, TeTri, gaqaTqaTebuli formis perangebi acviaT. ise iyvnen darwmunebulni, 4-5 saaTi eZebdnen! vin CamiSva ase mwared, aqamde vfiqrob, magis dedas ro Seveci! perangebi kiravabadul mtverSi sul amoeganglaT, Tan oflSi gaiwurnen. karoCe, deda moe-tynaT _ `kuknari“ ver naxes! mirtyes _ Tqvio. veubnebi _ Cestnad, mec veraferi gamigia-Tqo! vin dagijerebs?! isev qoTi. mimiyvanes sammarTveloSi, ufrosTan, polkovnik ja-naSiasTan. manam `yurSa“ raciiT gamudmebiT atyobinebda _ faqts male vipoviT da movaTrevTo.

televizia melodeba, stiv mak quini var ra! Semiyvanes, roJa aqvs janaSias dalagebuli, viTom soliduri, uwesi-eresi kacia da uyure, ras mebazreba: `batono Cemo, Cven yvelaferi viciT!’’ _ jer bozur pauzas akeTebs... Semdeg dabali, mtkice xmiT agrZelebs _ ̀ ..Tqveni nebaa, raRa Tqma unda, magram sjobs narkorealizatori kiravabadidan ag-vayvaninoT da Tqven saxlSi wabrZandebiT”. gverdze `yur-Sa“ SibzikasaviT midgas, xom gaxsovs, metra dvacatia, dag-vajuli, moWidavis yurebiT, CamCurCulebs: `daTanxmdi, Se Cema, erTad wavideT, Sexval iyidi, daviWerT, `kuknaric“ erTad gavikeToT, meti kai sityva ra ginda?!”.

aq `laqis“ fraza uTqvams, yvela drois msoflios saukeTeso gamonaTqvamebis anTologiaSia Sesuli! gmiru-li poza miuRia da warmouTqvams: àra, batono Cemo, ara! me Cems keTildReobas sxvis ubedurebaze ver avageb!.. Sei-Zleba wabozeba Zalianac mawyobdes, mindodes kidec, ma-gram amis uflebas sindisi arafriT momcems!’’...

`cemeT, amis dedas Sevecio, gabereT cemaSio!” _ duJi-syriT daubRavlia galantur, dawkepilulvaSian janaSias

da aseTive kulturul, yurebdaWyletil `yurSas“. briga-das dauwyia, ra dauwyia! erTi kvira scemdnen da bolos `laqis“ uTqvams, _ èg 0,04 gramiani celofnebi Cemia, Ce-mio, aba, visi iqnebao, Tqveni dedas, ro Sevecio!“. dedamiss 20000 maneTi gadauxdia. spetaki iuristebi qrTamze rom ar damwvariyvnen, marneulSi Cumad gaasamarTles da 3 weli pirobiTi miusajes.

albaT, dakvirvebuli mkiTxveli ikiTxavs: kargi, mag-ram sad gaqra daTos 9 kilogramiani `faqti”?! ai, ra yo-fila:

`...biWo, avtobusSi rom avedi, sul 5-6 kaci ijda, erTi samxedroc. gverdze mivujeqi. zeviT avixede. mTel avtobusSi sul ori CanTa devs, Cemi oric mivude. pos-tze, qveviT rom Camiyvanes, aTreula `yurSa“ da egreve Cem zemoT Semodebuli CanTebisTvis dauvlia xeli. visiao? _ ukiTxavs. yvela gaCumebula. Turme jariskacs zuTxi-xi-zilala moaqvs kontrabandiT, TbilisSi gasayidad! ras amoiRebs xmas?! gverdi-gverd ido Cemi da imis tvir-Ti. Sofrebs anaxes _ dapatimrebuls xelSi eseni eWira? ieso! _ maTac daumowmebiaT da mgzavrebsac. naucbaTev-ad amoRebis oqmic SeudgeniaT, xelic mouwerinebiaT. Tan darwmunebuli iyvnen, faqti vipoveTo. aba, sul oTx Can-TaSi maincadamainc sxvisaze rom dauvlia xeli, ra icoda `yurSam“? Tan Sofrebmac daamowmes, mgzavrebmac... amocana gvekiTxeba: ratom aravin araferi Tqva?!... ai, pa-su-xic! mec da im kontrabandist jariskacsac zustad erTnairi celofnis parkebi gvqonda!!! aba, imasac kiravabadis ba-zarSi uyidia da norikasac, sxvanairi sabWouri deficitis pirobebSi rogorRa iqneboda?!“.

sanam `laqi“ xelborkiliT karebze miubamT, sanam `yurSas“ mouclia, mere zuTxebi upovia da bolos avto-buss dasdevnebia, manam devikas wynarad reidisTvis Ta-visi stafilosferi `06”-iT Cauvlia da `laqic“ amirani-viT mijaWvuli daunaxavs. devika avtobuss dasdevnebia da gauCerebia. giJiviT avardnila da sabargulis Taroze Cemi celofnis parkebic SeuniSnavs! mivardnila da naRde-

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bi, `kuknariT“ gaZeZgili, Camouxsnia! jariskaci isev gaCu-mebula, devikac policieli hgonebia! ufiqria: `vai, vai, es ra SarSi gavebi, ra dediCemis vWame, aikanuSa deidas rom davujere da asatrina wamoviRe TbilisSio...” _ da am sityvebiT giJiviT avtobusidan gadamxtara da garSemo udabnos tramalebSi landiviT gauCinarebula... sul xuT wuTSi avtobusi isev daukavebiaT, amjerad gaafTrebuli `yurSa“ avardnila. TaTari Sofrebic sul dacentrilan, ram gagvaCerebina im parkebiani biWisTvis, albaT àTomnii bomba” Tu mohqondao.

`...me, maleve gamovedi. `yurSas“ Cadebuli faqtis sa-kuTar Tavze aRebaze, Tavidan mtkice uarze videqi da kargadac mibraxunes. bolos ZaRlebma imedi dakarges da xnieri, sapensio asakis maiori gamomZieblad momiCines. jigari kaci _ Tvalebi uceb, pirvelive dakiTxvaze amixi-la: megobaro, me sadacaa pensiaze gavdivar da mxolod Tqveni keTildReoba malaparakebs. vxedav, ganaTlebuli kaci brZandebiT, eqimi... Tqven narkotikis kuTvnilebis faqts ar aRiarebT, saqmes ver vxuravT. axla, rogor war-mogidgeniaT _ Tqven iZaxebT, ar aris Cemio da bolos, sammarTvelos mTel reids da maior yurSitaSvils erTad daiWeren, da Tqven gagamarTleben? ras artymevinebT am uvicebs, aRiareT danaSauli! garantias gaZlevT _ sabuTebs uceb gavaformebT da dRes saRamos saxlSi iqnebiT. gare-dan mixedeT saqmes, ase ar ajobebs?

me da ebraelma devikam 9 kilo kuknari erTi Tve viCx-ireT! ise, mTlad 9-ac ar iyo. Cems gaTaviuflebamde de-vikas moutexavs 2 kilo. magram Svidi ra, cotaa?! 7 kilo pilcad dafqvili TeTri xaSxaSi!“.

...raRa bevri gavagrZelo da bednieri kaci iyo `laqi“! ase legendarulad iRbliani darCa is biWebis mexsiere-baSic. samarTlianobisTvis unda iTqvas, rom mciredSi mainc ar gaumarTla... saSineli narkomani iyo da amitom saaTebi sWirdeboda, raTa gamxmar venebSi rkinis nemsiT, qargva-qargviT, sisxlSi amoTxvrils, wamali Seeyvana; bed-

ma imaSic umuxTla, rom maleve col-Svilma miatova da samudamod marto darCa; imaSic, rom fexebi ise dausivda da gauSavda, sawolidan praqtikulad verc dgeboda; amas garda, bolos galoTda da, Sariani xasiaTis gamo, xSir-ad sruliad ucnobebi gonebis dakargvamde da neknebis Camtvrevamde scemdnen... diax, sul es iyo... da kidev is, rom oTxjer gaasamarTles, meCnikovze narkologiurSi cxrametjer gamoamwyvdies, eqvsi weli infeqciuris pal-ataSi muceldasiebuli ciroziT egdo, samic _ saxlSi, mo-makvdavi, gaunZrevlad da `garSokiT“ sawolis qveS, Wers miSterebuli... sxva mxriv ki, rogorc yvelas miaCnda, is iyo naRdi `laqi“!

werili meoTxe: giorgim iwinaswarmetyvela

maS ase, Cemo N, vagrZeleb... zafxulis saRamo idga, gia CemTan amovida, Camojda

da saxareba mTxova _ ai, is lurjydianio _ da cota `ka-likebi“...

diax, mec mkeTebeli var, oRond yofili, ubral-od, vcdilob ar gavabazro. axlobelma mirCia, sakuTar Tavze nu ityvi, Torem `narkamanis” dawerils aravin waikiTxavso. Tumca yvelam mainc yvelaferi icis... nar-komaniis gamarTleba ki maqvs _ savaraudod, Tandayolili endorfinuli ukmarisobiT davibade, mere ki sabWourma Waobma momikla emociebi. faqtia, wamliT mWirdeboda en-dorfinebis deficitis Sevseba. aba, sakuTari emociebisT-vis ar memkuranala? Tu komkavSirul krebebze moxarSuli kartofiliviT vdebuliyavi da TevziviT gadmokarkluli TvalebiT nairnairi mdivnebisTvis mesmina? mere iyo da imperia daingra: mitingebi da samoqalaqo omi, uSuqoba da sicive, sma da wamlis keTeba... oh, am wyeulma sabWoeTma

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isev Camixvia _ fsiqotravma maqvs, araferi Svelis, ras izam?.. kargi, gavCerdebi, amaze ukve isedac bevri davwere.

mokled, gias Soridan ar mouvlia, TavCaRunulma pirdapir miTxra _ bevri ar minda, sul erTi zaxodi, cudad rom ar viyoo. arada, Tavis mokvla hqonia gadawyvetili. me ra vicodi?! miveci _ saxarebac da àt kaSlia- noqsiron-Tan“ erTad. `kalikebi“ cxvirsaxocSi gaaxvia, jibeSi Caido. meubneba _ `mebazrebas” Segnebulad ar vxmarob, gasagebia ratomac, moments da gios ar Seefereba da imitom:

_ erTi rame minda giTxra, daTo. giyureb, da magari razgoni gaqvs aRebuli! ar ginda, gadaiwvebi, daukeli, biWo, abarotebs.

_ aba, ra vqna to, am gaprialebul inteligencias vuyuro Tu CayvinTul, `brZen” qurdebs?! magaT dedebs...! adamianis mTavari muRami ganviTarebaa, warmateba! gia, yve-la adgili dakavebulia _ am aramzadebs traki Tu ar mie-ci, ponti araa! Sen raze ar anebeb?

amdens adre ver gavubedavdi, arc TviTon gamiyadreb-da Tavs. ufrosi iyo, bevrad, Tanac maRali da imitom. ho, sxva dros ver mivaxlidi _ aba, Sen ratom ar anebeb Tavs-Tqo. saRamo iyo zafxulis, raRac gansakuTrebulad Tbili da bneli, rogorc Semdeg gairkva, giosTvis ukanaskneli.

_ biWo, me Tu ici, upatrono viyavi, to, Tu rame makl-da? xom xedav, yovel diliT amxela kaci kafeSi miveTrevi siranuSasTan, Cemo daiko, Cemo sayvareloTi...! ra ro, egeb saaTi Sevteno da wamali viyido!

gia yovel diliT Cveni ubnis kafeSi ÒRIENT”-is saaTs siranuSas `zalogSi” utovebda da aRebul 40 mane-Tad wamals yidulobda. ho, zustad amdeni sWirdeboda vezirasTan or Ceks. ase erqva rveulis furclidan ga-keTebul cerodena wamlian pakets, erTmaneTSi gayrili pirebiT. sxvebi, orni ikeTebdnen _ erTs, magrad! gia _ ors, Sublze SemoiWerda tilos da ise, Tavi prixodisgan rom ar gaskdomoda. prixodi isaa, TavSi amovardnili sisx-

li CaquCs rom girtyams tvinSi. ise pulsirebs, TiTqos Tavis qala Zgerso da morfis nemsebi gerWoba RawvebSi.

_ wamals, Cemo daTo, zurgze èrmitaJi” rom gqondes mokidebuli, is ar hyofnis, èr-mi-ta-Ji”!

èrmitaJi” _ muzeumia leningradSi (amJamad _ sankt- peterburgSi), masze mdidruli araferi warmogvedgina imxanad.

_ eqimi xar, biWo, iswavle da gaxdi magari, magaTi nabozvari dedac..!

_ marTali xar, magram asworebs wamali _ am dampal cxovrebas gaviwyebs, magrad asworebs!

_ eh, jer sada xar, to, `gasworebebi” awi naxe Sen. wavedi me da rac giTxari, kargad daimaxsovre _ gadaiwve-bi da Cagagdeben es bozebi nagvis yuTSi, zevidan wixlsac Cagayoleben! am saxarebas waviReb...

_ ar yofila Cemi saSveli. ese igi damenZreva? mainc magaTi dedac..! daviRupebi da egaa ra! egeTi mainc ver gavxvdebi. sadac sxvebi, iqac me!

_ ra Camoyare yurebi, biWo, ara grcxvenia?! daanebe Tavi Sen am pesimistur ambebs, fexebsac ver mogWamen, ga-dis magaTi dro! amaT, icode, magrad daenZrevaT, magrad! daimaxsovre Cemi sityvebi! dro unda prosta, me amdeni aRar maqvs... bednieri kaci xar, Sen moeswrebi. mTavaria, ar danebde da gaimarjveb! aba he, wavedi!

_ TiTo zaxodi xom ar dagveSva?_ ara, dRes ra pontia, xvalisTvis Sevinaxav._ mere amxela kacs eg ras geyofa, miTxari, maqvs..._ meti aRar damWirdeba. cotac meyofa, raRac saqme

maqvs xval, ar minda lomkaSi viyo da egaa ra. icode, am cxovrebaSi mTavaria sikvdilis SiSs sZlio! danarCeni, ise ra, midis-modis... axalgazrdobaSi dabredva SeiZleba ufro xelsayrelic iyos _ gafarCakeba magrad ar mevaseba, texavs... karoCe, wavedi, aba, Sen ici, ar danebde! WkuiT da gaiRime, Zmao Cemo, gaiRime!

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ucnaurad ki moiqca _ ̀ kalikebi“ ar dalia, xvalisTvis Sevinaxavo.. arc _ `Zmao” _ uTqvams adre... arc es ucnauri _ `gaiRime”? verc `dro aRar maqvs” gavige, ras niSnavda... mxarze damado xeli, TiTqos momeferao. giosTvis esec ucxo Jesti iyo. gaixura karebi da kibeebze daeSva-a...

diliT Sevityve, Tavi mouklavs TofiT. lula pirSi Caudia da fexiT Caxmaxze gamoukravs. didi xnis ganmav-lobaSi, gaRviZebisas Tvalwin medga suraTi: dabal magi-daze Wiqa wyali, cxvirsaxoci, sigareti, saferfle; gaxevam-de Ria piri, damskdari tuCebi civ lulaze da fexis cera TiTi Caxmaxze; gios daZabuli, TiTqos gakvirvebuli saxe.

mTeli Tbilisi bWobda _ ratom moikla giorgim Tavi? Tanac SiSvelma?! panaSvidze damswre maRali sazogadoe-ba am ukanasknel faqts udides mniSvnelobas aniWebda da, verafriT gaego, Tu ratom ar ecva aseT gadamwyvet mo-mentSi kostiumi an Tundac, raime samosi mainc?! yvelas-aTvis friad gasakviri gaxldaT, miuRebelic, gios mier arCeuli sazogadoebrivi kontrolisgan Tavis daRwevis SemaZrwunebeli meTodic! man xom adamianebs Sansic ki ar dautova, muxis kuboSi sazeimod gawolili giorgisTvis daxuWul TvalebSi Secodebanarevi gakicxviT mainc Caexe-daT! xalxi verc ormetriani gias gaRunuli, sikvdilisgan gayviTlebuli cxviriT da erTmaneTis cqeriT datkba ise, rogorc unda, vera! arc WirisufalT misca Sansi, adamin-urad etiraT igi, TavganwirviT CabRauWebodnen da eloS-naT micvalebulis gaxevebuli loyebi, Semdeg ki eWoravaT mis colze. erTi sityviT, xalxi mSralze datova! Tavis qala hqonda axdili da naxevari yba momZvrali, cxvirTan erTad. saxis adgilze TeTri sveli tilo efina. gaRiz-ianebul sazogadoebas amdeni pasuxgaucemeli kiTxva da ukmarisobis SegrZneba ki ase gamomwvevad dautova. Zalian cudi biWi aRmoCnda giorgi, Zalian cudi!

mokled, mTeli Tbilisi bWobda _ ratom moikla giom Tavi? me ki vicodi mizezi _ gadaiwva da imitom. col-ic gaSorda, marto darCa. simartoveSi advilia gadawva

_ uSvilebod, usiyvarulod. Tanac, `dro marTlac aRar hqonia” _ sabWoeTis mSobiarobis Semdgomi fsiqozis kidev bevri weli gvkidebia kiserze. ufskrulSi mieqaneboda da veraferi gaawyo, garda imisa, rom uxeSad Seewyvita vard-na. veRar gauZlo sakuTari Tavis damcirebis, usindiso-bis, ganadgurebis cqeras, sanam fskers daaskdeboda, Zli-er gabrazda, gaqanda da glija kidec Tavi kedels!

avedi, iwva muzaradiani goliaTi _ frenk zapa! iwva da gverdze, TeTr abreSumze edo patara lurji àxali aRTq-ma“ oqrosferad amoburculi jvriT, warwera - ̀ Евангелие”... eh, netav damejerebina giosTvis, sul co-ta-Ti mainc dame-jerebina, sul odnav. ara! me Cemi gza mqonda gasavleli, dasaZlevi! mTeli `gasworebebi” win mqonia, vai rom win...

ar vicodi vardnis formulis dasasruli, ar mqonda jer wakiTxuli es wyevla: `xolo simSvide, romelsac Sen ase gaurbixar axla, iqneba SenTvis, rogorc dakarguli samoTxe”...

Tavis mokvlac ramdenjer vcade. giorgisaviT ver vi-vaJkace, venebs viWridi slabad, mTvralze, sxvas rom dave-naxe da gadaverCine, ise...

werili mexuTe:

protestis ukvdavi instinqti

es ambavi, Cemo N, ase daiwyo...jinsebsa da jinsis qurTukSi gamowyobili, ormoc

wels gadacilebuli mamakaci taxtze iwva da fiqrobda, ramdens Seadgenda 6-isa da 7-is jami. am amocanam mas Sem-deg Seawuxa, rac wina oTaxSi ginekologi dedisa da misi eqTnis Semosvlam SeaRviZa:

_ nana, gadavirie, zustad maxsovs, 100- lariani mqon-da _ 6 sigaretis vali miveci, 7 _ aryis, safuleSi erTi 20- larianiRa midevs, danarCeni sad jandabaSi waviRe?!

_ sergeevna, afTiaqari dagaviwyda?

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_ daswyevlos RmerTma, amis xelSi kidev kargad var!ase moulodnelad aekviata daTos axlad gaRviZebul,

aryiTa da aTasgvari medikamentiT gaJRenTil tvins es ariTmetikuli amocana. aba, saidan unda scodnoda, rom samzareulodan wamosuli signali yurSive unda daeblo-ka? diax, Tavidan amocana imdenad advili moeCvena, rom masze arc dafiqrebula da tvinisgan swraf, avtomatur pasuxs eloda _ 6 + 7 = ... jami ar Canda...

bioqimiur doneze gadarCenisTvis brZoliT dakave-buli neironebi umniSvnelo damatebiT datvirTvazec ki uars acxadebdnen. daTom leibi aswia, tramalis ramden-ime kafsula, rodedormis tabletTan erTad, celofnis paketidan amoiRo, pirSi Caido da sawolidan audgomlad Wiqa arayic miayola. taxtis gverdiT, patara magidaze, `Löwenbräu”-s carieli qila mainc SeanjRria,– arada gaas-worebda, tramals uxdebao,– sinanuliT gaifiqra da sig-arets moukida. tvini kvlav dumda da dasmul kiTxvaze pasuxs ar iZleoda.

samarTlianobisTvis unda iTqvas, rom sami dRiT adre mamakaci bazarSi gamyidvels auxirda, arayi nisiad maitao, da mocvenili policielebic agina. xuTma-eqvsma kacma daTo fexqveS gaigdo da kargadac aburTava. ase rom, ga-texili cxviri, Tavis tvinis gvariani Seryeva da erTi-ori neknis motexiloba, gamabruebel nivTierebebTan erTad, azrovnebas Zlier aferxebdnen.

mosawevis gaboleba daapira, magram didi hemosferoe-bidan Camosulma brZanebam,– jer adrea, wamali odnav mainc unda gaixsnaso,– Canafiqri gadaadebina.

_ ise, ra ucnauradaa es tvini mowyobili... amdeni ram gamakeTebina, 6-isa da 7-is Sekreba ki ar surs, mokali Tu ginda!” _ razec ruxma nivTierebam dedis mudmivi wamoZax-iliT,– rac ginda, is xom kargad gaxsovs, Se egoistoo,– sxartad upasuxa.

_ RmerTma icodes, me arafer SuaSi var, tvini Tavis-iT irCevs, raze ifiqros.

daTo piraRma dawva, Rrma nafazi daartya da gone-brivi Zalebis maqsimaluri moxmobiT amocanis amoxsnas Seudga.

_ maS ase, 6 + 7 =... vax Seni dedas Seveci! maica, e-q-v-ss mivumatoT Svi-di-i...

aryiT, tramaliT, rodedormiTa da Zlieri SeryeviT gaxevebuli ruxi nivTierebis zedapirze pasuxi jiutad ar tivtivdeboda. Tavidan daiwyo... SesakrebTa gadaadg-ilebisa Tu maTi nairnairi tempiT gonebiT warmoTqmis mi-uxedavad, tvini jams kvlav ar iZleoda. daTo SiSma aitana _ vai, Tu ase davrCeo! gaWirvebuli xavss eWidebodao da isev leibisqveSeTSi Seacura xeli _ paketi gamoiRo, gax-sna, mastirka SeakeTa da tramalis dawyebul moqmedebas planic miaSvela. mosawevma tramali sabolood gaxsna da odnav gadaqaCa kidec, ris gamoc, kvlav 200 grami aryis miyoleba mouwia. axla ukve SeiZleboda srulfasovani az-rovnebis procesis dawyeba. ìtako“,– Tqva da komarovis saxelobis fizika-maTematikuri skolis rusuli seqtoris yofili friadosani rusulenovan azrovnebaze gadavida:

_ Шесть плюс семь будет... будет... Даа, пиздец! auu, ra dReSi varo! _ javrianad CaiCurCula da axal

sigarets nerviulad moukida. Semdeg, panika rom ar gaR-rmavebuliyo, sakuTar Tavs damSvideba ubrZana da yur-adRebis sxva obieqtze gadatanas Seecada. am dros Tav-ic astkivda da tvinma amocanaze fiqri Sewyvita. daTom Tvalebi milula da yvinTaobas mieca.

samzareulodan iatakis sawmendi joxis braxunis xma moesma, es ki àRmzdelobiTi saaTis“ moaxloebas moas-wavebda. daTomac gverdi icvala da kidlisken gadabrun-da. oTaxis kari gaiRo, joxi patara magidas miejaxa. mi-uxedavad notaciebis smenis mravalwliani gamocdilebisa, daTo mainc daiZaba da SeikumSa. amasobaSi joxi taxtis qveS Seqanda da iq gaagrZela xmauriani sriali... uceb, da-Tom TiTebs Soris sastiki wva igrZno, xeli gaiqnia da wamojda. sadRac, zurgs ukan, pledze sigareti bolavda.

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mamakaci wamoxta da sityvebiT,– fu, Seni dedas S...o, – pledis swraf gadaferTxvas Seudga, magram wabarbacda da sawolze daeca.

_ isev daTveri, ho? biWo, tramali mTxove _ dagitove, me sulelma ludic mogirbenine da isev aryiT gaskdi?! ra jandaba ginda, fuls raRas maxarjineb?! ara ra, Cemi bra-lia, Tavze dagisvi!

_ ara, me ara, gareT gavixede da Sara Semxvda... _ viRaca Segxvdeboda, aba, ra iqneboda, Seni gulisT-

vis quCas vin gadaketavs... axlac naoperacievi davtove, ludze gamovvardi, afTiaqSi Sevirbine, vifiqre, aRar da-levs- meTqi _ Senc ar momikvde!

_ sul ori Wiqa davlie ra... _ biWo, ori mogklavs Tu aTi, ra mniSvneloba aqvs,

fexze Zlivs dgaxar. ras gavxar, arc ki grcxvenia! me kide valebi gavistumre _ sigaretis, aryis... ara ra, giJi var, naRdi giJi!

Zlivs miviwyebulma amocanam Tavi kvlav Seaxsena _ 6 + 7 =...

_ erTi qila ludi mome ra, Tavi mtkiva, tramalma icis..._ tramali da jandaba Sen! dRes mTeli orpiri Senge-

liebis qorwilSia, Sen vin dagiZaxebs?! sadac mixvediT Sen da Sara, CaamwareT xalxs. es avazaki, esa!

_ ludi maita ra...daTo wamodga, macivridan ludis qila gamoiRo da ma-

cocxlebeli siTxe miiyuda._ gulic ar gwydeba, xo? sadamde daeSvi xedav? biWo,

yvela iq iqneba, Tu vinme normaluria orpirSi, yvela! Sen egde aq da svi aryebi SarasTan erTad, fui!

daTom ludis sma Sewyvita:_ Tu iqneba, Tu arada, magaT ar gavartyi gardigard-

mo! CemTan wamalze kargad darboda eg bozi!orpiris sazogadoeba marTlac rom grandiozuli

saRamos warmodgenisTvis emzadeboda _ quTaisis milici-

is ufrosis, sergo galdavas, imave `vasiliCis“ erTaderTi vaJi, orpiris deputatis, valerian Sengelias, dediserTa qaliSvils colad irTavda! Tamadad samxareo prokuroris moadgile _ Jora vaSakiZe dainiSna, rac sufras damatebiT xibls sZenda.

daTo Tbilisidan martoobas, ufulobasa da miliciis qronikul `raundebs“ mas Semdeg gamoeqca, rac is mesa-med Tu meoTxed narkologiurSi gamoamwyvdies da sami weli pirobiTic miusajes. orpirSi Camovida, rkinigzis saavadmyofoSi eqim-reanimatologis Tanamdebobaze dain-iSna, mSoblebma iqve cincxali `ВАЗ- 09” uboZes da daviTi axal cxovrebas Seudga. daiwyo gauTavebeli qorwilebis, restornebisa da qalebis xana _ daTo gaalkaSda. gamosava-li _ TveSi erTxel gadasxmebi, 2-3 ampula `norfini“ da... yvelaferi isev Tavidan.

CamosvlisTanave, `Tbiliseli“, kargi ojaxis Svili, medicinis mecnierebaTa kandidati, raionSi `Lada Samara“-s markis avtomobilis erTaderTi mflobeli da colSvils TiTqmis gaSorebuli 37 wlis mamakaci orpiris elituri sazogadoebisa da qalTa sqesis yuradRebis centrSi mo-eqca. Tumca maleve, rogorc ki adgilobriv mkeTeblebTan vizitebSi SeamCnies, ufro ki, misi sastikad agresiuli simTvrale gacxadda, sazogadaebam galoTebuli eqimisgan piri ibruna da orpiris prestiJuli saxlebis kari misTvis samudamod daixura. swored es Seiqna ginekologi dedis guldawyvetisa da daTos gaRizianebis mizezi.

pesimizmi orgvari SeiZleba iyos: erTi _ zogadad, cxov rebis azrisadmi pesimisturi midgoma, rac filosofi-uri, ganmWvreti yaidis gonebas axasiaTebs da rasac Tavis mxriv, xSirad Tan sdevs mimdinare movlenebisadmi pasiuri damokidebuleba; meore _ yoveldRiuri yofis detalebi-sadmi imTaviTve uaryofiTi midgoma, mudmivi wuwuniTa da sakuTari warumateblobis sxvebze gadabralebiT, rac RvarZlianobisa da adamianebisadmi agresiis mizezi xdeba.

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miuxedavad erTi SexedviT uzrunveli yofisa da TiTqos warmtaci perspeqtivebisa, pirveli saxis pesimizm-ma daTo axalgazrdobidanve Siepyro. Tumca mas Semdegac, karga xans, naTeli imedebi mainc ar tovebda momaval eqims _ daviTi cxovrebisgan samarTlianobasa da Tavze xelis gadasmas jiutad elodeboda. bolo xans ki sazogadoebaze ganawyenebis ukiduresi gancda daeufla da mamakaci Tavi-si arsebobis sazriss mokle frazebiT: àm cxovrebis“- an àmaTi“- dedas Sevecio, – gamoxatavda.

...daTo sayvarel navsayudels _ taxts daubrunda, Camojda, ludi magidaze dadga, sigareti gaabola: `sergo, sergunCik, gepazorebi ara, Se aramzada... ox, Seni gasuqebu-li..!“. saqme is gaxldaT, rom sergo galdava da Tbiliseli eqimi adre, rodesac erTi orpiris miliciis ufrosi iyo, xolo meore _ rkinigzis saavadmyofos reanimatologi, erTma da imave vnebam TiTqos daamegobra kidec. Semdeg sergo quTaisis miliciisa Tu policiis ufrosad daawin-aures da galoTebuli, Sariani daTo daviwyebas mieca.

gaugebrobis Tavidan asacileblad aqve erTic unda aRiniSnos: daTo, miuxedavad Tavisi asakisa, imden revolu-ciur gardaqmnas Seeswro, imdeni xelisufleba gamoicva-la, rom ama Tu im axali wesisa da sxvadasxva pirTa Ta-namdebobebis dasaxeleba erTmaneTSi sul aeria: raikomis mdivani iyo is Tu prefeqti, gubernatori Tu gamgebeli, miliciisa Tu policiis ufrosi, mimoqcevaSi maneTi iyo, kuponi Tu lari _ aRarc imaxsovrebda. eqimma gadawyvita, rom amgvari wvrilmanebiT gonebis danagvianeba ar Rir-da da yvelafers sabWouri drois dasaxeleba dautova. is dedaqalaqis centralur moedansac `Tavisuflebis“ magi-er, xSirad `leninis moedans“ uwodebda. dRes ki, zustad ra erqva xsenebuli xelmZRvaneli muSakebis Tanamdebobebs da im droisTvis mimoqcevaSi myof fuls, sakmaod Zneli dasadgenia. amis gamo, Cvenc iZulebulni varT, gaviTval-iswinoT daTos azrovnebis abstraqtuli stili da misi terminologiiT gavagrZeloT Txroba.

daTo taxtze gadawva: 6 + 7 =... TiTebze daixeda, Tav-Si bundovanma azrma gauelva, TiTqos amoxsnac axlos iyo... am dros qorwili gaaxsenda: òx, `vasiliC“, Seni ga-zuluqebuli...“ da maleve mieyvinTa. sizmrad welszemoT SiSveli, Ripiani `vasiliCi“ estumra, romelmac wamliT savse `baiani“ miawoda. is iyo daTom gamorTmeva daapira, sergom xeli ukan waiRo da xarxariT miugo, _ mipasuxe 6 + 7 ramdenia, Torem ̀ zaxods“ ver miiRebo. ̀ vasiliCi“ sir-biliT ukan ixevda, daTo ki cdilobda, dasweoda. didxans sdia... oflSi gawuruls gamoeRviZa. magididan ludi aiRo, mosva. bevri aRarc ufiqria, _ `vasiliC”, mamaSeni aRadave, Se qajoo, _ gaifiqra da saboloo gadawyvetilebac miiRo.

jer gaiparsa, Semdeg wyali gadaivlo da gamoewyo. bolos, cisferi `batenis“ perangisa da Savi maisuris sayelo sarkis win Seiswora da sergo galdavas saxlisken daeSva. manam, raRa Tqma unda, arayi Caartya, gzisTvis erTi `CekuSkac“ Tan gaiyola. manqana aRar hyavda, radgan sul raRac naxevar weliwadSi, ramdenime avariis Semdeg, ga yida.

saqorwino musikis mkivana hangebi da damkvrelebis xrinwiani xmebi Soridanve Semoesma. mosaxvevSi Sevida. sax-ls miuaxlovda. ezoSi mezoblebis fusfusi da saqmiani gadaZaxeba, stumrebis Rrianceli, aJitirebuli qalebis kiskisi, mikrofonis wivili... da daTo sefis gakaSkaSebul sivrceSi Sevida. qorwili iwyeboda: Tamada _ Jora vaSakiZe fexze idga, mikrofons sinjavda, moadgileebs asaxelebda da mJave RviniT sawyis moTelvas atarebda; cxovrebiTa da sakuTari TaviT kmayofili, rogorc maT daTo eZaxda, `totalitaruli deidebi da biZiebi“ goWis xorcs miirT-mevdnen da xaWapurs ayolebdnen; win, siZe-dedoflis su-frasTan axlos, axalgazrda vaJebi da nazi qaliSvilebi _ momavali iuristebi, eqimebi da mewarmeebi erTmaneTs efliratavebodnen.

daTos terminologia cxadad rom warmovaCinoT, aqve ganvmartav, ras gulisxmobda is sityvaSi `totalitaru-

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li“. sazogadoebis wevrTa am individebze saubrisas, ram-denime xasiaTis Tvisebis CamoTvlis Semdeg, is mTavar maxa siaTebels ase aRwerda: ài, biWo, xelebze daakvirdi _ kacebs mtevnebze aqvT sruliad gansxavavebuli, fermkrTa-li, odnav SemWknari, Tmiani kani da konusis formis fum-fula, wagrZelebuli TiTebi. Tu Tan zomierad Sesuqebu-li, briliantis beWdebiT, asakTan Seuferebeli kekluci kiskisiT, wiTelsacxiani meuRle umSvenebs gverds _ asiani egaa - `totalitarulia!“

...daTos moulodnelma misvlam stumrebis rigebSi erTgvari SeSfoTeba gamoiwvia, Tundac imitom, rom am sazogadoebis warmomadgenlebi Tavs laRad mxolod sa-kuTar wresa an maTdami damorCilebul mdabioTa Soris grZnoben. daTo ki karga xania, aRarc maTi wrisa iyo da arc maT upiratesobas aRiarebda. mobarbace eqimTan Tanaarse-bobis gardauvalobiT Sewuxebulma `totalitarulebma“ maspinZels, sergo galdavas, gadaxedes. `vasiliCic“ dab-neuli Canda, radgan ucxotomelTagan kastis sazRvrebis dacva respeqtabeluri sazogadoebis yvela wevrs mkacrad moeTxoveba. uxerxuloba misma meuRle marinam ganmux-ta _ qali eqimTan mivida, gadakocna, xelkavi gauyara da mezoblebis sufrasTan miipatiJa. daviTi yvelas xazgas-mulad galanturad, Tumca sakmaod SesamCnevi ironiiT miesalma, orpiris `maRalma sazogadoebamac“ Sekavebuli RimiliT upasuxa. stumrebma ùcxo sxeulisadmi“ sifxi-zle moadunes da goWis xorcis, xaWapurTan erTad, ganad-gureba ganagrZes.

miCenil adgilamde arc misula, sefa gadakveTa da siZe-dedoflis sufras miuaxlovda. magidas mouara da jer siZe gadakocna, xolo Semdeg, rogorc TviTon yvebo-da,– ise SeviWeri rolSi, rom dedofals davetake da xe-lze vemTxvieo. Zaaan damajerebeli da jentlmeni viyavio:

àr vsvam, publikac cota dawynarda, jer mainc ar gaa-trakebso. mivedi ̀ muzikantebTan“. ̀ muzikantebi“ Zmebi ari-

an, jigrebi restornidan, Cems Sesvlaze, egreve, brZanebis gareSe, zedized `diliT Sens baRSi vRiRineb“ da `futkari rogorc afTiaqaris“ asrulebdnen Cems sapativcemulod _ karoCe, Cemebi arian. mikrofoni egreve CamovarTvi, Wiqa xelSi aviRe, aryiT piramde avavse da davWeqe: aba, mego-brebo, smena iyos da gagoneba-Tqo!

`totalitarulebi“ miCumdnen, kiskisi Sewyda, yvela me miyurebs... qorwili smenad iqca _ orpiris sazogadoe-bis erTi didi, elitaruli yuri me mismens. SesavlisTvis ori-sami sityva vTqvi, rom araferi eynosaT, kulturu-lad... ho, ase daviwye: Cemo megobrebo da usayvarelese-bo, gagimarjoT!.. me movedi, raTa giTxraT Semdegi ram... aryis Wiqa davcale da pauzis Semdeg gavagrZele: Tqven mogmarTavT me _ daviTi! amxanagebo, axla ki minda gTxov-oT, abrZandeT, rigSi daewyoT da mTeli razgoniT gamo-qandeT miliciis ufrosian-raikomis mdivnian-prokurori-anad da yvela erTad damaxteT aq!..

oho-hoo-ho, ambavi atydaa, nu, ambavi atydaa _ deda Svils ver aiyvanda! karoCe, ori Tve neiroqirurgiaSi vi-weqi. naxevari qorwili me mirtyamda, ufro Segnebuli nax-evaric micavda, rom ar davebrideT. mTavaria, me kmayo-fili davrCi Cemi gamarjvebiT, marTali viyavi da imitom.

gamarjvebuli xom xSirad is ar aris, vinc mowinaaRm-deges moeria, aramed swored damarcxebuli, romelic mi-uxedavad metoqis aSkara ricxobrivi upiratesobisa, ar SeuSinda mas da Tavisi simarTlis gasatanad TavganwirviT Caeba brZolaSi.

danamdvilebiT mxolod is axsovda, rom pirvelma `vasiliCma” glija. wabarbacda, daeca, fexebiT Sesdgnen, saxeze xelebi aifara. rogorc uwin, taxtze gadawolils, TiTebis danaxvaze TavSi raRac bundovanma azrma gauelva: 10 TiTi da iqac 3 _ cameti!

Semdeg, rodesac quTaisis raionuli saavadmyofos neiroqirurgiul ganyofilebaSi iwva, momxdaris Sedegad,

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yofili mecnieris analitikurma tvinma friad damafiqre-beli daskvna gamoitana: `... radgan tvini aseT eqstremal-ur pirobebSic ki ganagrZobda Tavisi mZime tvirTis zid-vas, maSasadame, protestis instinqti adamianSi erT-erTi bolo kvdeba. yovelive es gvaZlevs safuZvels, vivar-audoT, rom instinqti, refleqtorul, SesaZloa, geneti-kur donezec ki devs adamianSi da gamosakvlevi mxolod isRa rCeba _ pirobiT anu SeZenil Tu upirobo refleqsebs ganekuTvneba is?“.

P.S.es moTxroba sul axlaxans, daTosTan (amJamad,zogi-

erTni, mas fukosac eZaxian) stumrobis Semdeg davwere. sanam erTmaneTs davSordebodiT, miTxra:

_ axla cemis gaZlebac aRar SemiZlia _ erTi magari rom momxvdes, movkvdebi... aRarc vsvam. ise ki, dResac magrad minda, gareT gavide da xmamaRla viyviro:

_ partiulebo da u-, viTom memarjveneebo, Zalad me-marcxeneebo da mainc `totalitarulebo“, Tqve `ZexvisT-vis“ mebrZolo seqtantebo _ me Tqven farisevel da SuriT savse gulebSi Sevecii-i-i-i!

nawili II. intermedia. daTos gardacvaleba da fukos dabadeba

werili meeqvse: avtobiografia

erTaderTo mizezo, ris gamoc jer kidev Rirs cxov-reba, Cemo momxibvlelo N!

saaxalwlod ise, rom redaqciaSi im Tvis xelfasis aRebac ver movaswari, xuTSabaTs, gvian RamiT, me, daviT CiCua movkvdi. saRamosken CaZinebuls gameRviZa, sigarets movukide, Rrmad davanafaze, kidev... da gulis tkivil-ma adgilze gamaSeSa! TvalebdaWyetili haers TevziviT vylapavdi. tkivili matulobda. maleve goneba davkarge da, rogorc aRmoCnda, gardavicvale.

ramdenad Sedioda sikvdili Cems gegmebSi, amaze erTm-niSvnelovani pasuxi ar maqvs. vgoneb, cxovrebis mizani davkarge da amitom gadavbargdi saiqos. marTalia, axali wignebis gamocema, warmateba, qalebis yuradReba da TviT siyvarulis procesi did siamovnebas mgvrida, rac imaze metyvelebs, rom cxovreba mwyuroda, Tumca am miRwevebiT tkboba maleve neldeboda da CemSi isev gulis gamawvrile-beli mowyeniloba isadgurebda.

Cemo saTayvanebelo N, albaT, ar SeiZleba didi xnis ganmavlobaSi macocxlebel wyarod, mxolod karg qal-Tan urTierTobasa da Jimaobas moiazrebde, rogorc Cems SemTxvevaSi iyo.

gansakuTrebiT 55 wlis Semdeg SevamCnie, rom Cemi cxov-rebis nelma dinebam, mdinare zambeziviT gadatexis adg-ils miaRwia da viqtorias CanCqeriviT swrafi vardna iwyo. drois svla aCqarda _ wlebi Tvalis daxamxamebaSi gadio-da... qronikulma ufulobam da yoveldRiuri yofis mow-yenilobam sicocxle momabezra, xolo ukanasknel wlebSi saqarTveloSi gamefebulma àbsurdulma siurealiz mma“, saerTod, bolo momiRo. me cxovrebisgan daviRale _ jer

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adamianTa boRmis uRelqveS gaviRune, Semdeg ki saSualo adamianebTan ganuwyvetelma Sejibrma sabolood damca. am farisevlurma serialma, uRimRamo da Suriani Sems-ruleblebiT, cinizmis SxamiT amavso _ me cxovrebisadmi sruliad gulgrili gavxdi da gavecale kidec mas.

sikvdili, rogorc yoveldRiuri yofisgan Sveba, mar-Tali giTxraT, msurda, magram gardacvalebis momenti Zlier maSinebda. SemiZlia davaskvna, rom Cemi aRsasru-li ar iyo uecari, rogorc es erTi SexedviT Cans _ is cxovrebiseuli ganwyobis sruliad logikuri Sedegi gax-ldaT. infarqtis gamo gulis gaCereba ki, rogorc amas samedicino uwyebaSi daweren, mxolod bunebis mier gamoy-enebuli konkretuli meqanizmi iyo da meti araferi.

mokled, ase iyo Tu ise, gardacvalebis rubikoni ga-davkveTe. raRac drois Semdeg, yovelgvari gvirabisa da ga-brwyinebuli mwvane mdelos gavlis gareSe, gons movedi. Cem win doqtori fuko ijda (misi saxeli saidanRac vicodi).

_ salami, megobaro! _ miTxra man,– keTili iyos Tqve-ni mobrZaneba maradisobaSi! maS ase, saqmeze gadavideT. mokvdinebis procedura aucileblad iTvaliswinebs avto-biografiisa da ganvlili cxovrebis Tqveneuli versiis Caba rebas _ warmoidgineT, TiTqos sakuTar Tavze werT.

fukos Sevxede, raRacis kiTxva davapire, man ar maca-la da momigo:

_ es Tqvenive Semdgomi gardasaxvisTvis gamogadgebaT. misi toni Sepasuxebas ar iTvaliswinebda da mec

àucilebeli proceduris“ gavlas Sevudeqi. doqtorma gamamxneva:

_ daiwye... ho, bavSvobaze ufro vrclad, gemaxsovreba egziuperis _ Cven yvelani bavSvobidan movdivarT.

mec davnebdi da sabWouri bavSvobis siZneleebis Tx-robas Sevudeqi:

davibade 1954 wels. sul TerTmeti Tvisa viyavi, rode-sac samxedro eqimi mama kamCatkis naxevarkunZulze gaam-weses. daniSnulebis adgilamde mgzavrobas matarebliT

TerTmeti dRe da gemiT xuTi dRe dasWirda. fexi moqanave matarebelSive avidgi. mas Semdeg bajbajiT davdivar.

kamCatka _ es aris RvTis mier miviwyebuli mxare, sa-dac nafurTxi miwaze yinulis burTulad ecema, rva Tvis ganmavlobaSi ganuwyvetliv bardnis da Tovlis safari 2-3 metrs aRwevs; es aris dawyevlili miwa, sadac mud-mivi qariSxali _ purga sityva `xilvadobas“ yovelgvar azrs ukargavs; im qveyanaSi yvela, qali Tu kaci, rom ar gaiyinos, samedicino spirts wamaliviT iRebs da gazafx-ulze damdanari Tovlis qveS asobiT gaxevebul gvams _ «подснежник»-s pouloben; es jojoxeTia, sadac erTi weli samwlian staJad geTvleba, «за одичалость», sammag xelfass gixdian da saxlidan gamosasvlelad TovlSi gvirabis gaTxra giwevs; imxanad es iyo didi sabWouri cixe, romel-Sic aTiaTasobiT katorRels dilis eqvsi saaTidan oqros maRaroebisken mierekebodnen; es aris bedkruli adgili, sadac ocze meti moqmedi vulkani damangrevel miwisZvras iwvevs da naxevarkunZuls laviTa da ferfliT faravs; mi-uxedavad yvelafrisa, aq koreelebi arxeinad cxovroben da ZaRlis Casuqebul lekvebsac gemrielad miirTmeven.

is dro gaCerebuli kadrebiviT magondeba. pirveli suraTi, romelic samudamod damamaxsovrda: q.petropav-lovs-kamCatski, oTxis var, Zlieri qarbuqi; Tavidan fexebam-de SefuTuli da Tovlis burusSi gaxveuli cigaze vzivar; cigaze gamobmuli TokiT deda aRmarTSi mimaTrevs; garSemo mxolod Tovlis gorakebia. agreTve maxsovs oTaxi: qoTanze vzivar, mSoblebi CemTvis ucxo, qarTul enaze Cxuboben.

amgvar wvalebaSi eqvsma welma ganvlo, Cveni dab-runebis Jamic dadga. swored im dRes, rodesac Cveni gemi kamCatkis napirs moscilda, vulkanma `kliuCevskaia sop-kam“ kvlav gaiRviZa da didZali lavac amoafrqvia, ra-sac uZlieresi miwisZvra, ngreva da msxverpli mohyva. ase dasrulda kamCatkis epopea. aqve unda aRvniSno, rom Sem-degac, raRac zebunebrivi Zala mudam warmarTavda Cems cxovrebiseul gzas...

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ukan rom wamovediT, eqvsis vxdebodi. gzad moskovSi gavC-erdiT. ìtaliur“ ezoSi marto gasuli qalaqis quCebs gavu-yevi. Cems gauCinarebas didi aliaqoTi gamouwvevia. rodesac ded-mamas davunaxivar, CemTvis arxeinad mivseirnobdi, gare-mos interesiT vaTvalierebdi da SemxvedrT vuRimodi. ti-rili arc mifiqria da SeSinebuli mSoblebis danaxvisTanave siciliT momvkvdarvar. deda ixsenebda _ imdenad mxiaruli da Tbili bavSvi iyavi, rom gcemdi, maSinac ki ar tirodi da micinodio. metad mondomebuli da iniciativianic vyofil-var, rasac Semdegi epizodi adasturebs: adre gazafxulze mamas nawilidan 5-6 jariskaci mouyvania da mSoblebs, maTi daxmarebiT, bostanSi jer budeebi amouTxriaT, Semdeg isini nakeliT amouvsiaT da dRis bolos pomidvris nergebi daur-gavT. daRlili mamakacebisTvis dedas sufra gauwyvia. vax-Smidan gareT gamosul stumrebs ki me nakelSi amogvangluli davxvedrivar. 500 nergi pomidori saTiTaod amomiZirkvavs da saguldagulod ukan, yuTebSi, Camiwyvia.

mTeli dRe SemeZlo, saTamaSoebis grovasTan vmjdari-yavi da xSirad Turme iqve, qoTanzeve, viZinebdi. Tavisu-flebisTvis mebrZolis sulic mqonia _ mamis mier gaSen-ebul kurdRlebis meurneobaSi Sevdiodi da yurcqvitebs galiis kars vuRebdi, xolo dasasjelad mocvenil mSob-lebs kvlav mxiarulad vucinodi da vucinodi...

gadaTeTrebuli, qarbuqis bindSi gaxveuli kamCatki-sa da nacrisferi moskovis Semdeg, gaferadebuli samyaro mxolod saqarTveloSi aRmovaCine! mexsierebaSi samudamod CamebeWda: yviTeli mze, cisferi ca, babuas ezo, xasxasa mwvane balaxi, xexilis baRi, vazi da Savi yurZnis mtevnebi.

didad arc sabavSvo baRis momvlelebi mwyalobdnen, radgan `wynari saaTis“ dros Tvalebs pirveli vaxeldi da boxi xmiT yvelas vaRviZebdi. amasobaSi dac gaCnda...

avtobiografiis `Cabarebis“ proceduraSi is iyo ga-sakviri, rom ar vwerdi, mxolod cxovrebis suraTebs vixsnebdi da isini raRac meqanizmebiT fukoSi teqstad iqceodnen. me amas vxedavdi da drodadro naweris Ses-

worebasa Tu frazebis gamarTvas vaxerxebdi. erT-erTi aseTi mcdelobis dros fukom moulodnelad momigo:

_ mweralma, pirvel yovlisa, saintereso istoria unda icodes da Semdeg Tavisi naazrevi mkiTxvels mimzidveli formiT miawodos. amas garda, TviT teqsts xSiri gada-kiTxva sWirdeba, raTa azris gasagebad, CamoyalibebasTan erTad, sityvaTa SeTanxmebis melodiurobas miaRwio.

me doqtors avxede: _ fuko, geTanxmebi, magram raime Rirebulis Seqmnis sa-

fuZvlad mainc did cxovrebiseul gamocdilebas miviCnev da mxolod Semdeg modis dauRalavi Sroma da talanti.

_ ici, monotonuri Txroba, raoden daxvewili da sain-teresoc unda iyos is, momabezrebelia, – aq man daamTqnara, – periodulad ritmis Secvlaa saWiro, ar unda dagavi-wydes sityvaTa melodiaSi axali elferis Setanac... kargi, es ise, gaagrZele, gismen.

dilaa. gaviRviZe. umcrosi da gverdiT miwevs. unda gavawvalo. miyvars Tamrikos kivili. `ginda magari fokusi _ Rumelze davjdebi?“. Tamriko _ àaa! dedaa!“. mivdivar RumelTan. Tamriko _ àaa!“. trusi Caviwie. Tamriko _ àaa! dedaa!“. davjeqi! Tamriko _ àaa!“. me _ ùu _ vaaa!“. dedas Rumeli adrianad augizgizebia, ris Sesaxebac Tamrikos scodnia. magrad daviwvi. deda Semovarda. simwrisgan kri-Wa Semekra, xmas ar viReb. mainc mcemes. naxevari saukunis Semdegac ver gavige _ ra davaSave?

mezoblad var. sadili iwyeba. nigvziani xarCoa. Roms arigeben. did gobs davadeqi. oxSivari asdis. vynosav. me-zoblis didi biWi iqvea. merve klaselia. fexi gamomdo. mTeli saxiT RomSi Cavvardi. saSinlad damewva. kani gadamZ-vra. tkivili. isev mcemes. mizezi kvlav ver gavige. rTulia sabWouri bavSvoba. mSoblebi nasredinis mtkivneul igavs miambobdnen: `molas Svili wylis mosatanad unda gaeSva. sanam doqs gaatanda, manam scema. ratom urtyamdio? doqis gatexvis Semdeg gviani iqnebodao. aseTia totalitaruli aRzrdis winmswrebi meTodi.

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_ kargi, sakmarisia, ase davwvrilebiT moyolac araa mizanSewonili. Sen TxrobasTan erTad, im patara bavSvad iqcevi da amisgan tkbobaSi vardebi, guli giCuydeba da mTel bavSvobas erTianad aRwer. Cveni mizani ki sapirispi-roa _ moyolasTan erTad, bavSvobis samudamo daviwyeba.

_ erTic ra, gTxov!_ midi, neba Senia, me, ubralod xmamaRla vfiqrob. _ mogiyvebi imis Sesaxeb, rogor aRmovaCine samyaroSi

tyuilis arseboba da ramdenad gaugebari iyo imxanad CemTvis misi daniSnuleba. pirveli, rac damamaxsovrda – mSob lebis gulistkivili, maT mier ̀ kamCatkaze“ xuTi wlis ganmavloba-Si naSrom-najafis wyalSi Cayris gamo. `mTeli cxovrebisT-vis“ nayidi tansacmlisa Tu sxva sayofacxovrebo nivTebis magier, simindiTa da qvebiT avsebuli konteinerebi miviReT. Semdeg, mezobeli griSa kvics mpirdeboda, oRond Toki ar maqvs da momitaneo. saxlSi mivrbodi, babuas Toks vevedre-bodi. is ki RimiliT mpasuxobda, nu daujerebo. es `jados-nuri“ SemoTavazeba ramdenjerme ganmeorda da guli Zlier matkina. griSas sadisti dedas ro S...ci me! sabolood ki, adaminebis rwmena am SemTxvevis Semdeg davkarge: dawyebi-Ti klasebis mowafe var. univermaRis vitrinaSi axalTaxali sportuli velosipedi «Чемпион» gamodges. gagiJebulma saxlSi mivirbine da es warmoudgeneli siaxle dedas vaxare. dampirda, Tu saswavlo wlis bolos yvela saganSi xuTebi gamogyveba, velosipeds giyidiTo. gaasmagebuli mondome-biT vmecadineobdi! yoveldRe, gakveTilebis Semdeg, Cemi ocnebis velosipedis sanaxavad miviCqarodi, meSinoda, ar gaeyidaT. maRaziaSi Sevdiodi da xaris rqebiviT dagrexil saWes veferebodi. piroba Sevasrule da ojaxur sabWoze _ gveSinia, manqana ar dagejaxoso. ara viRacam, aramed TviT sayvarelma ded- mamamac gadamagdo! dRemde maxsovs...

amasobaSi mamam smas umata, dedam ki Cems cemas. amo-qmedda totalitarizmis fuZemdebluri principi _ `SiSi da Tanxmoba”. Cven yoveldRiurad sakuTar mankierebas gvaxsen-ebdnen da, Sedegad, ukiduresad dabali TviTSefasebiT gva-

jildoebdnen. yovelives sabWouri seqsualuri akrZalvebi da gardamavali asaki daemata _ me xalisiani ganwyoba veRar SevinarCune, davnebdi da bunebiT gulTbili, mxiaruli arse-ba, sakuTar TavSi Caketil, martosul mozardad gadaviqeci.

ukve bavSvobis gaxsenebis procesSi garkveuli Sveba vigrZeni. Semdeg, zrdasruli asakis dadgomasTan erTad, simsubuqem imata. TandaTan pirovnul Tvisebebs vkargav di da samyaros nawili vxdebodi. es, sakuTari `mesgan“ da-clis procesi, metad maTavisuflebda _ aRarc sircxvi-lis grZnoba mawuxebda, pasuxismgeblobis mZime tvirTic TandaTan movixseni. im miwieri cxovrebisgan gansxvavebiT, rodesac `mes“ tanjviTa da tkiviliT imeteb, aq igive pro-cess, piriqiT, aRuwereli gamWvirvalobis grZnoba mohqon-da. TxrobasTan erTad, CemSi cxovrebis etapi kvdeboda da fukoSi dawerili teqstis saxiT gadadioda. fuko, TiTqos Cemi `me“ iyo, romelic TqvenTan unda darCeniliyo; is gax-ldaT Cemi datovebuli `meebis” krebuli, romelTac gve-lis tyaviviT vicvlidi da morigi perangis moberebis Sem-deg kvlav TqvenTan vtovebdi. maradisoba CemSi Semodioda da me misi nawili vxdebodi, xolo TqvenTvis Cemi substan-cia qreboda. dRes ki qvaSi var, miwaSi...

doqtorma fukom sigaretis yuTi amoiRo, CemTvis arc SemouTavazeabia, ise gaabola:

_ megobaro, daweril sityvas aucileblad mihyveba is energetika, is ganwyobileba, romliTac es sityva avto-ris mier im konkretul momentSi daiwera. igive xdeba, mag-aliTisTvis, `skaipiTa“ Tu `feisbuqiT“ mimoweris dros.

_ es ucnauri fenomeni, Cemo fuko, mec araerTxel SevniSne. ra-ra da eg sakiTxi xuTianze vici.

_ mokled, faqti erTia, yvela sakuTari `mes“ warmo-saCenad, SeiZleba mis samkurnalodac an gare samyarosgan dasacavad, hqmnis, wers... ho, gaverTeT, gavagrZeloT. sig-aretis moweva rodis daiwye?

_ eh, fuko, cxovrebis es etapic sigaretis wvasTan erTad daiferfla...

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wlebi, wlebi, xom ici... mesame klasSi gemo gavusinje babuas Tambaqos da wiTel, ayrolebul ̀ primas”. maleve mamis pijakis jibidan moparul `Philip Morris”-ze gadavedi _ yavis-feri plastmasis yuTi Zalze momnusxvelad gamoiyureboda! am droidan moyolebuli akrZaluli xilis kvleva, damalu-lisadmi uzomo interesi da kleptomaniac ki Cemi cxvore-bis wesad iqca. me isteriulad vaRebdi daketil karadebsa Tu ujrebs, viqeqebodi saguldagulod gadamalul ojaxur oqroulobaSi, frCxilis grZeli qlibiT yulabidan saaTo-biT vaZvrendi da Semdeg ukan vyridi rkinis maneTianebs.

mavne Cvevebis dagrovebasTan erTad, CemSi seqsualuri xan evolucia, xanac revoluciac mimdinareobda. poligami-uri sasiyvarulo fsiqozi bavSvobaSive damewyo. 10-12 wli-sas TavdaviwyebiT miyvarda yvela xuTosani klaseli gogo. isini dResac cxadad maxsovs: putkuna, TeTrbabTebiani olia d.; gaberilloyeba, didTvaleba, nazi rita j.; maRa-li, giSrisferTmiani, xmeli, dakunTuli fexebiT, liuda k. ... maxsovs maTi siarulis manerac ki: olias mZime, bajbaja svla; ritas haerovani nabiji fexis wverebze; liudas bale-rinasaviT gareT mimarTuli terfebiT narnari. amas garda, vgiJdebodi umcros pionerxelmZRvanelze, sveta d.- ze da mis momnusxvel borcvebze, xolo didtuCeba, qeraTmiani, cisferTvaleba ufrosi pionerxelmZRvaneli fania, rome-lic imxanad asakovan da amitom miuwvdomel qalRmerTad mimaCnda, ukidures sasowarkveTaSi magdebda. CemSi es vne-baTaRelva mimdinareobda klasis damrigeblis Svilis, na-dia g.-s Tavdauzogavi, eWvianobiTa da tkiviliT aRsavse siyvarulis fonze, romelsac gonebis dakargvamde mivyavdi da yvela sxva ltolvas faravda. mamis naCuqarma `robinzon kruzom”, `samma muSketerma” da `graf monte kristom” sab-olood damRupa. gamudmebiT vocnebobdi, sizmradac ki vxedavdi, rogor dakbenda Cems usayvarles feriebs saSine-li buzi cece da maT afrikuli cieb-cxeleba qu ewyebodaT. am dros me, erTaderTi erTguli mijnuri, mamac mSvelelad vevlinebodi maT, sasikvdilo sasTumalze migdebulT, Tavs

vevlebodi da nazad, mosiyvarule xeliT vadebdi Sublze civ safenebs. ase iwyeboda Cveni saukunovani, usazRvro siyvaruli... sizmrad Cemi ocnebis obieqtebi periodulad itexdnen fexebs, maT Tavs esxmodnen boroti yaCaRebi da, isev da isev me, ukidegano okeanis talRebis, Stormis mi-uxedavad, karavelis cxvir ze winmdgomi, kamzolSi da TeTr, maRalyelian windebSi gamowyobili, gverdze gamoCrili xm-liT mivcuravdi maT gamosaxsnelad.

meeqvse klasisTvis CemSi aboboqrda taifuni, daiwyo uneblie `miwisZvrebi“! warmoudgenlad mizidavda biZaCe-mis mier amerikidan Camotanili mwvane avtokalami, romlis gadatrialebisas ori didmkerdiani, qeraTmiani lamazma-ni SiSvldeboda; Wkuidan gadavyavdi mkerdze operaciebis samedicino atlass. Semiyvarda moklekabiani frangulis maswavlebeli darina, romlis gamoc wina merxze gadav-jeqi da gamudmebiT Zirs vagdebdi kalams, raTa Semdeg, TiTqos kalmis asaRebad, qvemoT CavmZraliyavi da Tvali SemerWo mis sqel, odnav SeWmuWnul TeZoebSi. xelovnur-ma da uneblie `miwisZvrebma“ imata da rixteris SkaliT aT bals miaRwia! merxebs Soris daWerobana, TeTrbabTiani klaselebis mkvrivi ZuZuebi da moklekabiani maswavleble-bi sastik ndomas kidev ufro autanels xdidnen.

meSvide-merve klasisTvis, rodesac TeTri perangis gulisjibes `daisis” ukve piradi yuTi WuWyiani wiTliT asxivosnebda, gadamria poloneli ebraeli fizikis maswav-leblis, savaraudod TeTrma, uaRresad fafukma trakma. ver moviTmine. Sesvenebis Semdgomi Wyletvisas nazad mivade gavaze xeli da gavSeSdi. droTa svla Sewyda! axlac maxsovs comisebri sirbile, romelSic Caeflo Cemi mtevani.

sacxovrebeli saxlis sxveni gaxda Cemi da ezos biWebis xSiri Sekrebis adgili. aq midioda ginebaSi daxelovneba, Sairoba, sigaretis weva da koleqtiuri nZreva. erTi im-droindeli epizodi: me da gia martodmarto davrCiT sx-venze. sigarets veweviT. gia odnav ufrosia. jibeSi iqeqeba. saReWi rezina ̀ Ciklisis” TeTr firfitas iRebs, mCuqnis da

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mTavazobs: `modi, kutus Tavs ukan Segiyof, kai?”. SemeSin-da. mexveweba. ar vTanxmdebi. gamoviqeci. `totalitaruli deidebis” sibrZnem miSvela, vicodi: `jer `JuvaCkas” daRe-Wav, mere sigarets gaaboleb da bolos, gabozdebi kidec”.

dadga merve-mecxre klasis gardamtexi xana. kaSkaSa mze. birJaze mozrdili `Zveli biWebi” mocisfro-lurj `Levi Strauss“-is an ukana jibeebze oqrosferelvebian `Su-per Rifle“-isa da `Wrangler“-is jinsebSi. Temura, WiWyina, nukria, pavlika... mudam kaifSi, welSi moxrilni, sveli cxvirsaxociT xelSi, Camyayebul socialistur sazoga-doebas xmamaRla agineben, maTi yvelas eSinia, miliciasac, romelsac mainc gaurbian. danebiT dadian, `sakaifod ba-zroben”, yvelaze lamazi gogonebi maT etrfian. amieridan Sesabamisia Cemi ocnebac _ yvela ZaliT vecado, odesme mainc mivaRwio maTi manerebis, Cacmulobis, gambedaobisa da momxibvlelobis simaRleebs.

am droisTvis, anu merve klasisTvis, deidaCemis ujraSi napovnma `noqsironis” vardisferma flakonma miipyro Cemi yuradReba. aseTive cxoveli interesi aRZra sxva feradma tabletebmac: wiTelma `ciklodolma”, mwvane èleniumma”, yviTelma `lomparkinma” da TeTrma `seduqsenma”. danar-CenSi, ori-sami wliT ufrosma mezobelma da im droisTvis ukve gamocdilma morfinistma, besikam gamarkvia.

mecxre klasis damTavreba lurji `kosmosiT” aRvniSne. `meidnis“ planma gaaxalisa dagubebuli komunisturi yofa. megobrebTan erTad daviwyeT taSkentSi, samaryandSi, bux-araSi frena, gavecaniT ferganis xeobas, mis floras da àtomnii” jiSebs. Sedegad, cxvirsaxocma, romelic aqamde Sarvlis ukana jibeSi ido, axali funqcia SeiZina. mosawevian cxvirsaxocs jer orTqlSi gaatareb, Semdeg ki karSi moay-oleb. amgvarad miRebuli `macanis“ yavisferi Tu Ria mwvane mWadebi Cemi mudmivi Tanamgzavri gaxda. `Cais saxli”, `fran-cias” namcxvrebi, Seukavebeli sicil-kiskisi da madiani Wama.

meaTe klasi oqrosferi ìveriis” deficituri sigare-tis yuTiT davxure.

xelTqmnili `miwisZvrebi“ grZeldeboda, seqsi ki Zli-er agvianebda _ socializmisa da saqarTvelos gamo. da ai! da aii-i-i, aRsrulda saukunovani ocneba! aris! sazaf-xulod, misaRebi gamocdebis sagamocdo cieb-cxelebis win, sastumro `saqarTveloSi” aTmaneTiani `rusi“ meZavebi Semofrindnen. dav-kac-diiii! pirvel qals, fulis garda, ìveriis” gauxsneli yuTic mivarTvi. samedicino insti-tutSi Cavabare da ZmakacebTan erTad `paezdkaSi” volgo-grads gavemgzavre. bevri viCxire, cotac viJimave.

samedicino institutSi yvelas erTad, mTel kurss, erTi gogo gviyvarda da is, raRa Tqma unda, ck-s pirveli mdivnis, vasil pavles Ze mJavanaZis Svili gaxldaT. pirvel kurszeve morfinis 1% da omnoponis 2% ampulebs Sevaskdi SubliT... rejiba dedamotynulma moaTria or maneTad da daayola _ aiRe, naSebs uproblemod Seabamo. Semdeg `re-spublikurSi” internatura. saordinatoros simyudrove naz promedol-fentanil-kokainis koqteilSi CaiZira. erTma merve sarTulidan ukra Tavi, gavfrindebio... ver SeZlo, daenarcxa saavadmyofos ezos rux, xorklian as-faltze. barZayis Zvlebi beWebTan, frTebis magier, amoe-burca. arc me vaklebdi xels. respublikuris meTormete sarTulze obobasaviT davcocavdi _ garedan, fanjris rafebiT. saburTalos civi qari, TeTri xalaTis amayad afrialebuli afra, SiSi...

_ ai, axla ki atrakeeb! meTormete sarTuli ra am-bavia?! faqtebs miaweqi, nu siabandob!

_ ra, ar gjera? geficebi, `respublikuris“ kedelze rainqold mesneriviT, straxovkis gareSe, garedan davco-cavdi! amaze ìmperiis orsulobaSi“ davwere kidec: mTa-vari meddis seifebi, morfebiT savse, rame. lomka ras ar gagakeTebinebs?! Sen ra ici... barZayis Zvlebis beWebTan amoCras gadavrCi. TandaTan sunTqvis, kvebis, seqsis da sxva danarCenis adgilic morfma daikava.

doqtorma sagrZnoblad moiwyina, Tumca mainc mamxneveb-da. erTxel, miliciaSi dakiTxvis dros gamoCenili simtkicis

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Sesaxeb Txrobisas, wamoiZaxa kidec _ `vaa, saRol Sen, qur-dulad moqceulxar!“. am fukosi ver gavige. is literatur-aSic erkveoda, eqimobaSic, Zveli biWic iyo, wesieri kacic... albaT yvelaferi erTad, rogorc yvela adamiani?

_ fuko, sastiki dro iyo, daxuTuli, maxinji. ai, uyure, ra giTxra: sociumis Rirebulebebze, misabaZ eta-lonze zustad metyvelebs xalxSi moaruli gamonaTqvame-bi. ̀ kacuri kacis“ morals asaxavda Semdegi amazrzeni kli-Seebi: gamocdili adamiani _ àTas y...ze gadamxtari kaci”; imJamindeli biznesmeni _ `kombinatori“ igive `deleci“ _ `me iseTi profesia maqvs, y...dan y...ze davxtunav, magan ra unda momatyuos?!“; `qurdis qurdi cxonda“; axloblo-bis gamoxatuleba: `magaas? virs mo...nevineb“; komunistu-ri partiis ritorika: `gvimtkiceben, y...e kitria da taSi daukariTo“; `yvela qali erTi y...Taa nakeTebi, mxolod saxelebi aqvT sxvadasxva“; ...da, ai, sabWouri bednierebis saocnebo formulac - `y...ec mu...Si da sulic samoTxeSi“. ras mibrZaneb? romeli norma gameziarebina?!

_ ho, ra vici... Tumca es narkomanias mainc ar ama-rTlebs... ar vici, ver getyvi... ici, ra SevamCnie? Tu Sen mier Seqmnil teqsts garkveuli drois Semdeg kiTxulob da geCveneba, TiTqos is sxvisi, viRac ufro magaris dawe-rili, maSin Sen kargi ram Segiqmnia.

_ fuko, sityvas banze nu migdeb! Cemi mdgomareoba gaisigrZegane, daijere, yvelaferi dakavebuli iyo, yve-la xvreli amoqolili! elitaruli klanebi, kastebi, feo-dalebi, qurdebi... ai, maSindeli avtoritetebi: umaRlesi saswavleblis reqtori _ meqrTame, momavalSi _ ̀ cekas“ no-menklatura; wamyvani istorikosi simarTles gvimalavda, ar vicodiT rusuli okupacia, 21 wlis Tebervali, azrze ar viyaviT, vin iyo qaquca da amis magivrad, ananistebiviT vdaobdiT imaze, Tu ramden yizilbaSs gaavlo musri did-gors daviT aRmaSenebelma _ 600 Tu 200 aTass? aseTive mwerlebi, reJisorebi, romelTac qarTuli kulturis momavali aTeulobiT wlebiT miiTvises da daamaxinjes.

dResac am xalxs mivagebT pativs. SevardnaZe dedamotynu-lis gamoCenisas aRfrTovanebulni fexze vdgebiT da taSs vukravT! es sazogadoeba sakuTar Tavs ar scems pativs! isini `simarTlis dasasrulis“ epoqidan arian!

...ho, rac Seexeba konkretulad narkomanias... Cveule-brivi mSvidi cxovreba, boselSi gasasuqeblad Semwyvdeu-li saqonlis arsebobas, pirutyvis yasbis danis molodins daemsgavsa. 60-iani wlebis dasawyisSi, `rkinis fardis“ avliT, dasavleTidan daiwyo informaciis Semodineba: roki, jinsebi, hipebi, grZeli Tmebi, narkotikebi... imxanad wamali, koleqtivizmis realobisgan gaqcevis, protestis forma gaxda. narkotiki iyo anemiuri yofis sisxliT avse-ba, sevdiani erTferovnebisgan gaqceva, mudmivi riski da gagiJebis piras misvla. mizidulobis kanonis simsubuqiT uaryofa... Semdeg narkomania cxovrebis wesad iqca. es ukve iyo arseboba sicocxlisa da sikvdilis zRvarze, Ta-visuflebasa da cixes Soris, `kai biWobisa” da usindiso-bis SerwymiT... gazrdili dozis mopoveba sul ufro Wir-da... narkotiki dasalevma Caanacvla _ usiamovnom da mainc Trobismomgvrelma, Tavisufali da SfoTiani cxovrebis wyarom. oRond ara simSvides! brZola sabWoeTis dagu-bebul WaobSi Caflas! sikvdili sjobs uRimRamo gdebas! kaSkaSa wva daferfvliT dasrulda...

_ magrad gaqvs akrefili sabWoeTze, ai! modi, ici, sa-nam gaagrZelebde, ras getyvi? yvela elitaruli klani-sa da daxuruli kastis dedas Se... veci mec! gekadreba, Zmao _ xelovneba, literatura mkvdaria, Tu masSi mxolod esTetikuri tkbobaa da is araa gajerebuli realobisad-mi mZvinvare protestiT! jigari xar, sworad uberav-di. ubralod, xom ici, axlandeli roli mavaldebulebs, odnav TavSekavebuli viyo... mohyevi, bolosken ra iyo. barem egec Seubere da vxedav, maradisobisTvis ukve mom-wifdi, TiTqmis mzad xar!

_ sad gavCerdi? aa, ho...

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`mokled, eqimi var, modis moTxovnebis Tanaxmad, ufil-tro sigaretze gadavedi _ jibes ufiltro `Camel”-is yvi-Teli an `Gitan”-is lurji yuTi amSvenebs. paralelurad iyo rusTavi marneuliT, kirovabadi yazaxiT, orjonikiZe naz-ran-aCalugiT da kaxeTi belaqniT: `noqsiron-at kaSlia” _ rwyeviT; morfis ̀ sireci” _ prixodSi Tavis gaxeTqviT; sufTa opiumi _ sicxiT da agdebiT; daangidridebuli opiumi, `ba-nia” da heroini _ saSineli lomkiT; perioduli `saswrafo daxmareba“ _ norfiniT an subuteqsiT, iSviaTad _ metadon-iT. sul mTlianobaSi _ erTi didi, gauTavebeli lomka. ab-stinencia _ gayinul sivrceSi da gaCerebul droSi Camok-ideba, civi ofliT, xSiri poluciebiT. srulfasovani seqsi _ narkotikebis gareSe _ gaqra, is heroinma Seiwova.

moskovSi davicavi sakandidato disertacia. bazrebi, TaTrebi, intensiuri Cxera. erTi-ori eqTani, ZiriTadad wam-lisTvis... rogorc iqna, movida `perestroikis” da aryebis damangrevekli epoqa! `sabWoel uZlevel goliaTs“ dasav-leTTan SeiaraRebul SejibrebaSi Tixis fexebi moekeca!

jibeSi _ mwvane oqrosfriT `Marllboro Ligths”. daiwyo ùparaSuto vardna”: samoqalaqo omi, `zviadistebi” da `mxedrioni”, gadasxmebi, èsperales” Cakerebebi, xSiri avtomatiani `raundebi” narkologiurSi moTavasebiT, mt-kivneuli miliciebiT, bevri cemiT da narkotikis Cadeb-iT, perioduli danebebebiT, sasamarTloebiT da samwliani pirobiTebiTi sasjelebiT _ 3-5 aTas dolarad kbilebSi ùmwikvlo Cekistebs”.

gaxangrZlivebuli sikvdili, sefsisis centri, sicxe mudmivad 39, caxcaxebi, infeqciuri hepatiti, cirozi, as-citi...“

_ maica, SeCerdi, Zalian waayare! axali zeadamianis dabadebis Sesaxeb ufro detalurad _ ra iyo, sikvdils rogor gadaurCi?

_ ar ginda, Zmao, `zeadamianebi“ da ironia!_ me ara, nicSe wers: srulyofis, Tu gnebavs, Zlieri

pirovnebis Camoyalibebis procesSi, mZime seni da didi tkivili gadamwyveti faqtorebia. amitom vaxsene...

_ Zalian gamiWirda, dRes verc ki vijereb _ nuTu yovelive es me gadavitane, SevZeli?.. kargi, ai, Cemi jo-joxeTi da gansawmendeli:

`daiwyo TviTmkvlelobaze fiqri, or-samjer sxvis dasanaxavad, `britviT“ venebic gadaviWeri. sul mokle xanSi gavxdi gamousworebeli àlkaSi”, saSinlad agresi-uli simTvraliT. axla ukve alkoholis `lomkisgan” Ta-vis dasaRwevad mWirdeboda narkotikis miReba. samsaxuri sruliad mivagde. gadioda wlebi. dReSi samoc table-tamde, mxolod sibazon-relanium-rodedorm-fenazepams viRebdi, tramalTan da spirtTan erTad! ise magrad vT-vrebodi, rom xSirad saxlamdec ver mivdiodi da quCaSive viqceodi. gavxdi Cveulebrivi `bomJi”. am droisTvis ukve viyavi narkomaniaze oTxjer nasamarTlevi gaiZvera, rome-lic 15-ze metjer iwva `meCnikovis” narkologiurSi.

janrTelobasTan `TamaSi” katastofiT dasrulda! 1998 wels, ukidures mdgomareobaSi Cavvardi loginad, Zlivs vsunTqavdi. iyo xangrZlivi, TveobiT mkurnaloba infeqci-ur saavadmyofosSi, kiserSi gayrili kaTeterebiT gadasxmebi da gamojanmrTeleba... isev Cxerva, isev saavadmyofo. 1998 wlis bolos-1999 wlis dasawyisSi, 44 wlisa, saavadmyofodan gamomweres, rogorc momakvdavi. `dasaloci sityva” dedas misma akademikosma biZam gamoayola: Cemo kargo, ia, raoden dasananic unda iyos, Cveni biWi male, sul erT-or TveSi gar-daicvleba... waiyvane saxlSi, barem sakuTar sawolSi dalios suli. Senc naklebi sirbili da xarji mogiwevs”. ase damdes sakaceze da wamomaTries saxlSi. did oTaxSi momaTavses, sa-dac viweqi, velodebodi sikvdils da sakuTar panaSvidebs veCvevodi... sikvdili gardauvalad eCveneboda yvelas, maT Soris mec. gavida weli, ori... gaunZrevlad wolaSi dadga mesame, 2000 wlis zamTari... sami weli loginad, sikvdilTan erTad gaunZreveli gdeba... sasowarkveTa da venebis Wra. aR-sasrulis aTwliani molodini... ra seqsi, ris seqsi?!

daa-a... me sikvdili gadavifiqre!.. misustebuli, saSin-lad gamxdari avdeqi, rac ki narkotikebis darCenili mara-

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gi mqonda RumelSi gadavuZaxe da uaxloes taZramde Zlivs mivlaslasdi. mTeli ubani RumelSi amomwvari erTi qvabi planis suniT dabolda. samezoblom SvebiT amoisunTqa _ mTvrali RamiT aRar iRrialebs, mSvidad daviZinebTo... Sem-deg iyo medaviTneoba, monasteri _ gergeTis sameba. ekle-siaSi sul 6-7 weli davhyavi. bolos Tbiliss davubrundi, vmuSaobdi, vwerdi. 2001 wlis dasawyisSive sruliad SeveS-vi rogorc wamals, ise alkohols. im droidan erTxelac ki ar Sevmcdarvar, planic ki ar momiwevia, erTi Wiqa lu-dic ki ar damilevia. ase davanebe Tavi wamals da Sevudeqi yoveldRiur cxovrebas... amJamad ki _ Sen gesaubrebi...

amaswinaT megobris aivanze sigarets movukide. megona, marto viyavi, aravin mxedavs, yvela da yvelaferi damaviw yda. vdgavar, cxovrebaze vfiqrob, vnebianad veqaCebi. Turme, oTaxidan Zmakaci miTvalTvalebs, makvirdeba. davamTavre, Sevedi. meubneba: ̀ biWo, axla giyurebdi _ ra, avadmyo fi xaaar! vucqerdi, rogor eweodi Tambaqos, ra gulianad urtyamdi Rrma-Rrma nafazebs da mivxvdi: erT moqaCvaSi iyo moqceuli yovelive: Tambaqo, mosawevi, wamali da seqsic ki!“

_ eklesiaSi ratom ar gaCerdi? ras erCi anaforian damrigeblebs?

_ mokled, erTi sityviT mogaxseneb: `rac eri _ is beri“. gareT _ mudam `marTali“ elitaruli avtoritete-bi, eklesiaSic igive _ ùcdomeli episkoposebi“. ori lo-zungi maqvs am mdgomareobisTvis miZRvnili: `farisevloba _ es aris niRabi, romlis ukan imaleba totalitaruli sazogadoeba!” da `farisevlobav _ qarTvelebis kiserze gamobmuli lodi unda gerqvas Sen!“

_ gasagebia, gamarTleba yvelaferze gaqvs... RmerTis arsebobis gjera?

_ gaWirvebis Jams _ miwaze ganrTxmuli morwmune vxde-bi, dalxenisas ki RmerTi maviwydeba da morig warmatebas sakuTar Zlierebas vawer. wes-Cveulebebis meqanikur aR-srulebaze damyarebuli `taZruli rmwena“ ukve gavia re _ es adamianis sulieri ganviTarebis mxolod sawyisi etapia, romelzec didi xniT SeCereba ar Rirs. winaaRmdeg SemTx-

vevaSi, rwmena Tavis karikaturad _ kerpTayvanismcemlobad iqceva, xolo TviT morwmune _ gaberil, gaamayebul kerpad.

_ ...ufro konkretulad, is arsebobs?_ ici... unda vaRiaro, gamocdilebis dagrovebasTan

erTad, mivxvdi, rom raRac zebunebrivi Zala Tu viRacis `xeli“ aSkarad ganagebda Cems bed-iRbals _ amaSi ar Sei-Zleba ar darwmunde, Tu mZime, gansacdelebiT savse cxov-rebiseuli gza gaqvs gavlili... Tumca astronomia gvamc-nobs, rom manZili mezobel galaqtikebamde 25 000 sinaTlis welia, xolo Soreuli galaqtikebi daSorebulia Cvengan milionobiT sinaTlis wliT. warmoidgine _ milioni sinaT-lis weli... sinaTlis siCqare udris 300 000 km/ wamSi, anu es galaqtika Cvengan daSorebulia imdeni kilometriT, ram-den wamsac itevs erTi weli da damatebiT gamravlebuli 300 000!!! saubaria mxolod àxlomdebare“ galaqtikebze. aseTive galaqtikebi gacilebiT Sorsaa da raodenobiTac uricxvia!.. yovelive ki imaze metyvelebs, rom Cven mxolod erTi mtvris namceci varT kosmosuri afeTqebiT warmoqm-nil miliardobiT natexs Soris. ase rom, Cveni codna uzo-mo `Sav xvrelebsa” da galaqtikis usasrulobaSi ikargeba... vin ra icis am samyaros Sesaxeb?! ra Tqma unda, aravin _ araferi! zogierTi mxolod iCemebs, rom icis...

_ da mainc?!_ vici, metyvi, RmerTi gonebiT ar Seicnoba, is mxo-

lod guliT SeiZleba irwmunoo. diax, vici, geTanxme-bi kidec, da mainc mirCevnia, rom goneba da guli aseT Seurigebel winaaRmdegobaSi ar iyos erTmaneTTan... didi da mniSvnelovanic araferi moxdeba, me xom mxolod erTi, rigiTi mtvris nawilaki var am ukidegano galaqtikaSi da sxva araferi... Tumc, isic cxadia, rom calke nawilaki anareklia mTeli samyarosi da es umniSvnelo, mikroskopi-uli natexi SesaZloa itevdes kidec mas.

_ kargi, vnaxoT... mipasuxe, ratom daiwye wera?_ Cemo fuko, yoveldRiurobis wnexi metad damTr-

gunvelia da, am TvalsazrisiT, SemiZlia, vaRiaro: vwer,

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raTa yoveliveze ar vifiqro. marTali giTxra, Tan Zalian meCqareba, me xom naxevari saukune gavacdine da unda mo-vaswro, saTqmeli vTqva! dRedaRam vfiqrob, msiamovnebs azrovnebis da mignebebis procesi. konkretul adamainebze fiqri naklebad mitacebs, amisTvis droc ar mrCeba. ami-tom garkveuli gaegoisteba mepatieba..

_ ho, ai, xom giTxari, ukve momwifdi, mzad xar!_ axla ukve mec vxedav _ marTlac, mzad var. mombez-

rda es samyaro. gavcivdi adamianebisadmi. Cemi grZnobebis gama meryeobs gulgrilobidan siZulvilamde. rodis dai-wyo es gacieba? albaT bavSvobidan. rodis gadavida is sa-kuTari Tavisa da gare samyaros zizRSi? dRees? zustad ar vici, rodis, Tumca yvelaferi iqeT midioda.

garSemo amdeni Suri, uvicoba, sibnele, farisevloba... am mobezrebisgan, sakuTari TaviT ukmayofilebisgan ga-momdinareobs Cemi devizis: `dRes, adamians sigiJisgan ix-snis: iSviaTad _ iumori, ufro xSirad ki _ cinizmi da sarkazmi“. aba, gagigia iseTi bavSvi, romelsac scemen da mainc icinis? me am cxovrebis dedas ro Seveci, axla, rac marTla sasaciloa, imazec aRar mecineba... momwyinda, yvelam da yvelaferma damRala, Tavi momabezra. erTi si-tyviT, maradisobisTvis mzad var!

fuko afeTqda:_ kaco, Sen aq aRsarebis Casabareblad da sinanulisT-

vis ki ar xar! adamianis siabandi sinanuli aq aravis sWir-deba. eg codvebze tirili da farisevloba aq ar Wris! Sei-Zule imitom, rom is sazizRrad usamarTloa _ da morCa!..

* * *fukos leqciidan vudstokSi `SeSlili protestan-

tebis“ Sekrebaze ...dasasruls minda gagacnoT is, rac man gadmomca, sa-

nam yoveldRiuri yofis mimarT sabolood gacivdeboda da Cven mimarT gaqvavdeboda, anu dagvtovebda. ai, ukanask-

neli amofrqveva: `...me maT imaveTi ver vpasuxobdi, amitom erTaderTi gamosavali maTi datoveba iyo. ara da me isini adre miyvarda, vendobodi maT, maTi msaxurebac ki momwon-da... magram amdeni tkivili... es mxolod dacviTi refle-qsia da meti araferi“,– daasrula man da vulkanuri lava gacivda. magidaze konverti ido. òh, ras niSnavs, epis-tolaruli Janris trfiali! avtobiografiis bolo, mainc weriliT“,– gaRimebulma, konverti gavxseni:

a n d e r Z i

`...rogorc iciT, Cemi monaTxrobi fukoSi teqstad iq-ceoda. amis Semdeg fukoze araferi vici. Tu Tqven axla teqsts kiTxulobT, es fukos damsaxurebaa, maSasadame, is TqvenTanaa. Cemi vnebebiT da pirovnuli TvisebebiT ga-jerebuli, doqtori fuko Tqven Sorisaa. imedia, fuko wers, swavlobs, raTa sityvaTa idealur SeTanxmebasa da teqstis melodiur JReradobas miaRwios _ Seqmnas lit-eraturuli simfonia. es mxolod varaudia, me amis Sesaxeb araferi vici da es arc maRelvebs.

saubris, fiqris unari davkarge. arc emociebi Semr-Ca, arc gancdebi da survilebi mawuxebs. ar minda zogi-erTebiviT vipakazuxo da daviCemo, rom pepelac var. ara, me mxolod misi frTebis farfatis xmaSi SemiZlia viyo. pepela xom cocxalia da ese igi, mas stkiva da ganicdis sakuTar xanmokle cxovrebas _ erTbaSad, bevrs. es al-baT metad rTuli asatania, an priqiT, SesaZloa, yvavis cxovrebaa yvelaze sastiki, radgan is Zalian iRleba cx-ovrebisa da daberebisgan.

asea Tu ise, tkivilsac veravin mayenebs, radgan xec ki ar var, me, ubralod, eTerSi var, rogorc foTlis Sriali, rogorc Citis galoba. xes aqvs emocia, gancdebi, radgan isic amodis, izrdeba da xmeba, Citsac stkiva da sciva, me _ ara. CemSi yovelive organuli mokvda, ar Sevdgebi cocx-

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ali ujredebisgan. yofierebaSi var ganzavebuli, nislsa da RvarcofSi, Rrubelsa da elvaSi.

arc is vici, aris am RrublebSi sxva CemsaviT, yofi-li `meebi“. Tu Cven bevrni varT kidec, erTmaneTs ar Se-vigrZnobT, xels ar vuSliT da arc erTmaneTis gvSurs. erTmaneTi ki ar gviyvars, aramed neitralurad Tanavarse-bobT.

verc dros SevigrZnob, me marad viyavi _ guSin, dRes da xvalac viqnebi. galaqtikaSi var _ varskvlavebis cim-cimSi, Ramesa da dRis sinaTleSi... da Tovlis fantelebis vardnis xmasa da siCumeSi...

Tovlis fanteli dneba da wylad iqceva _ gemSvido-bebiT, droebiT, sanam maradisobaSi SemierTdebiT, Tu, ra Tqma unda, es bedniereba odesme gewviaT.

ise, kanonzomieri Sedegia _ mobezreba, zizRi, sarka-zmi, gamouvali mdgomareoba _ kidev kargi, gadavrCi da am cxovrebisTvis movkvdi _ emociebisgan, vnebebisgan, cudisgan, kargisgan davicale da kosmoss SevuerTdi... TviT gavxdi maradiuli.

qvadqceuli gaunZrevlad da civad vdevar, qarTan er-Tad davqrivar, mzis sxivebSi var da vaTbob, TovlSi var da vbardni. Tu Tqvens fanjrebze wvimis wveTebis kakuni mogesmaT, icodeT _ es me var, TqvenTan stumrad mosuli. gtovebT, kargad...“

nawili III. dRes _ fuko

werili meSvide: cxovreba moazrovne ZaRlisa demosi da alter ego-si misisa fukosi

monatrebulo N, es teqsti ganvlil cxovrebasa da

Senze fiqrebSi davwere _ is piradad Sen gekuTvnis. gul-wrfelad vaRiareb, minda yovelive mogiyve, agixsna da... albaT, Tavic mogawono. erTi sityviT, naxe.

fukom kibeze Cairbina. lifti gamoiZaxa da iqve, kibis baqanze miwolil demos gadaxeda:

– ai, Zmao, esaa mweralii! ZaRlma Zilisgan dawiTlebuli TvalebiT zantad axeda.– herman hese _ germaneli mweralia... mwerali ki ara,

filosofosia _ `tramalis mgeli“! germaniis xsenebaze demos maRaziis gamyidvelis mier

damadlebuli Zexvi gaaxsneda, _ ha, Wame, ubralo ar ge-gonos, germanuliao. gansacvifrebeli aromatis burusSi gaexva da piri nerwyviT aevso. Tvalebi milula, Zexvis garekanze, savaWro niSnis saxiT gamosaxuli, wiTelkrami-tiani saxuravebiTa da gawkrialebuli qvafeniliT, qalaqi warmoudga. amasobaSi liftis kari gaiRo da fuko daeSva. demom fiqri ganagrZo. is maRali mgZnobelobiT gamoirCe-oda da amitom zogadad gamoTqmul mosazrebasac sakuTar Tavze iRebda. axlac ase moxda _ tramalis mglis aRfrTo-vanebiT xseneba, mdabio statusis Sexsenebad aRiqva. demos sakuTari, ZaRluri bunebis Sercxva kidec. undoda, eTqva, magram, utyvobis gamo, mxolod gaifiqra:

– eh, tramalis mglebi germaniaSia, iq filosofia fasobs, Zexvis problemac didi xnis daZleulia... arc ZaRlebs urtyamen mujlugunebs. CvenSi mxolod quCis ZaRlis wodebamde Tu amaRldebi... Tumca, vin icis, met sibrZnes romeli flobs _ filosofosi Tu moxetiale mwiri?

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demos SeeZlo socialuri statusis gaumjobeseba, magram ar moindoma. sanam fukosTan saxlSi cxovrobda, parkSi patronTan erTad darbaisluri gaseirnebisas ji-Siani Zuknebi mudam wyliani TvalebiT acilebdnen. maT-Tan daaxloebac scada, magram am ZaRlebis adamianisadmi upirobo, mxolod kuWis Zaxilze dafuZnebuli morCile-ba metismetad aRizianebda. mas quCaSi marto xetiali da, sadarbazoSi gaSxlarTuls, im dRes nanaxze, warsulze fiqri itacebda. samarTlianobisTvis isic unda iTqvas, rom demosa da sxva ZaRlebs Soris gaCenili gaucxoe-ba mxolod misi gandegilobis brali ar iyo. garkveuli gaRizianebiT, magram democ aRiarebda, rom arc jiSiani ZaRlebi swyalobdnen didad (adamianebis enaze _ uRrend-nen) da TavianT viwro wreSi ar iRebdnen. es snoburi ig-norireba imiTac aixsneboda, rom quCebsa Tu sadarbazoeb-Si ganmartoebis gamo, demos bewvi gaequca, man gacveTili, araprezentabeluri ieri miiRo. es ki jiSiani ZaRlebis gaRizianebas, TiTqosda, samarTlians xdida. damatebiT sakuTari jiSianobiTa da silamaziT aRtacebuli elita-rulebi demosganac mudmiv mliqvnelobas moiTxovdnen, rac mas maleve bezrdeboda. ZaRlebis umravlesobis Sa-blonur azrovnebaze, xrovebad yofnis midrekilebasa da `barsonofi didisadmi“ monur morCilebaze xom saubaric ar Rirda. ase iyo Tu ise, mwirma ZaRlebi daiviwya da gad-awyvita: `modi, adamianebTan viqonieb urTierTobas, isini xom ufro gonieri arsebebi arian. oRond _ me CemTvis, isi-ni _ TavisTvis, garkveuli doziT, sanam interesTa Tanx-vedra gveqneba... raRa Tqma unda, urTierTpativiscema _ aucilebeli pirobaa“. asec moiqca.

dasawyisisTvis, sakvlevi areali moniSna. sarCo-sa-badebliT uzrunvelyofa Tavisi mravalsarTuliani kor-pusis ezodan gausvleladac SeeZlo. garda sursaTis maRaziis gamyidvelisa, fukoc xSirad udebda saWmels. mainc bevrs dawanwalebda. inteleqts, analitikuri az-

rovnebis unarsa da ganaTlebas ara Tu afasebda, aramed am Tvisebebze afanatebda kidec. ubnis Semovlisas SedarebiT axalgazrdebs irCevda da maT mihyveboda xolme. bankis filialis lamazmanebs aekida, magram maTi saubari metad mxiaruli da zedapiruli eCvena. erTxelac sityva _ `to-talitarizs“ mohkra yuri _ win ori axalgazrda mamakaci saqmianad miabijebda. miuaxlovda, saubars yuri miugdo...

terminis konteqstis dadgenisas is mixvda, rom `to-talitarizmi“ adamianTa mcire jgufebis mier didi koleq-tivebis yofa-cxovrebaze totalur kontrols gulisxmob-da. ZaRlebis xrovasa da maT beladebs adrec ver itanda, amjerad ki, Zveli codna axlad SeZenil terminologias daukavSira. droTa ganmavlobaSi, sityvis arsis gaazre-bis Semdeg, yovelive konservatiuls, Zaladobrivsa da Tavisuflebis SezRudvasTan dakavSirebuls, iyo Tu ara saWiro, uadgilodac, `totalitaruli“ uwoda. ase daiyo mis cnobierebaSi individebi erTi mxriv, `totalitarul deidebad Tu biZiebad“ da maT `totalitarul Svilebad“, xolo meore mxriv, `progresulebad“. amasTan dakavSire-biT, bulgaruli qaTamiviT gasiebuli `totali taruli senbernari-deidisa“ da misi ori Casuqebuli qaliSvilis magaliTi mohyavda, _ sakuTari ojaxis umankoebiT moxi-bluli deda- Svili, mTeli dRe uqmad dgas da gapranWuli Zuknisa Tu mokleSortiani gogos gamoCenisas, iqaurobas yefiT iklebso.

davubrundeT or axalgazrda saqmian mamakacs. isi-ni Savi SuSis Senobas miadgnen. Sesasvlels wiTeli, mom-rgvalebuli asoebiT Sesrulebuli warwera amSvenebda _ Jurnali `cxeli tabureti“. demo SenobaSi ar SeuSves, ezodan mouara. yvelaferi dasuna, moniSna kidec. mcvels siyvaruliT axeda... sul ramdenime dReSi, demo Jurnal `cxeli taburetis“ TanamSromlebis sayvareli arseba gax-da. Sida ezoSi sigaretis mosawevad gamosuli gogo-biWebis yuradrebis centradac iqca da maT saubrebsac gulisyu-

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riT usmenda, sityvas ar tovebda. Semdeg ki sadarbazo-Si adioda, kibis baqanze wveboda da ZilSic ki fiqrobda, fiqrobda da miRebul informacias aanalizebda...

`taburetelebis“ kvleva ar ikmara da, rogorc isi-ni sakuTar Tavs uwodebdnen, memarcxene inteleqtualu-ri wreebic moinaxula. maTic moismina. kvleva gaafarTo-va. nairnairi arasamTavroboebi, literaturuli kafeebi, Jurnal-gazeTebis gamomcemlobebi da gamofenebi moiara. maleve darwmunda, rom am elitaruli wreebis adamianebs wignebic bevri waekiTxaT, ganaTlebac sakmao mieRoT, ma-gram idealebis dacvisTvis, ara Tu Tavis gawirva, raimes moklebac ki ar surdaT. demom dainaxa, rogor advilad icvlida es xalxi, `Zexvis“ xaTriT, principebs. maTi cod-nac, xSirad, im momentisTvis modur sferos moicavda da Tavis warmoCenasa Tu sakuTari TaviT tkbobas ufro emsaxureboda, vidre sicruis mxilebasa da WeSmaritebis damkvidrebas. yovelive amis gvirgvins ki elitarulebis seqtebad organizeba iyo. amazec bevri ifiqra da mixvda, rom mxolod kritikisa da konkurenciis gareSe SeeZloT, uzrunvelad earsebaT gabatonebul cru-avtoritetebsa da maT mrevls. am seqtebis mTavar iaraRs axlad gamoCe-nili talantis sruli ignorireba warmoadgenda, raTa is ucnoblobaSi Camkvdariyo. Tu vinme mainc gabedavda da sa-kuTar niWs warmoaCenda, klanebSi gaerTianebuli elita-rulebi, winamZRolis brZanebiT, cofiani ZaRlebis xro-vasaviT mzad iyvnen, Seseodnen mas da ise gaenadgurebinaT. `gasakviria isic ki, rom adamianebi, Tundac sirbilSi, oqros medals swored yvelaze swraf sprinters aZleven da ara totalitaruli seqtis rCeulso“, _ am etapisTvis misTvis ukve damaxasiaTebeli sarkazmiT daaskvna man.

droTa ganmavlobaSi demom ramdenime megobari mainc gaiCina da maTTan vizitebiT gahyavda dRe. es adamianebi mawan-wala ZaRlisTvis gaRebuli sikeTis xarjze sakuTar Tavsac ukeTesad warmoidgendnen. marTalia, xeliT ara, magram sit-

yviT nazad ealersebodnen da saWmelsac xSirad aWmevdnen. Tumca, sakvebic iseTi iyo, rogorsac jiSiani ZaRli arc ki ikadrebda. am xerxiT iyuCebdnen demos megobrebi sindiss da yoveldRiur yofasa Tu samsaxurSi Cadenil umsgavsobebs, droebiT mainc, iviwyebdnen. imxanad mawanwala ZaRma sakuTar Tavs àdamianTa sindisis mkurnali“ uwoda.

...mas fukosTan gatarebuli wlebi gaaxsenda. arc fuko wyalobda koleqtivs, ludis dasalevadac ki ar Cadioda ezoSi dominos moTamaSeebTan, Zvel megobrebsac daSorda.

mTeli dRe kompiuteris klaviaturaze akakunebda _ mudam raRacas werda da naazrevs demos uziarebda. democ usmenda da siyvarulis niSnad kuds uqicinebda. gvian RamiT fuko iZinebda da democ gverdiT savarZelSi wvebo-da. fuko Tbil xels demos loyis qveS ucurebda da orive erTad iZinebdnen. rodesac fuko gverds icvlida, is xels iRebda, rasac demo sastikad aprotestebda da zurgSi cx-viris mikvriT megobars loyis qveS meore xelis amodebis aucileblobaze mianiSnebda. fuko ZilSic fiqrobda. uceb iRviZebda da bloknotSi Canawerebs akeTebda. Sem-deg isev iZinebda da iqve, uceb, raRac azri mosdioda da isev bloknots iRebda. kargi dro iyo _ Tbili... mwerals xandaxan qalebic mohyavda da maT vnebianad efereboda. demo odnav eWvianobda kidec, Tumca, zustad icoda, rom fuko maT saxlSi ar datovebda da erT-or saaTiani seqsis Semdeg gaacilebda... nini ki darCa da, rogorc gairkva, didi xniT. mas ZaRlis bewvze sastiki alergia hqonda da demosac sadarbazos baqanze gadasaxleba mouwia. èh, yve-laferi, rac xdeba, ukeTesobisken ariso“, _ imxanad, jer kidev gaazrebis gareSe gaimeora fukosgan gagonili fra-za. Semdeg ukanaskneli wlebis gamocdilebam sabolood daarwmuna am gamonaTqvamis WeSmaritebaSi: `rom ar wamov-suliyavi, verc amdens gavigebdi da verc damoukidblobas miveCveodio... Tavisufleba ki mTavari ram yofilao. vinc es ver gaigo, CaTvale, arc ucxovriao...“,– daaskvna man.

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ZaRlis dakvirvebebi adamianTa sazogadoebaze, raRa Tqma unda, gagrZelda. Semdgomi xarisxobrivi naxtomi, romelic demos cnobierebaSi totalitarizmis cnebis gaazrebas mohyva, es iyo koleqtivizmisa da farisevlobis arsSi wvdoma. ZaRlma SeamCinia adamianTa swrafva did jgufebSi gaerTianebisken, raTa am gziT, erTi mxriv, pa-suxismgebloba aecilebinaT, xolo, meore mxriv, calkeu-li individebi da maTi gansxvavebuli azri advilad dae-TrgunaT. swored es mizezebi aiZulebda adamianebs, gaerTianebuliyvnen èrTmorwmune“, usaxur masaSi, sadac garantirebuli iqneboda komfortuli da upasuxismgeblo arseboba. koleqtivizmis Sefaseba demos gamWriax gone-bas didad ar gasZnelebia _ mas xom win ZaRlebis xrovis magaliTi hqonda. swored TanamoZmeebTan Sedarebis gziT, demom daaskvna, rom koleqtivSi adamiani ise daculad grZnobs Tavs, rogorc ZaRli _ sakuTar xrovaSi, an cxo-veli _ sakuTar jogSi.

arc am koleqtivebSi gabatonebuli sicruis danaxva iyo Zneli. umravlesobis totaluri kontroli umcireso-baze sruliad aucilebels xdida tabuirebuli moralu-ri normebis zedmiwevniT dacvas. Sedegad, sazogadoebaSi arqauli dogmebidan gadaxvevaSi mxilebis SiSi gamefda. swored es SiSi amonebda adamianebs da aiZulebda indi-vids, sakuTari bunebis winaaRmdeg wasuliyo. adamiani iZu-lebuli iyo, ormagi moraluri standartebiT ecxovra _ erTi elapara da realur cxovrebaSi meore ekeTebina. ase mivida demo im daskvnamde, rom farisevloba sakuTari sib-nelis dafarvisa da koleqtiuri cnobierebisadmi damor-Cilebis (anu monobis) gamarTlebis xerxia. `farisevloba _ es niRabia, romlis ukan imaleba totalitaruli sazoga-doeba“, _ Seajama man da warsuli cxovrebidan Tavisi didi simpaTiis obieqti, cisferTvaleba berta gaaxsenda. metad mimzidveli da daxvewili manerebis cimbiruli laika Tavs gurmanobiT iwonebda, xolo rodesac saqme saqmeze midga,

demos mier miwaSi saguldagulod gadanaxuli franguli paSteti bulgarulad monaTla... seqsSic metad morcxvi, pasiuri da uRimRamo iyoo, _ gaixsena.

ho, radgan demos sawinaaRmdego sqesTan urTierToba vaxseneT, barem gadavxedoT imasac, ra metamorfozebi gan-icada moazrovne ZaRlis `ZiriTadma instiqtma“. Tavidanve unda aRiniSnos, rom kritikuli azrovnebisa da logiku-ri msjelobis unarebis ganviTarebasTan erTad, asakovani demosTvis poligamiuri wanwalis xana erTxel da samuda-mod dasrulda. aqve gagimxelT misi imJamideli gatacebis obieqtsac _ es iyo ulamazesi Savi inglisuri koker-spani-eli, grZeli, dabla Camoyrili yurebiT da fumfula be-wviT, mudam aqtiuri da mxiaruli _ matilda.

uyvarda Tu ara demos matilda? am kiTxvas xSirad usvamda sakuTar Tavs... ra Tqma unda, uyvarda da Tanac Zalian! magram Tu, magaliTad, uceb gaCenili ndomis dasak-mayofileblad mati maxloblad ar iyo, an ar ecala, demo, Teoriulad mainc, uSvebda seqsis SesaZleblobas sxva md-edrobiTi sqesis warmomadgenelTan. iqneboda Tu ara es Ralati? albaT iqneboda, radgan amgvari fiqrebi mamrSi sastik sindisis qenjnas iwvevda _ norCi `mati-matildina“ asakovani demos mimarT xom iseTi mosiyvarule da aler-siani iyo. samarTlianobisTvis isic unda iTqvas, rom Ra-latze fiqrebi iSviaTad mosdioda da imJamad misi guli praqtikulad ganuyoflad matildas ekuTvnoda.

`mati-matildina“ marTlac gasaocari arseba iyo! dem-os manam arasodes Sexvedria mdedrSi ase bunebrivad Ser-wymuli pirvelqmnili gulis sisufTave da pirvelyofili Tavisufleba seqsSi! koker-spaniel matis demo Tan Zalian uyvrada da, imavdroulad, mas srul Tavisuflebas aniWeb-da. matildina odnavac ar cdilobda demos pirad nivTad gadaqcevas, rogorc ityvian _ mis `privatizebas“. TviT democ ZaldatanebiT movaleobebsa Tu ojaxze yoveldRi-ur zrunvas Tofis gasrolasaviT gaurboda. am miniWebuli

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Tavisuflebis gamoc uyvarda mati da xSirad ixsenebda me-zobeli sadarbazodan inglisuri seterebis ojaxs: `fui! ezoSi yvelas dasanaxad farisevluri laquci da erTmane-Tis autanloba... amaswinaT avtofarexis ukan germanuli nagazi ras uqanavebdaa!“

...dro miedineboda. planetebi demos gareSec moZ-raobdnen, mzec TavisiT Cadioda da amodioda. samyaro Ta-visi kanonebiT cxovrebas ganagrZobda. droTa ganmavloba-Si ZaRli mixvda, rom Tvistomis datoveba da adamianebTan yofna mas gulis gatexisgan veRar ixsnida. demos odesRac mosiyvarule gulma gacieba iwyo... magaliTad, adre qu-Cis meZavebs mudam esarCleboda da abezari klientebisgan Tavis daRwevaSi exmareboda. amJamad im ubanSi gasvlac ki ezareboda. amaswinaT, quCaSi miZinebul, gadamTvral mawanwalas gadaawyda. adre demo ara Tu daynosavda da martosuls saxes aulokavda, aramed iqaurobas yefiTac aiklebda. axla ki adamianebma uxeSobiTa da umadurobiT ise SeazizRes Tavi, yoveldRiuri yofis wnexma ise daRa-la moazrovne ZaRli, rom TiTqmis gulgrilad Caurbina, odnav auCqara kidec svlas, raTa droze gascloda im ad-gils da sindisis qenjniT naklebad Sewuxebuliyo. ra iyo am rwmenis dakargvis mizezi _ zogadad samyaroSi siyvar-ulis kleba Tu asakiT gadaRla da dagrovili wyena _ es man ar icoda. albaT, orive erTad. Tumca faqtia _ demoSi sikeTis keTebisa da siTbos gacemis moTxovnilebam mkve-Trad iklo. amgvari imedis gacrueba sulac ar niSnavda moraluri normebisa Tu ZiriTadi principebis Ralats da, garSemomyofebis msgavsad, SuriTa da boRmiT cxovre-bas. ara, is, ubralod, gacivda da sagrZnoblad gauxeSda kidec.

am bolo dros, rac adamianebma Zlier gaanawyenes, demom Rrenas umata, xSirad umizezodac yefda. erTi si-tyviT, moxetiale ZaRls usamarTloba yelSi amouvida. mTeli Segnebuli cxovreba man uxmo morCilebasa da mego-

brebis msaxurebaSi gaatara. Cveulebisamebr, adamianebi-sgan miyenebuli gulistkenis Jams, waiwkmutunebda xolme da Semdeg sxvisi uxeSobiT iqeT darcxvenili, uxerxulobis gasaqarwyleblad, Tavxeds mliqvnelurad kuds uqicineb-da da damnaSavis gamometyvelebiT qvemodan Sescicinebda. TiTqos eubneboda: Sen arafer SuaSi xar, es me var cudi da Cemi bralia, rom Sen gaRiziandi da wixli Camcxeo. arc Tu iSviaTad, axlo megobrebi saWmelsac ki ayvedridnen, _ CvenTvis araferi gvaqvs da Tavi nu mogvabezreo. demo Seuracxyofas ar imCnevda, arc ibuteboda da gulSi wyena, maqsimum, dRis bolomde Tu gahyveboda. amJamad ki is ukve agresiisTvis iseT mzadyofnas asxivebda, rom misTvis Sey-virebasac veravin bedavda.

swored am gulgatexilobis Jams demoSi, fukos ms-gavsad, cxovrebiseuli gamocdilebis ganzogadebis, moy va sisTvis naazrevis gaziarebis survilma ifeTqa. am sakiTxis gadaWris erTaderT gzas yovelives gaanalizeba da Semdeg qaRaldze gadatana warmoadgenda, rac, demos SemTxvevaSi, SeuZlebeli iyo. samyaros Seqmnisas Semoqmed-ma, moazrovne mawanwala ZaRlebis arseboba TiTqmis ar gaiTvaliswina, xolo maTSi mwerlobis dauokebeli Jinis gaCena xom, saerTod, mxedvelobidan gamorCa. cxadi iyo _ demos ocnebas ganxorcieleba ar ewera. manac aw ukve Cveul xerxs mimarTa da Tavisi usazRvro fantazia moix-mo. nairnairi scenarebis warmosaxvaSi gaTamaSebis Semdeg, sizmari ixila:

`...demo miadga Jurnal `cxeli taburetis“ gamomcem-lobas, romelSic ganTavsebuli iyo ZaRlebis filialic. SesasvlelSive, magidasTan, TeTri, kiserze iisferi baf-TiT, norCi pudeli ijda da usasrulobis labirinTebSi Tavis momxibvlel momavals Wvretda. mowifuli, sakmaod Selaxuli ieris demos danaxvaze nazi pudeli ise Secba, rom TeTri kululebi erTianad Sublze CamoeSala. tur-fam oqrosferfiltrian sigarets moukida da moulod-

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nel stumars mzeriT gza gadauRoba... Semdeg iyo sacx-ovrebeli adgilidan da janmrTelobis cnoba, jiSianobis damadasturebeli sabuTi da mravali sxva biurokratuli formaloba. bolos da bolos demom mTavar redaqtoram-de miaRwia. es iyo wiTuri taqsas SavsaTvaliani Zukna, romelmac stumari kabinetSi miipatiJa. demo redaqtors RvTaebasaviT ucqerda da sityvebs ver poulobda, rom misdami keTilganwyoba da mowiweba gamoexata. isRa moax-erxa, siyvaruliT TvalebSi Caxeda da Zlivs CailuRluRa: `Tqven, verc ki warmoidgenT, ramxela saqmes mikeTebT!“. mawanwalas gasakvirad, `RmerT-ZaRli“ pirdapir saqmeze gadavida da mwerlebis Sekrebis dro amcno. damSvido-bebisas taqsam Rrmad amosunTqvas metad bundovani fraza amoayola: `batono demo, mwerloba _ azvirTebuli okea-nea! es danaRmuli velia, sadac yoveli nabiji SeiZleba sabediswero aRmoCndes...“. emociebisgan daclili, magram STabeWdilebebiT savse, demo saxlisken miZunZulebda da Tavis momavals didi optimizmiT afasebda. is mxolod imaze fiqrobda, rogor axerxeben ZaRlebi wignis daweras, maT kidurs amisTvis xom mtevani sWirdeboda?..

Sekreba saRamos Svid saaTze Sedga... mwerali ZaRlebis mier atexili yvirilisa da ayalmayalis gaxseneba, karga xnis Semdegac, ukidures sasowarkveTaSi agdebda.

...mkrTali sinaTle. darbazSi mxolod demo zis. ri-giTi mwerlebi loJebSi sxedan. amaRlebul scenaze, win, prezidiumis wevrebi erTmaneTs gamosvlas ar aclian. ora torebi, awiTlbuli saxeebiT, lamis kiviliT, erTim-eoreze safuZvlian argumentebs asaxeleben, Tu ratom ar SeiZleba demosTvis wera. morigi mizezis dasaxelebisas darbazSi mjdom damnaSaves grZeli maTraxi TavSi mwared xvdeba. jalaTi sadRac ukan dgas, sibneleSi da ar Cans. dasaxelda àTasi mizezi, ratom ar SeiZleba gaxde mwer-ali“, maT Soris: adamianebi asocialuri arsebebis isto-riebiT ar interesdebian da amitom demos ase Tu ise soli-

duri ZaRlis reputacia kolegebis dacinvas Seewireboda; mawanwala, adamianebTan SedarebiT, sruli uwignuri iyo da mxolod nanaxiTa Tu ganagoniT xelmZRavnelobda, ris gamoc mas inteleqtualebis mware ironia ar ascdeboda; isic iTqva, rom mwerlobiT Tavis gatana SeuZlebeli iyo, radgan adamianebi ZaRlebis sahonoraro Zexvis udides nawils TviTonve miirTmeveno... da mravali sxva. yvela ar-gumenti amxelda demos asakisTvis Seuferebel axirebas, rogorc inteleqtualuri fufunebisa da garTobis dauo-kebel survils... akrZalvebis Temam ise Seipyro gamomsv-lelni, rom sxdoma Svidi dRe da Svidi Rame gagrZelda. dasasruls, misavaTebuli, xmaCaxleCili prezidiumi erT formulirebaze Sejerda, romelic daskvniT protokolSi Seitanes. mweralTa kavSiris verdiqti jalaTma demos Sub-lze specialuri SanTiT amouwva: `yvelaferi moazrovne adamianebma ukve daweres!“. mtkivneuli procedura uxmod daiTmina...

...axalgaRviZebulma demom Tavi saswrafod tomris qveS Sergo da, erTi saaTi mainc, gaoflili, sibneleSi mSvid deboda. aTasi azri utrilebda... metad gasaocari mis xilvaSi iyo is, rom yvela krebis monawiles TiTo wigni mainc hqonda gamocemuli, rac swavluli ZaRlebis mier demosTvis mwerlobis akrZalvas sruliad auxsnels xdida. Txrobis Tanamimdevrobas davarRvev da winaswar gamcnobT, rom krebulis gaSmagebis mizezi demosTvis bo-lomde amoucnobi darCeba... amas garda, ukve momdevno dReebSi xSirad fiqrobda, rogor werdnen massaviT uxelo ZaRlebi wignebs?.. viTom maT magier adamianebi qmnidnen da ZaRlebi mxolod iCemebdnen, rom TviTon daweres?

ase iyo Tu ise, mwerlobaze ocneba warsuls Cabar-da. demos martoobis mZime gancdisa da pesimizmis xana daudga. miuxedavad gandegilobisa, dilis gaseirnebi-sas demo ezos ZaRlebTan zedapirul saubrebs mainc abamda. moxetiale mwirisa da moazrovnis statusi mas

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garkveul upiratesobas TavisTavadac aniWebda, rac ub-nel ZaRlebs sakmaod aRizianebdaT. amas garda, garSe-mo gamefebulma sibnelem demo aiZula, saubarSi ara mxolod ironiis, aramed mware sarkazmis wilic metad gaezarda. yovelive es ki, adre Tu gvian, barsonofi di-dis xeluwvdenel ipostaszec unda gavrcelebuliyo. swored am tabus Sexebam orive mxares cxadad daanaxa, ra uZiro ufskruli devs agresiul koleqtivsa da me-proteste individs Soris.

barsonofi didi... vin iyo is _ beladi, winamZRoli Tu kerpi? danamdvilebiT aravin icoda, Tumca cxadia _ is iyo swored is da, ara mxolod is, romelic iyo... aqve unda aRiniSnos erTi garemoeba _ es Seucnobadi arseba wlebis win gardaicvala da mis magier, barsonofi didis Seucv-lelobis gamo, aRaravin aurCeviaT. sanacvlod, winamZRo-lad misi suraTi datoves da qvemoT lursmulad waaweres _ ùfafukesi da usakalelesi barsonofi didi u-I-lesi“. amave saxeliT moixseniebda mas erovnul arqivSi daculi oficialuri pergamentic. ase darCa batoni barsonofi ZaRlebTan jer suraTad, Semdeg ki samardJamo xatad...

maS, barsonofi didi, vin iyo is _ ZaRli Tu RvTae-ba? Tu gamosaxulebiT vimsjelebT, es iyo grZelbewviani, kiserze mSvenieri fafriTa da didi TaviT, Calisferi Cau-Cau. mas, rogorc am Cinuri jiSis ZaRlebs sCveviaT, muqi lurji ena eba da saTayvanebel suraTze swored es lurji siwminde hqonda gamoyofili. demom moiZia kidec, magram gairkva, rom barsonofi piradad aravis unaxavs _ cnobi-li iyo mxolod misi suraTi, muqi lurji gadmogdebuli eniT. anu is ZaRli gaxldaT? aramc da aramc! ase mxolod ugunuri Tu ifiqrebda...

mis sibrZnesa da marTal cxovrebaze legendebi dadi-oda. man yovelive icoda! barsonofi didma danamdvilebiT icoda, rom orjer ori udris oTxs, xolo Tu saWiroeba moiTxovs, xuTsac. im SemTxvevaSi ki, Tu amis aucilebloba

dadgeba, maSin igive namravli, SesaZloa, Svidamdec gaiz-ardos. iSviaTad, magram arsebobda zeamocanebi da zem-iznebi, rodesac orjer ori SeiZleba aserTsa an Tundac orassamocdaSvids gatoleboda...

barsonofi didis swavlebis _ ̀ barsonofikis“ arss war-mosaxviTi upiratesobis miTebi warmoadgenda da siamayis utkbesi eleqsiriT ZaRlebis Troba. gamohqondaT xatad qceuli suraTi, muqi lurji gamoyofili eniT. CarCoze, sul zemoT, didi wiTeli lursmuli asoebiT dawerili iyo zeaRmatebulobis damadasturebeli `dedaboZi“ miTi: `Cven, barsonofis sulieri Svilebi, dedamiwis zurgze yvelaze didi istoriisa da marTali sarwmunoebis xrova varT!“. siamyis am mTavari sayrdenidan, droTa ganmavloba-Si, gamoiCeka uamravi Svilobili miTi, romelic RvTaebrivi ZaRlis enaze iyo amotvifruli: `barsonofi aRdgeba da mxolod Cven dagvkocnis!“, `Cven yvelaze kulturuli da ganaTlebuli amuniebi varT!”, `yvelaze marTlmorwmune da Semwynarebeli..!”, `yvelaze umanko, ubiwo da kdemamosi-li ZuknebiT..!”, `yvelaze `kai tipebi”, `jigrebi” da àraC-morebi..!” da sxva uamravi `yvelaze!- miTi”. idga morCili krebuli gamosaxulebis win, lurj enas miSterebuli da momnusxveli wiTeli lursmuli warwerebis narkotikiT mT-vral ZaRlebs cremlebi Rvarad Camosdioda. es iyo didi koleqtiuri bednierebis cremlebi, rodesac yvela erTad, droebiT mainc, Tavis ZaRlur cxov rebas iviwyebda da sa-kuTari gansakuTrebulobis gancdis nirvanaSi livlivebda.

batoni barsonofis did Tavs, umSvenieres Calisfer faframde, naxevarmTvaris saxiT, isev lursmuli niSnebiT Sesrulebuli, `barsonofikis“ mTavari lozungi amSveneb-da _ `mxolod am ubanSi dayrili lekvebis grZelbewvi-ani STamomavlebi varT genetikurad marTlebi da vflobT srul WeSmaritebas!“.

araadgilobrivebs da garedan utkbesi eleqsiris mis-aRebad `CamoTreulebs“, erTi sityviT _ `sxvebs“, maga-

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liTad, inglisur dogebsa Tu amerikul stafordSiris terierebs, sakuTari mankieri warmomavloba genetikurad marTali ZaRlebis krebulis winaSe dauyonebliv unda eRiarebina. gulwrfeli monanieba ki maT avtomaturad ZirZvel ubnelebad aqcevda. mxolod amis Sedeg marTali jiSiTa da axali saxeliT Semkul ucxotomelebs ufleba eZleodaT, rCeulTa eleqsirs misdgomodnen. aRniSnuli wyalobis gamo swored goimebma (goimi _ ebr. ara ebraeli, ucxotomeli) barsonofi didis gamosaxulebas ùlevad eleqsirmdinare“ uwodes. xati xom aTiaTasobiT goim ZaRls Tan kvebavda, Tanac heroiniviT akaifebda.

...is rom barsonofi didi, Cineli imperatorebis, Cau- Caus jiSis ZeRlebis lekvi gaxldaT, rogorc es erovnul arqivSi daculi pergamentidan irkveoda, sulac ar ewi-naaRmdegeboda swavlebas. `barsonofika“ xom yovelgvar eWvebs mkacrad krZalavda da TviT warmoadgenda SeuTavse-blis SeTavsebis xelovnebas. ai, swored Cinur warmomav-lobasTan dakavSirebulma gaurkvevlobam miiqcia demos yuradRebac. Tavidan demo ubnel ZaRlebTan uborotod xumrobda, Semdeg misi frazebi aSkara dacinvasa da sarka-zmSi gadaizarda. sul bolos, man arc acia, arc acxela da mkvaxed daajaxa, _ eg Tqveni barsonofi matyura yo-filao... aq demom ZaRlebis sruli gaognebiT isargebla, Seyovnda da dasZina: `diax, diax Tqven viRac gabolebT _ es aris sakuTar TavSi Seyvarebuli kerpis suraTi da meti araferi!“.

...ra ambavi atydaa! ramdenime Zuknam iqve goneba da-karga da mocvenilma mezoblebma isini niSaduris spirtiT Zlivs moasulieres... ezos xrovis winamZRols sastiki slokini autyda da balani aeZagra!

...RamiT saxlSi dabrunebul, wanwaliT daqancul demos sadarbazosTan Casafrebul, organizacia `gmZk“-as (genetikurad marTali ZaRlebis kavSiri) boevikebi vera-gulad Tavs daesxnen. eSvebma gaielva, xrovam Semzaravad

daiRrina da erTiani ymuiliT demosken daeSva... ferdebi gamoglijes, kiseri gamoWames, kidurebis kunTebi eSvebiT dauseres... sisxlisgan daicala, goneba dakarga, daeca... mainc ar daindes, zed gadauares _ cxvirpiri daujijgnes, marcxena Tvali gamoRrRnes...

...Zlivs gamoZvra. erTi kvira ugonod egdo. arc wk-mutunebda. rom ara fuko, kidev sakiTxavi iyo, saerTod, eSveleboda rame? ar moSorebia _ megobarma saxlSi adgi-li gamouyo (nini sadRac gadavida), Wrilobebi gadauxvia. wamlebma, malamoebma, fukos alersma da demos Seupov-robam Tavisi gaitana _ avadmyofma saWmlis danaxvaze ku-dis qicinsa da nerwyvis ylapas umata. dadga dro, rode-sac demo fukos miuCoCda, xeli auloka da Tavi kalTaSi Caudo. demo megobars ucqerda da gadarCenili marjvena Tvalidan madlierebis cremli sdioda.

`yvelaferi, rac xdeba, ukeTesobisken ariso“, _ meramdened gaimeora demom da kvlav azrovnebis pro-cess CauRrmavda. gansacdels uSedegod ar Cauvlia. droTa ganmavlobaSi demom gaacnobiera, rom man in-dividis ganviTarebisTvis, pirovnebis yoveldRiur yofaze amaRlebisTvis yvelaze mniSvnelovani _ mZime avadmyofobis, SeiZleba iTqvas _ kvdomis gamocdile-ba miiRo. moazrovne ZaRlma didi tkivili gadaitana, sikvdils sZlia da Sedegad, sikvdilis SiSi, didwilad mainc, daTrguna. uZilo RameebiT, mtanjavi fiqrebiT, usamarTlobis gulistkiviliT, simwris cremlebiT, Ra-mis sibneleSi ymuiliT, demom cxovrebis ZiriTadi pos-tulatebi daadgina:

I. zogadi _ yovelive warmavalia da amaoa; miwa xar da miwad iqcevi; samyaro Sengan damoukideblad arsebobs da Tavisi kanonebiT cxovrobs; xval mainc is moxdeba, rac unda moxdes _ amitom Seni yoveldRiuri gancdebi fuWia; bedisweras iqamde miende, rom sakuTar janmrTelobaze, sicocxlezec ki didad nu idardeb; demo, daijere, amaod

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SfoTav, dawynardi da gulgrilobamde misuli, autizmis msgavsi simSvide daisadgurebs SenSi;

II. piradi _ martosuloba moazrovne arsebis xvedria; mTavari faseuloba _ Tavisuflebaa, misi miRwevis gzebia _ mZvinvare protesti da gamudmebuli swavla; Tu gsurs, sikvdilisTanave ar dagiviwyon, koleqtivs ganudeqi, mudmivad ganviTarebad arsebad iqeci da didi saqmeebiT SeuerTdi maradisobas.

maS ase, sikvdilze gamarjvebis gamocdilebam sruli-ad Secvala demos pirovneba _ masSi zearsebam gaiRviZa, misi `me“ usasrulobisken miiswrafoda... sanam fukosTan saxlSi mkurnalobis kurss gadioda, dros uqmad ar kar-gavda da xSirad megobris wignebs aTvalierebda. demos yuradReba fukos fizika-maTematikur skolaSi swavlis-droindelma saxelmZRvaneloebma miipyro. is mixvda, ra didi SesaZleblobebi imaleboda momajadoebeli cifre-bis miRma _ es iyo konkretuli sagnebidan zogad cnebebze gadasvlis SesaniSnavi gza! amas garda, rogorc gantele-bi avarjiSebs da zrdis aTletis kunTebs, ise avarjiSebs tvins maTematika, aviTarebs ra masSi abstraqtuli da logikuri azrovnebis unarebs. demomac ar daayovna da cifrebis Seswavlas, maTTan operaciebis Sesrulebasa da ricxvebis meSveobiT garkveuli movlenebisa Tu sagnebis aRweras misca Tavi. azrovnebis procesic erTiorad efeqturi gaxda.

Cven ukve aRvniSneT, rom admianebis Seswavlis dasawy-isSive demom isini `totalitarulebad“ da `progresule-bad“ dayo. axla ki, gamojansarebis dasasruls, swored am klasifikaciis safuZvelze, maTematikuri analizis meSve-obiT, man àdamianis ganviTarebis universaluri Teoria“ Camoayaliba.

demos àdamianTa ganviTarebis universaluri Teoria“

àdamianTa cxovrebis mTavar sazrunavs materialu-ri faseulobebisa da fulis Sovna warmoadgens. am miznis miRwevas ki, Rirebulebebis sistemidan gamomdinare, ori sawinaaRmdego Sedegi moaqvs:

a) totalitarul RirebulebaTa sistemis kanoni. ada-mianTa umravlesobas fulis mopoveba mTlianad iTrevs, isini pirovnul ganviTareba- ganaTlebas wyveten da TviT xdebian fulisa Tu simdidris monebi. warmatebis SemTx-vevaSi, am adamianebs masebic siamovnebiT emorCilebian da TviT mdidrebic tkbebian sakuTari ZalauflebiT xalxze. totalitaruli anu SiSsa da koleqtiur Tanxmobaze da-fuZnebuli cnobierebis ZiriTadi maxasiaTeblebi aseTia: 1. azrovneba _ ukritiko, Sablonuri; 2. Segneba _ miTolo-giuri; 3. morali _ farisevluri; 4. mentaloba _ monuri, batonymuri, _ rac gamoisaxeba totalitaruli cnobiere-bis formuliT:

T = P + Myt + H + S

sadac: T aris totalitaruli cnobiereba; P _ Sablo-nuri, ukritiko azrovneba; Myt _ miTologiuri Segneba; H _ farisevluri morali; S _ monuri mentaloba.

universaluri kanonis pirveli nawilidan, living-ston-kunderas gantolebebiT martivi gardaqmnebis Sem-deg viRebT sam Sedegs:

1. monis triada: a)Suri, boRma; b)uvicoba, araprofe-sionalizmi; g)pasiuroba, uiniciativoba.

2. `totalitaruli“ adamianis cxovrebis principi _ oRod sxva iyos cudad.

3. `totalitaruli“ koleqtivebis ZiriTadi problema _ Rirsebis uqonloba da, aqedan gamomdinare, erTmaneTis upativcemloba.

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b) progresul RirebulebaTa sistemis kanoni. adami-anTa umciresoba cxovrebisTvis aucilebeli fulis ra-odenobiT kmayofildeba (arqauli sruli upovaroba dRes TiTqmis SeuZlebelia). mopovebuli materialuri saxsre-biT, es individebi damoukideblobas iZenen, romlis sa-fuZvelzec, mZvinvare protestisa da ganaTlebis meSve-obiT, viTardebian da mTavars _ Tavisuflebas aRweven. pirovnuli Tavisuflebis SegrZneba ki, Tavis mxriv, pirda-pirproporciulia bednierebis, rac gamoisaxeba bedniere-bis gantolebiT:

F = M+ I + (P + LE) = H × q

sadac: F aris pirovnuli Tavisufleba; M _ fuli, sim-didre; I _ damoukidebloba; P _ mZvinvare protesti; LE _ ganaTleba; H _ bedniereba, q _ individualuri bedniere-bis koeficienti.

universaluri kanonis meore (b) nawilidan, aseve mar-tivi logikuri da maTematikuri gardaqmnebiT, viRebT sam Sedegs:

1. adamianis mTavari niWi ganviTarebaSia, rac moZvele-buli `meebis“ mudmiv mokvdinebas gulisxmobs;

2. Tavisuflebis sawyisi wyaro koleqtivisgan gandgo-ma da protestia;

3.jer TviT unda gaxde Tavisufali da mxolod Semdeg SeZleb, gaaTavisuflo sxva.

adamianTa ganviTarebis universaluri Teoriis daskv-na: a da b kanonebis keruak-ginsberg-berouzis sistemaSi gardaqmnis Semdeg viRebT sazogadoebis civilizebulobis gansazRvrebas:

adamianTa jgufebis mier dasaxlebuli teritoria miekuTvneba civilizebulTa ricxvs, Tu misi erTi bo-lodan meoremde gadakveTa SesaZlebelia avtostopiT.

SeiZleba Tamamad iTqvas, rom demos àdamianTa gan-viTarebis universaluri Teoria“, mendelis genetikisa Tu niutinis meqanikis kanonebTan, krik-uotsonis mier genetikuri kodis gaSifvrasTan Tu ainStainis fardobi-Tobis TeoriasTan erTad, kacobriobis gabeduli azris saganZurSi aucileblad daikavebda sapatio adgils, rom ara erTi, zemoxsenebuli garemoeba _ moazrovne mawan-walas mweralma ZaRlebma gza gadauRobes da amis gamo misi mecnieruli naSromi msofliosTvis ucnobi unda darCe-niliyo... magram, sabednierod, arsebobs raRac umaRlesi samarTlianobis kanonebi, romlebic logikas ar eqvemde-bareba da ai, ùniversaluri kanoni“ CemTan aRmoCnda. mec aviRe da Tqven gagiziareT...

epilogi

gavida dro, demo gamojansaRda da kvlav sadarbazo-Si daido bina. 10 seqtembris dila gaTenda. wvimda. zemo ubanSi mobiluris zari gaisma:

– ho, me var... Camo, insulinebi wamoiRe...– movdivar! dagubebuli totalitarizmis qalaqis zemo ubnidan,

kai biWi kodeqsa, Savi, sakmaod Selaxuli, bamperebmomZvra-li `BMW”-Ti wamlis asaRebad qvemo ubanSi wuil-wuiliT daeSva. gzad, guros gauara:

– daje, droze! ramdenia?...– samasi... gurom sami asdolariani kai biWs kodeqsas gadasca:– vibridebi, Cemi, iseT lomkaSi var... `subua“?– ara, `geronti“... totalitaruli qalaqis quCebSi, sadac totalita-

ruli cnobierebis moqalaqeebiT dasaxlebuli, totali-taruli arqiteqturis saxlebi idga, isev wvimda. `sastavi“ qvemo ubans swrafad uaxlovdeboda...

guSindeli saRamo demom ̀ mati-matildinasTn” gaatara. bolos, matis cxvir-piri auloka da parkisken waZunZulda.

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Tavis ezoSi ar dabrunebula. mTeli Rame xis ZirSi Tvlem-da da fiqrobda. dilisken wvimam gamoafxizla... `ramdeni xania fuko ar minaxavs, egeb sindisis mkuranaloba sWird-eba... isic CemsaviT martoa. mival, keTil saqmes gavakeTeb, davaimedeb. albaT, ninoc isev Causaxlda... Tu unda miyvi-ros...“, _ fiqrebSi garTulma demom Tavis quCaze auxvia. daRla igrZno:

– eh, ukve ise movberdi, axla saiqios meti axlobeli myavs, vidre aqeT... am ZaRluri cxovrebis gadamkide di-dad dasananic araferia...

bolo droa cxovrebisgan gadaiRala, mobezrda kidec is. matisTanac movaleobis gamo mivida _ guli ar dawyvi-ta. Tumca moferebis dros siyvaruli mainc moeZala da tirilamde auCuyda guli. aRaraferi axarebda. gulis ga-ciebasTan erTad, TiTqos sulieradac gamoifita. demo or cecxlSua aRmoCnda, mas arc ZaRlebi iRebdnen da verc adamianebTan urTierTobaSi pova nugeSi. cxovrebis oc-nebac aRisrula _ àdamianTa ganviTarebis universaluri Teoria“ Seqmna. SeiZleba iTqvas _ demom Tavisi miwieri funqcia amowura. raRa azri hqonda mis arsebobas?

fukom Tvali gaaxila, mobilurs daxeda, 11 saaTia. sigareti gaabola, moTenTilobas Zlivs moeria da wa-modga. nini televizorTan ijda. èrTi gamagebina, am dilaadrian ras uyurebs?!“, _ gaifiqra fukom da fanja-rasTan mivida. quCas gadaxeda. gareT wvimda... demo SeniS-na, is quCas kveTda. marcxena mxridan bamperebmomZvrali `BMW” gamofrinda. mawanwala, marcxena Tvalis arqonis gamo mas ver xedavda... fukom dayvirebaRa moaswro: `demo, Zmao, demo, manqanaa!..“. yru xma. avtomobilis qveS Sevar-da. ramdenime dartyma. uknidan gamoisrola, ramdenjerme inerciiT gadatrialda. fuko sadarbazodan gamovarda...

wvimian quCaze, gzis piras, ZaRli usulod egdo. piri-dan sisxli sdioda. muxlebze daCoqili megobari Tav-ze xels usvamda. mawanwalas arsebobam xom azri dakar-ga da gangebamac daiviwya (Tu waiyvana?) is. demo kosmoss SeuerTda.

werili merve, saaxalwlo: `Cven SoTas, ilias,

akakisa da vaJas eri varT!”

N, isev gwer. es ambebi me Caviwere, rodesac policiis metad gaxSirebul `raudebsa“ da quCaSi gaCerebebs (`Tqve-ni sabuTebi... saxeloebi aiwie, venebi...), Tavisi daWereb-iTa da fulis axeviT, Tbilisidan imereTSi, mSoblebTan gaveqeci. Semdeg iq wlebi SevrCi da yvela sikeTesTan er-Tad, gavloTdi kidec...

I. `didi gamomcemeli“

– fuko, me movedi, mzad xar?– egos, gau! ki, guSin gvian RamiT erTxelac gadavxede.

ai, esaa.– xom ici, arCevani SezRudulia, sad warvadginoT _

gamomcemelTan Tu `gabrwyinebul iveriaSi“?.. aris kidev `mxolod Cven“, Tumca...

– ra Tqma unda gamomcemelTan da gelodebi...– me ara, Tu didma gamomcemelma gadawyvita, Tvi-

Ton dagikavSirdeba. xom ici, is bavSviviT gulrwfelia da mouTmeneli. Tu raime moewona, Cvenc ki, maradiso-baSi gasulebs, axalbedebTan urTierTobas ar gvandobs. erTi suli aqvs, piradad Sexvdes maT _ aseTia siyvaru-lis buneba.

– magas ra sjobs, mec mas davucdi, egeb Semiyvaros.– kargi, fuko, nawerebi momawode da wavedi... vaa, rac

erTmaneTs gaveyareT, kargad gimuSavia _ `Cven SoTas, ili-as, akakisa da vaJas eri varT!“ _ saTauri mevasa! gaxsovdes, Tu did gamomcemelTan urTierTobas gadawyvet, sxvebTan TanamSromloba gamoricxulia!

– vici, imTaviTve vicodi...gavida dro. kvlav dilis fiqrebs, xvelebis maxrCobe-

la paroqsizmebiT sigaretis wevas da dRis mravaljerad Zils mivubrundi. ise gavzarmacdi, gonebis odnav daZab-

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vac ki mRlida. Tve gavida, kidev erTi... marTalia, moviwy-ine, Tumca, iseTi SegrZneba mqonda, TiTqos gamomcemeli mcdida da makvirdeboda. saerTodac, aseTi bedi maqvs _ nebismier dasaxul mizans vaRwev, erTi SexedviT miuRwev-elsac ki, magram advilad ar meZleva _ didi Sroma miwevs da mravali gulistkenis gadatana. Sedegad, gamarjvebis jildo TiTqmis aRarc maxarebs da mexsierebaSi mxolod miznisken mimaval gzaze wyena meleqeba.

... da, ai, man uceb TavisTan mixmo! jer guli gamiT-bo, miTxra, miyvarxaro da momefera, Tavze xelic gadamis-va... Semdeg ki moulodnelad gaqra da me gamomcemlobis redkolegiis sxdomaze amovyavi Tavi. Sekreba, romelsac didi SoTa uZRveboda, erTob araformalur viTarebaSi mimdinareobda _ SoTa, saba da ilia Rvinos aWaSnikebd-nen da yalions abolebdnen, tato da daviTi zRaprul xils miirTmevdnen, xolo akaki da vaJa umSvenieres baRSi yvavilebis surneliT tkbebodnen... SoTam folianti, ro-melsac warwera `qarTuli mwerloba“ amSvenebda, gadaSa-la, mowveulebs yuradReba sTxova da ucnauri sxdoma dai-wyo. axalgazrda ymawvilma kaTedrasTan adgili daikava da kiTxvas Seudga.

II. xelnaweri

Sesavali. maradiuli xelnaweris istoriisTvispativcemulo sazogadoebav!qvemoT moyvanili teqsti pirvelad wlebis win gamo-

vaqveyne, rodesac `vardebis revoluciis“ talRebma mSob-liuri zaden-orpiris eparqiamde moaRwia. imxanad, mec axali, `dasavluri sios“ gavlenis qveS moveqeci da ojax-uri zandukidan saguldagulod gadanaxuli manuskripti amoviRe. vifiqre, axali epoqa dgeba, modi, momaval Tao-bebs bedkruli sabWouri warsulis hagiografiul Zegls davutoveb da norCebi mas `SuSanikis wamebasTan“ erTad iswavlian-Tqo.

gavida dro... 2013-is `samarTliani oqtombris“ dax-marebiT, Rirseba davibrune, `vardebis“ masonuri samosi sruliad ganvixune, qarTul fesvebs davubrundi da igi-ve teqsti, amjerad `nacebis“ araerovnuli arsis samxi-leblad kvlav gamovaqveyne. Semdeg iyo 2014 da isev igi ve xelnaweri... dRes ki mixaria, rom ukve 2015 welia da mama-papiseuli faseulobebisTvis brZola `pidarastebis“, in-cestisa da ̀ Cmorebis“ winaaRmdeg axal fazaSi Sedis! imedi maqvs, rom xelnaweri Cems dinastias momaval saukuneebSic mravalgzis gaabrwyinebs!

saqme is gaxlavT, rom es papirusi Cveni saojaxo reliq viaa da is Taobebidan Taobebs gadaecema. sagvareu-lo gadmocemis Tanaxmad, es teqsti jer kidev XIX saukunis bolos Cemma didma babuam da imavdroulad, cnobilma ar-qeologma _ silibistrom, germanel hainrix SlimanTan er-Tad, troas gaTxrebisas aRmoaCina. im droidan moyolebu-li, pergamenti Cven gvekuTvnis da swored is ganapirobebs gvaris arnaxul popularobas. silibistros STamomavlebs mxolod isRa dagvrCenia, rom uZveles teqstSi termino-logia Tu morigi mmarTvelis saxeli drosTan Sesabamiso-baSi moviyvanoT da Sedevric mzadaa _ aqveyne da iyavi! Ce-mgan anu am jadosnuri ganZis ukanaskneli mflobelisgan, imas davamateb, rom samamulo warmoebis javSniT daculma qarTulma Sublma msoflio masonizmis Wurvebi amjeradac warmatebiT moigeria da, Sesabamisad, mec teqstis gamo-qveynebis win mxolod TariRis Secvla miwevs.

erTi sityviT, sruliad saqarTvelom, erma da berma SegviZlia viamayoT erovnuli cnobierebis Seuvali mdgra-dobiT _ Cven mas saukuneebis manZilze Tavs vevlebiT da ve-ranairi mteri ver SegvibRalavs! dideba Cven, dideba Cvens maradiul faseulobebs da maTi damadasturebeli dokumen-tis mfarvel angelozebs _ Cems gvarsa da jilags, dideba!

gza amiranidan nacarqeqiamdeiveria uZvelesi kulturis qveyanaa. aq ara mxolod

cnobiereba, aramed garemo, SesaniSnavi buneba, Tval-

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warmtaci cisferi mTebi, haeric ki gmirobiT, miTosiT aris gaJRenTili. saqarTveloSi antikuri xanidan iqmneba miTi amiranze. romantikosi amirani kulturuli gmiria _ is anadgurebs mavne mcenareebs, aZlevs adamianebs RvTi-ur cecxls da aswavlis maT mWedlobas. RmerTTan brZo-lis gamo amirani kavkasiis qedze gamoqvabulSia mijaWvu-li. mis RviZls mudmivad ZiZgnis arwivi, xolo erTguli ZaRli jaWvs lokavs da cdilobs galios igi. magram Rmer-Tis mier miCenili mWedlebi yovelwliurad, swored So-bis winaRames anaxleben jaWvs. damdegi Sobis wina Ramesac albaT igive moxdeba da mijaWvuli amirani ver Seaxsenebs Tavs gulmaviwy qarTvelebs. vin daikavebs mis adgils _ vin gagvanaTlebs amjerad da vin Semoitans CvenSi kulturas?

miTis saSualebiT Zvelma adamianma moaxerxa winaaRm-degobaTa gadalaxva, dauZlevelis daZleva, magaliTad: kaci amaRlda RmerTamde, sicocxlem gaimarjva sikvdil-ze, Cia tanisam sZlia goliaTs, Rataki da uqoneli _ gam-didrda!

realur da warmosaxviT cxovrebas Soris gansxvave-bis Tundac nawilobrivi gaqarwyleba, miwier yofaSi warmatebis, samarTlianobis miRweviT xdeba. iverielTa cxovreba arc dasabamidan yofila ia-vardiT mofenili, xolo ukanaskneli 8-9 saukunea aq odnav sasikeToc ki araferi momxdara. ra eqnaT? igonebdnen da Txzavdnen qa-rTvelebi axal-axal miTebs, raTa zRaparSi mainc mieRwi-aT warmatebisTvis, gaemarTlebinaT TavianTi amqveyniuri duxWiri yofa.

gavida mravali saukune, Seicvala droeba. Tana-medrove saqarTvelo ki kvlav miTologiuri azrovnebis qveyanaa, meocnebe xalxiT dasaxlebuli. qarTvelebi im-denad mowydnen civilizacias, pragmatul realobas, rom isini erTs aRiareben, meores fiqroben da mesames akeTe-ben. gulgatexili mosaxleobis umravlesoba, dResac, mo-maval aramiwier anu zeciur cxovrebazea orientirebuli. sasufevelze mudmivi ocneba am xalxs sulac ar uSlis xels, adamiani miTologiurad `miwieri kriteriumebiT”

manqaniT, beWdiT, saaTiT da mobiluri telefoniT Seafa-son da Semdeg fSvinviT miayolon _ didi pasuxismgeblobaa bolo Jamis saqarTveloSi cxovreba, Zalian didio!

swored Cvens epoqaSi wamoyo Tavi qarTuli zRapris sayvarelma personaJma _ `nacarqeqiam”! is zarmacia, magram moxerxebuli. matyuara da baqia nacarqeqia devebs saku-Tari saxlidan aZevebs da maT qonebas epatroneba. dResac igive istoria ganmeorda _ nacarqeqiam Cveuli xrikebiT fuli iSova, darwmunda sakuTar ùpiratesobaSi” da marx-vas Seudga. dRevandeli `marTlmorwmune” nacarqeqiebis ZiriTadi safiqralia: rogor ar mohyves sityvas saqme, ra winaRoba moigonon, raTa ar gadawydes problema. maTi mTavari survilia SeinarCunon gonebrivi da fizikuri uZ-raoba da Tan amaSi, rac SeiZleba, meti sargebeli miiRon. muqTaxorobasa da karg, udardel cxovrebas Soris fata-luri winaaRmdegobis dasaZlevad qarTvelebs protestis sxvadasxva forma aurCeviaT: samoqalaqo omidan _ mraval-aTasian mitingebamde.

dideba Cven!sami istoriuli faqtidan: 1.saqarTveloSi Seiqmna uk-

vdavi poema `vefxistyaosani”; 2.qarTvelebs hyavdaT didi mefeebi: vaxtang gorgasali, daviT aRmaSenebeli da Tamar mefe; 3.qarTvelebma dauSves, rom erT moedanze aSenebu-liyo oTxi sxvadasxva aRmsareblobis taZari _ gamomdin-areobs nacarqeqiebis cxovrebis warmmarTveli lozungi _ `Cven SoTas... ilias, akakisa da vaJas eri varT!” da maTi cnobierebisTvis savsebiT logikuri, erovnuli siamayis mTavari qmnileba, miTi _ `Cven qarTvelebi dedamiwis zu-rgze yvelaze magari da marTali eri varT!”. am miTs mrava-li ganStoeba aqvs _ `yvelaze Zveli da gmiruli istoriis mqone..! `yvelaze kulturuli..!”, `yvelaze ganaTlebuli..!”, `yvelaze marTlmorwmune da Semwynarebeli..!”, `yvelaze umanko, ubiwo da kdemamosili qalebiT..!”, `yvelaze `kai tipebi”, `jigrebi” da àraCmorebi..!” da sxva uamravi `yvelaze..!”. azrovnebac Zveli da axali zRaprebiT aris ga-

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jerebuli. erTi mxriv _ istoriidan amoglejili epizodeb-iT, raTa samarcxvino ganidevnos, xolo gmiruli gazviad-des da meore mxriv _ yoveldRiuri moxmarebis, absurduli politikuri xasiaTis monagoniT, SeTqmulebis TeoriebiT, mravali mtris xatiT, raTa cxov rebis siZneleebi uSrom-lad, WoraobaSi an mitingze mainc daiZlios.

aq sixarulis ZiriTadi wyaro _ `sufra-Tamada-aka-demia” _ miTia, qarTulad _ `mama-papuri sma-Wama”da `Se-metene-Segetene” sadRegrZeloebi! gamTeniisas saxlSi misvla da sawolSi Cumi, netari xaroba imiT, Tu rogor Segaqes, ra moxdenilad, sruliad gansaxvavebulad iTqva Seni sadRegrZelo! sufris fenomeni, urTierT-fsiqoTer-apia WiqiT xelSi imdenad mniSvnelovania nacarqeqiaTa yofisTvis, imdenad zRaprulia da realobas acdenili maTi cnobiereba, rom yvelaze cud drosac ki, rodesac arc Suqi hqondaT, arc bunebrivi airi da quCaSi erT-maneTs xocavdnen, risTvis _ dResac aravin icis, maSinac ki, pirvel rigSi restornebs, kafe-barebs da sasadiloebs aSenebdnen. amasve ganagrZoben dRemde.

netav, ganaxaT nacarqeqiebis zRapruli ritualebi: gasvenebebi, qelexebi, qorwilebi, mravalricxovani ban-ketebi, gagagonaT sadRegrZeloebi _ fantaziis foierver-ki! ai, sad xdeba WeSmaritad dapirispirebul winaaRmdego-baTa gadalaxva! sufraze Sendeba qveyana da mere rogori! aq xdeba mkvdrebis gacocxleba da cocxlebis miwaSi Cade-ba! gmiruli ambebi da axali miTologiuri istoriis Seqm-na! mijnuroba da ganSoreba! yovelive es _ kacebis... diax, diax _ mamrebis `zasaobis” TanxlebiT! nacarqeqiebs xom seqsi ezarebaT da amitom ezizRebaT kidec!

qarTveli qalebisTvis gacxadebulad, anu sazoga-doebisgan daufaravad, qorwinebamde seqsi ar arsebobs, amaze saubaric ki samarcxvinod iTvleba. qalis da ka-cis sasiyvarulo urTierTobis ZiriTadi miRebuli for-ma mdgomareobs sqesobriv aqtSi bavSvis gaCenis mizniT, isic erTaderTi da samudamo samoqalaqo qorwinebis da jvrisweris Semdeg. naadrevi gaTxovebis netari wuTis

dadgomamde, mdedrebis umravlesoba damajereblad qad-agebs miTs, TiTqos arc ki unda dakavdes seqsiT, radgan sruliad gulgrilia misiT miyenebuli siamovnebisadmi. xolo samjer ganaTxovari Svilebiani qali qaliSviliviT iqceva da TvalSi nacars gayris Zveli zRapriT, romelSic bavSvebs bostanSi pouloben.

aq sazogadoeba sasiyvarulo urTierTobas, rogorc kacs da qals Soris mimdinare oms, ise aRiqvams. am diad brZolaSi gamajvebuli mxare _ mamakaci damarcxebuls _ qals muxlebze dascems da, erTjeradi `kontribuciis” miRebis Semdeg, uniSnavs samudamo, magram iSviaT, xSirad mxolod warmosaxviT `xarks” da... agrZelebs `mTvralze bozebSi siaruls”! damcirebuli da Seuracxyofili mteri morCilad dgeba samudamo qorwinebis monobaSi.

RmerTic, garkveuli TvalsazrisiT _ miTia, oRond yvela miTi rodia RmerTi. RmerTi _ zemiTia! magaliTad: RmerTi _ kaci, warmoebs winaaRmdegobis miTiT daZleva da iSveba _ gankacebuli RmerTi; an sicocxle _ sikvdili, dapirispirebis gadalaxva _ aRdgoma.

magram `marTlmorwmune” qarTvel nacarqeqiebs mx-olod amgvari mistikuri ambebi ar hyofniT, maT real-uris zRaprulTan Serwyma surT, maT gaRmerTebuli ker-pi swyuriaT! miTologias sublimirebis mZlavri nakadi uerTdeba da ibadeba xatebi rainduli saxeebiT: miTi _ `keTilSobili miliarderi b.”; zRapari _ `samarTliani abragi d. da ganaTlebuli, kulturuli, `jigari” qurdi t.”; `zemiTi! _ uvercxlo, Tavmdabali umanko kravi, wi-naswarmetyveli mamao d. da cocxali, miwieri, ucdomeli `RmerTi” i...axve-II, igive i...eRova-II”. nacarqeqiebi mudmi-vi, daZabuli `meored mosvlis” reJimSi cxovroben! isi-ni amayad amtkiceben _ RmerTi qarTulad iqadagebs da gansjiso, ai, maSin ki darwmundebian amerikelebi Cven ra magrebi varTo, magram gvianRa iqnebao! aseTi RaRadiT nacarqeqiebi, ager ukve bolo 25 welia, Sehyureben zecas da uimedod, magram jiutad elodebian `bolo Jams”. is ki ratomRac igvianebs...

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locviTa da marxviTa _ win naTeli momavlisken!

erovnuli xasiaTidan gamomdinare, romelic da-fuZnebulia sam veSapze: samyaros miTologiur aRqmaze, ampartavnebaze da xsenebul uqnarobaze _ qarTvelebma sakuTari wvlili Seitanes qristianobis ganaxlebaSic! inovacia Seexeba erTi mxriv _ zecidan mxolod qarT-velebisTvis, maTi gansakuTrebulobis dasamtkiceblad, madlmosili cecxlis gadmosvlas da meore: rwmenas _ si-yvarulis, yovelgvari Tavganwirvis, Rvawlis gareSe. ce-cxlis aramiwieri warmoSoba mtkicdeba masze xelis swra-fi gadatarebiT da ibadeba axali miTi _ `civi cecxli”! savaraudod, rigSia miTebi _ `cxeli yinuli” da `mSrali wyali“.

dabolos, sanam davSordebodeT, gTxovT `komunis-turi partiis manifestis” safuZvelze Seqmnili nacar-qeqiebis erToblivi locva aRvavlinoT:

belado Cveno, puri Cveni arsobisa momec Cven dRes da erTmorwmune rusi Zmebi Cagvaxuten Cven! saqarTvelos okupantis siyvaruli gagviRvivenda mis wiaRSi dagvabrunen Cven!rac ar unda gadagvagdon da dagviWiron Cven,ixtibars ar gavitexT da sxvis jinaze SemogevleT Sen! dideba qarTvelebs _ msoflioSi yvelaze magar ers!

yvelaze, yvelaze, yvelaferSi! Cven yvela gviyvars da, garda ruseTisa, yvela gvebrZvis! dideba klonirebul ufliswulebsa da bednierebis ZiebaSi damaSvral rain-debs, dideba!

gakerili qaliSvilebi, marTlmadidebel mSobelTa triadebi da bususebiani prezervativebii-i-i! saqarTvelo gabrwyindeba _ inglisi daiZireba! soroselebi, ieRovele-bi da masonebi, bevri masoni! bevrze, bevri masoni! mruSe-bi, mamaTmavlebi, lesboselebi _ jojoxeTis geena da uZ-Rebi matli maT!

pidarastebs, incestsa da Cmorebs _ `nou“! Coxebsa da Cixtikopebs _ ìes“!

qarTuli sufra _ akademiaa! erTkviriani panaSvide-bi da gasvenebebi, didi qelexebi da umSvenieresi mar-marilos saflavebi! minimum aTaskaciani qorwilebi, naTlobebi da banketebi! samarxvo goWebi da mwvadebi, xaWapurebi da sacivebi, tortebi da Sokoladebi! Ripe-bi, Ripebi, Ripebi da Rababebi! `qalbatono fintikoza, aba pakaJi adin poza”-s TanxlebiT sadidebeli sadRegr-Zeloebi, gansxvavebulebi, yanwebi, vazebi, Wis `vedroe-bi” da kramitebi, `lampis” SuSebi da qalis `tuflebi”! `Janes” Spri-ce-bii-i, avoiee! sufraze yvela mteri dam-arcxdeba da jojoxeTs warigzavneba! qeifSi umSveniere-si qveyana-edemi aSendeba! inglisi da amerika mainc dai-Zireba! dolarsac deda mo...ba!

asea es! lelo-lelo sa-qar-Tve-lo! lelo-lelo sa-qar-Tve-

lo! lelo-lelo sa-qar-Tve-lo-oo! dideba Senda miTo-logiav da farisevlobav Cveno, dideba Senda-aa!

a-lelo-ia, a-lelo-ia, a-le-lo-i-a!”

P.S. saSobaod, amjeradac, kargad umuSaviaT RvTiur mWe-

dlebs, magrad SeuboWavT amirani! debo da Zmebo, Tqven mogmarTavT me, maradiuli xe-

lnaweris mcveli fuko: `totalitarulo deidebo, bi-Ziebo da moxucebulo axalgazrdebo; xelovanTa, mwer-alTa, momReralTa, telewamyvanTa da JurnalistTa kastebSi gaerTianebulebo, erTmaneTis qeba-didebaSi damaSvralebo da mainc zaqaTalis olqs iqeT ucnobebo; erovnuli faseulobebisTvis mebrZolo raindebo da kdemamosilo mandilosnebo; ojaxis wevrebo, Svilebo, Zmakacebo, daqalebo _ sruliad saqarTvelov _ sabWou-ro da demokratiulo, meocnebev da dasaWerad gamza-debulo, gilocav damdeg Soba-axal wels! gaiRimeT megobrebo _ qarTuli xalxuri kalendriT 2015-i kvlav

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nacarqeqias welia! imeds gamovTqvam, rom momaval 2016, 2017, 2018... wlebSic bevri araferi Seicvleba da qarT-velebi SevinarCunebT dedamiwis zurgze yvelaze magari da marTali eris statuss!.. gaiRimeT, megobrebo, ga-i-Ri-mee-e-T!

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1. SoTa 1954 wlis ianvars orpiris raionis erT-erT sofelSi

Tofi gavarda, RaRaniZeebis ojaxs biWi SeeZina! deda sam-SobiaroSive filtvebis anTebiT gardaicvala. bavSvs didi poetis pativsacemad SoTa daarqves da drois moTxovnis mixedviT, mas didedis `mkacri reJimiT“ aRzrda miesaja. gavida wlebi...

maS ase, imereTis sofeli lurTa, engelsis quCa. or-sarTuliani xis saxli qvis kibiTa da SuSabandiT. didi ezo, nalia, mwvane moli da wiTeli Tixis Wis Tavi, jaWvze _ dasresili vedro. rkinisCuqurTmebiani vercxlisferi WiSkari, amozneqili, Jolosferi varskvlavebiT da cocxa-li eklis Robe.

qveda sarTuli _ gaxunebuli Spaleri da miwis priala iataki. kedelze _ ojaxis saTayvanebeli kerpebis _ ioseb stalinisa da SoTa rusTavelis portretebi. galaquli nardi figuruli fexebiTa da imave rusTavelis gamosaxu-lebiT.

mosaRamovda, acivda, yofili partiuli muSaki bebia buxars miujda. Rvawlmosili moxuci gazeT `soflis cxov rebas” aTvalierebs, fexebqveS wiTuri bombora kata uzis. fiso Tvalebminabuli krutunebs. ojaxis mama dili-dan dinamitiT saTevzaod cxeniswyalzea wasuli. Tvrameti wlis Wabuki SoTa saxlSi darCa. mas `gamCeni ar asvenebs” _ is bunebiT mkvlevaria da xSirad saxifaTo eqsperimentebs atarebs.

Cveulebriv, ase erToboda _ mamisgan moparul din-amits mezoblis katas saguldagulod abamda, fiTils ukidebda da xels uSvebda. naperwklebis yriTa da SiSin-iT gagiJebuli kata Tavqudmoglejili ukana ezosken gar-boda, sadac, yanamde ar misuli, feTqdeboda. miRebuli siamovneba didi iyo, magram arasakmarisi. amjerad bebias sayvareli, kudgafuebuli katis jeri dadga. dinamiti, fiTili, denTis kvamli, SiSini. gaognebuli wiTuri kata garbis da usafrTxo navsayudels bebias kabis kalTis qveS povebs... Zlieri afeTqebis xma!

mogexsenebad, adamiani 80% wylisgan Sedgeba. kvamlSi gaxveuli katis danaxvisas, bebias ratomRac wamouZaxia, _ „Я солдата на фельдмаршала не меняю!“, _ Semdeg wylad qceula da aorTqlebula. dasamarxad mxolod Savi kabis nafleTebi da `warCinebuli SromisTvis” medaliRa darCe-nila.

Tevzaobidan Sin dabrunebuli, SezarxoSebuli mama TofiTa da araadamianuri bRaviliT gamosdgomia SoTas. didxans udevnia. SoTa verc dasaflavebas daswrebia _ SavebSi Semosili mama Turme Tofs gverdidan ar iSorebda da CurCuliT, gamudmebiT imeorebda: `У нас пленных нет, у нас есть только предатели... только предатели... только...“ bolos devnili ymawvilkaci naTesavebs SeufarebiaT da malu lad jarSi gaumwesebiaT. ruseTSi gadaxvewamde, So-Tas gadaparsuli Tavi matareblis viwro fanjridan gver-dulad gamoCenila da wamouZaxia,– àr ici, vardni uek-lod aravis moukrefiano!” da gauCinarebula.

xabarovskis olqis N polkSi moxvda da eqTani tomac iqve gaicno. Svili saba SeeZinaT. mamam SoTas sicocxlis bolomde ar apatia _ man sofel lurTaSi martoobasa da loTobaSi dalia suli. savaldebulo samxedro samsax-uris vadis amowurvis Semdeg SoTa saqarTveloSi dabrun-da da, ojaxTan erTad, raionul centrSi orpirSi dasax-lda.

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2. saba imxanad orpiris quCebSi erTi giJi, saxelad miriani,

daabijebda. es iyo Suaxnis mamakaci gaburZgnili wveriT, xelSi CemodniT, zamTar-zafxul samxedro SinelSi, Ce-qmebsa da ùSankaSi” gamowyobili. raionuli centris mo-saxleoba `miriana-giJs” sasoflo-sameurneo samuSaoebi-sTvis iyenebda. aT maneTad imxela ezos dagibaravdaT, sxva zedac ar Sexedavda. fulze morigebisas miriani Tvalebs xrida da gasamrjelos buzRuniT Tanxmdeboda. dilidan daRamebamde muSaobda. dasasrul, Wiqa WaWaze, mWads da kitrs maiyolebinebdnen da mirianic RiRiniT Ramis wyvdi-adSi uCinardeboda.

sadRac, iqve, orpirSi, patara saba SoTas Ze izrdebo-da. rogorc bevr soflel bavSvs, sabasac uyvarda ukanal-Si gayrili balaxis ReroTi bayayis gaberva da wylis zeda-pirze gaSveba. bayayi, mucelSi dagrovili haeris gamo, ver yvinTavda da wylis zedapirze umweod dasrialebda. sia-movnebis gvirgvins uSedego yvinTvisgan daRlili, saso-warkveTaSi Cavardnili bayayis daWera da fexis TiTebs So-ris gaglejiT cocxladve gatyaveba warmoadgenda.

im dros mozardebSi gavrcelebuli iyo ̀ fiStaxi“ _ xe-lnakeTi sasroli iaraRi denTiTa da rkinis burTulebiT gatenili. amgvari `piradi iaraRi” mxolod ufrosk-laselebs hqondaT. erTxelac sabam dainaxa, sad gadamala `Tengoia-rusma” iaraRi. saRamos sabam sanukvari `fiStaxi” xelT igdo. saidumlo, mezoblad quTaisidan bebiasTan stumrad Camosul megobars, daviTs, gaando. ifiqres da gadawyvites: gvian RamiT mezoblis ZaRlze ganexorciele-binaT sacdeli gasrola. gzis piras dagdebul xis mor-Tan Casafrdnen. ZaRli ar Canda. am dros `miriana-giJis” RiRini gaugoniaT. mTvaris Suqze gamoCnda Sineli. Casaf-rebulma biWebma erTmaneTs gadaxedes... rogorc Semdeg damfrTxali saba mSoblebTan yveboda, daviTma mas iara-Ri gamostaca, Sinels daumizna da `fiTils“ moukida... ase iyo Tu ise, sabam da daTom sibneleSi moRiRine miriani si-

cocxles gamoasalmes. bavSvebs mSoblebi Zlier gauwyren, magram maleve apaties _ `miriana-giJis” sicocxle arc di-dad fasobda da, rac mTavaria, arc momCivani iyo vinme.

saba saswavleblad dedaqalaqSi gauSves. TbilisSi dai-wyo axalgazrduli TamaSebi narkotikebTan _ biWi wamalze Sejda. ssrk daiSala, saqarTvelom damoukidebloba moi-pova. saba orpirSi dabrunda. Semdeg iyo samoqalaqo omi. sabam smas umata da sabolood gafarCakda. gamosavali ar Canda...

komunizmSi koleqtiuri da muqTi netareba gadaido, mis nacvlad qarTvelebma aramiwieri cxovreba aRmoaCines. sarwmunoebam sabolood Caanacvla komunisturi ideolo-gia _ gaCnda aqamde arnaxuli, kvlav koleqtiuri da isev muqTi saqme _ sulis cxoneba! sabac uceb gons moego da qristes Seudga. jer monasterSi ganmartovda, Semdeg mR-vdloba daapira, Tumca maleve gadaifiqra da, rogorc bevrma saqarTveloSi, usaqmurobis Jams wera daiwyo. ase Seiqmna igav-araki `Zala erTobisa”:

`xuTvarskvlavian rezidenciaSi didebuli episkoposi sese cxovrobda da `prados” jips daaqrolebda. iqve mon-asterSi samoTxis sagzuris mosapoveblad monazoni deda pelagia da sabere morCili arnoldie iRvwodnen. monazoni saidanRac daorsulda. meufe seses kurTxeviT, dekanozma mama kandel Sewirulma monazoni qali quTaisSi gadamala. Semdeg deda pelagiam imSobiara da amJamad is, ukve sxva saxeliT, erT-erT monasterSi moRvaweobs.

imxanad ki sasiyvarulo samkuTxedis wevrebis vinao-bis dadgenam mrevli gankiTxvis codvaSi Caagdo. miuxe-davad mrevlis didi mcdelobisa, mSobeli mamis vinaoba: mTavarepiskoposi sese Tu morCili arnoldie _ bolomde gaurkveveli darCa...

bolos da bolos, eparqiis ufrosma mRvdelma, mama kandelma, mrevli daamSvida da RvTivganbrZobilma ambion-idan iqadaga: ̀ Tu erTad viqnebiT, mteri iseve ver gZlevT, rogorc mefem ver daZlia isrebis erTad Sekruli kona.

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xolo Tu gaveyrebiT, maSin mteri ise dagvlewavs, rogorc mefem cal-calke isrebi daamsxvria... axla ki yuradRebiT momismineT: eklesia xom Cveni dedaa _ deda eklesia! ho da, Tu dedaa, dedaTqveni bozi rom iyos, ilaparakebT masze?! ara, pirSi wyals daigubebT! amitom unda iyoT Cumad ax-lac! Wiri _ iqa, lxini _ aqao,– daasrula mama kandelma”.

3. daviTi daviTi quTaisSi izrdeboda da katebis akrobatuli

unarebis SeswavliT gaxldaT gatacebuli. eqsperimen-ti SemdegSi mdgomareobda: ezoSi daWeril katebs biWebi xuTsarTuliani saxlis saxuravidan datrialebiT agdebd-nen. cnobismoyvare daviTi qvemoT idga da dakvirvebebs awarmoebda _ marTlac fexebiT daxteboda Tu ara cxo-veli? cdebma daadastura xalxuri codna katebis moxer-xebulobis Sesaxeb, Tumca asfaltze daxeTqebis Zala imdenad didi iyo, rom fisuniebs fexebi eSlebodaT da xSir SemTxvevaSi isini `nakeravze skdebodnen“. erTi mainc gadarCenila, isic fexebiT damxtara da mxolod wina TaTebi mostexia.

daviTi davaJkacda da mozrdili mamakacis cxovrebas Seudga. daToias cxovrebis azrsa da mTavar mizans qalebi warmoadgendnen. maRali mamakaci, elvare TvalebiT, ro-mauli profiliTa da gverdze gadaweuli Savi TmiT, mzad iyo, cxra mTa gadaevlo da cxra zRva gadaecura, oRond morigi nadavli xelT egdo. oci wlis daToiam colic SeirTo da male vaJiSvilic gaCnda, rasac srulebiT ar SeuSlia xeli mamris poligamiuri gatacebisTvis.

iqve, quTaisSi, bebiasTan, patara rusi gogo, lari-sa, izrdeboda. droTa ganmavlobaSi mis grZel, oqrosfer Tmebze, momxibvlel iersa da tan-fexze qalaqSi legende-bi gavrcelda. daToiam moarul Worebze yurebi cqvita, xolo qaliSvilis xilvis Semdeg mosveneba sabolood da-karga. erTxelac moaxerxa, qalaqis parkSi larisa gaicno da saxlamde manqaniTac miiyvana. TviTon ase yveboda,– baR-

Si erTi rusis naSa devinaxe, rZes fsamda, boiSvili viyoo! mizandasaxuli daToia ̀ daragaia laroCkas” dabmas Seudga.

sawadeli miznis misaRwevad qaliSvilis arasrulwlo-van asaks TiTqos xeli unda SeeSala, Tumca aseTi umniS-vnelo detali mondomebul daviTs ver SeaCerebda. misi jadoqari mSobeli mama `qalaqkomis” meramdeneRac mdivani iyo. am mizeziT, daToiasTan qurdebic didi mondomebiT axloblobdnen. avtoritetebiT garSemortymuli, mimzid-veli garegnobis mamakaci, im droisTvis iSviaTi sakuTari manqaniT _ `belaia noC“ `Jiguli- 06” _ meti raRa sWirde-boda gamoucdeli patara gogonas maxeSi gabmas?

bevri Txovna-mudaris Semdeg daToiam larisa qalaqga-reT restoran `ciskarSi” wayvanaze daiTanxma. Semdeg mov-lenebi klasikuri sqemiT ganviTarda: moxibla, daaTro da ukana gzaze gubiswyalTan gadauxvia... mdinaris pirTan mi-yenebul `06”-Si gamarTuli Widaobis Sedegi napirs momwy-dari Steri RorjoebisTvisac ki winaswar gansazRvruli iyo _ erTi cida larisa da JiniT Sepyrobili askiloiani xorcis masa. qaliSvili danebda...

sruiliad quTaisis mamrebi SuriT ucqerdnen lari-sas mofriale oqrosferi TmebiT Semkul, `06”- Si gamoWi-mul daToias. dadga cxeli zafxuli. daviTis ojaxoba _ meuRle da patara biWi sidedrma kojorSi dasasveneblad waiyvana. mamri marto darCa da mTel dReebs, larisasTan erTad, quTaisis restornebSi atarebda. Ramisken, kargad gamomTvrals, larisa sakuTar saxlSi mihyavda da col-qm-rul sarecelze Jimavda. dakmayofilebis Semdeg, simTvra-lis momizezebiT, avtos marTvaze uars acxadebda. patara gogo uxmod dgeboda da bebias saxlisken Cumad miipare-boda.

bolo- bolo, daToias esec mobezrda, daiRala, Svil-ic moenatra. Tbilisisken daiZra. larisac Tan waiyvana _ gzaSi qali xom sWirdeboda!.. kojris gzaze, sanam gogos gzispira restoranSi datovebda, saWeze waeZina da didi siCqariT kldis Sverils Seaskda...

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Zlieri dartyma. gamofxizleba. ugono larisas ukan gadavardnili Tavi _ fermixdili saxe, sisxli... manqanidan gadmovida. gonebadakargul qals mxarSi xeli hkra. sxeu-li gadavarda, savarZelze gadawva. Tavis aredan sisxli wveTavda. oqrosferi Tmebi wiTlad SeiReba. iatakze blan-ti sisxlis gube dadga. larisam kvnesa amouSva... moaxloe-buli manqanis xma Semoesma. SeeSinda, kankalma aitana: àu, es ra SarSi gavebi!.. kvdeba... orsuladaa? arasrulwlo-vanze didi srokia... ara, me aq ar vyofilvar, saWesTan sxva ijda!”...

gadawyvetileba myisierad miiRo. sabargulidan ben-ziniT savse kanistra amoiRo da manqanas sawvavi uxvad gadaasxa... gzis pirisken daagora da asanTs gahkra... almo-debuli avtomobili xevSi gadaeSva. gaisma afeTqebis xma...

daToia `qalaqkomis“ mdivan mamikosTan quTaisSi dab-runda da yovelive uambo. aqeTuri- iqeTuri, daiwyo saqmis gamoZieba, Cawyoba-mosyidva, sasamarTlo. is iyo daviT-isTvis pirobiTi sasjeli unda gamoetanaT, rom saidanRac gamoCnda axali mowme _ mZRoli, romelmac damfrTxali daToia kojris gzidan wamoiyvana. damnaSave daapatim-res. miuxedavad larisas bebiis gauTavebeli saCivrebisa, mainc ̀ daudevroba, romelsac mZime Sedegi mohyva“ muxliT gaasa marTles da sul raRac 3 weli miusajes. ase dasrul-da ambavi daToias da larisas tragikuli siyvarulisa.

daToiam `sroki“ moixada da didi zar-zeimiT `svabo-daze“ gamovida. meuRlis morCilebac gaasmagda da Zma-biWebSi avtoritetmac erTiorad imata. arc qalebisad-mi ltolva damcxrala _ mamrma nadiroba gaagrZela da qals ar tovebda. morigi momxibvleli obieqtis danaxvisas kvlav xvneSiT wamoiZaxebda,– vax, ra naSaa, rZes fsamso da gegmas awyobda. xan `parnoiSi“ gaaqanebda, xanac sastumros nomerSi amoamwyvdevda. Tu qali gabedavda da gajiut-deboda, daToias mainc Tavisi gahqonda _ an askiloiani masis ZaliT, an alkoholiT da msxverplis gaTiSviT. Tu Zalian gaWirdeboda da qali medgrad uarobda, daToia mas

klofelinis wveTebiT aZinebda da ase, ugono mdgomareo-baSi xmarobda. erTi sityviT, cxovreba qeif-qeifSi da qa-lebis alersSi arxeinad miedineboda. daToia `kai biWeb-sa“ Tu `qurdebSic“ damsaxurebuli pativiT sargeblbda. wveulebebze gamoTvromis dros is klasikosis striqons: `jer mware Wame, kvlav tkbili, Tu eZeb gemovnebasa”,– xSi-rad imeorebda da sibrZnis dasrulebisas, raTa sakuTari Zalaufleba da `kacuri kacoba“ stumrebisTvis enaxebina, meuRles uecrad mzis wnulSi gametebiT urtyamda. isic gausaZlisi tkivilisgan orad ikeceboda da mxolod wak-navlebas,– kai, daToia, raia, metkii-i-nao... _ Tu gabedav-da, Tu arada debiliviT iRimeboda...

dadga eris gamWoli morwmuneobis xana! daviTma ekle-sias miaSura da moZRvars aRsarebac Caabara. daToiam `stori“ anu qurduli cxovreba gaagrZela da amjerad mrevlis Tavwakrul qalebs daeria...

axal droebaSi bolomde mainc ar gaumarTla, mamikoc moxsnes da narkotikzec magrad Sejda. droTa ganmavloba-Si wamlis Sovna-SeZena garTulda da daWerebmac imata. colis mejvare gogosTan erTad, TeTri yayaCos yanebiT abibinebul ukrainis qalaq belaia cerkovSi gaipara da iq dasaxlda. col-Svili saqarTveloSi ded-mamas dautova. Semdeg qurdobisTvis ukrainaSic daiWires. amJamad ki, ro-gorc yvebian, galoTebuli sadRac CaZaRlebula.

4. tato zadeneli tato iyo meloti, jmuxi Wabuki, romelic

jer kidev norCi asakidan `kanonier qurdobaze” ocnebob-da. Semdeg ymawvilma `momavlis“ statusic ki daimsaxu-ra. tato metad aRafrTovana raionSi axlad gamoCenil-ma zaden-orpiris mTavarepiskoposma sesem. is massaviT tandabali iyo, samagierod, beladis ZegliviT monumen-turi da mniSvnelovani. tato moxibla meufis didebul-ma Sesa moselma, misma narnariT svlam, romlis drosac is iataks TiTqos arc ki exeboda da eklesiis sivrceSi

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ise milivlivebda. mRvdelmTavris TeTri, Tmiani mtevnis mrevlisTvis samTxvevad medidurma gawvdenam ki, `momava-li“ tato sabolood daatyveva.

erTxelac quTaisSi Casulma tatom, cixidan axlad gaTavisuflebuli, ufrosi naTesavi, daToia, moinaxula. sufra gaiSala, iqeifes. meore dRes maspinZelma stumari `bozebSi waiyvana“. swored iq Seicno tatom pirvelad qali da aiTvisa sust sqesTan urTierTobis wesebi. droTa gan-mavlobaSi tato daxelovnda da gawaful `monadiredac“ iqca. morigi àxali xorcisgan” miRebuli siamovnebis Sem-deg is gverdze oTaxSi ZmabiWebTan gamodioda, Sarvlis elvas iwevda da ambobda: `qalebi yvela erTi y...T arien nakeTebi, prosta saxelebi aqvT sxvadasxvao”.

erTxelac, wirvaze, tatom samedicnodamTavrebuli gogo _ eka dainaxa da moixibla. meZavebiT gataceba am Rrma grZnobis winaSe srulebiT gafermkrTalda. ltolva calmxrivi aRmoCnda. Tumca, risi tato iyo, rom ase io-lad danebeboda gansacdels. man ekas daqali mako gaicno. Tavidan, makos xeliT, satrfos patara xatebs ugzavnida, bolos ZviradRirebul frangul sunamoebze gadavida da ekas keTilganwyobac daimsaxura.

amasaobaSi raions toliatis saavtomobilo qarxnis `mayurebeli“, cnobili qurdi, solomoni, metsaxelad do-delo, ewvia. zadeni-orpiris eparqiis qurdebi stumars Tavs evlebodnen. ramdenimedRiani Rreobis Semdeg tatom dodelo wirvaze waiyvana, radgan eparqiis mRvdelmTavar-ma ukmayofileba gamoTqva sapatio stumris uyuradRebo-bis gamo.

taZridan gamosuli dodelo tatos uxsnida, ratomaa qurdoba RvTis saTno saqme, _ qristesTan erTad, pir-velma, xom avazakma SeaRo sasufevlis kario. Tumca, ro-gorc ki meufis axal jips Cauares, damrigeblis saubarma mkrexeluri elferi SeiZina _ àm mamaoebs yl...c mut...Si undaT rom hqondeT da sulic samoTxeSio”,– ganacxada dodelom. am dros eklesiasTan Tavwakruli ekac gamoCnda

da tatos morcxvad miesalma. amjerad dodelo gadairia ekas xilviT da brZana,– `dRes es naSa restoran `ciskarSi” saqeifod migvyavso”. tatom maswavlebels uaris Tqma ver Sehbeda.

saRamos, makos daxmarebiT, orive gogo `ciskarSi” iyo. gaimarTa didi qeifi. tato daTvra da, dodelos dasanaxad, daiwyo `fulis Tavze yra” _ iatakze mimoabnia, ramdenime kupiura gadaxia, `muzikantebsac CaukuWa”. eka yvelafers amas zizRiT umzerda, Semdeg, tatos jinaze, dodelos gauRima da masTan gadajda.

Sampanuris sma dilamde gagrZelda. qalebi kargad ga-moaTvres. dodelom eka restornis sastumro oTaxebisken gaityua... moulodnelad, gaisma ekas kivilis xma da tatom derefanSi dasisxlianebuli eka dainaxa. rogorc Semdeg gairkva, dodelos gogosTvis gaxda SeuTavazebia, eka sas-tik uarze damdgara. eqstazSi Sesul mamakacs qalisTvis saxeze dana dausvams.

saqme rogorRac miCqmales _ vin gabedavda qurdebis sawinaaRmdegod wasvlas?! tato ki, dodelos rekomendaci-iT, `qurdad“ akurTxes. am diadi movlenis aRsaniSnavad saarako qeific gaimarTa da, sapatio stumris rangSi, su-fras mTavarepiskoposi sesec daeswro. yvelaferma kargad Caiara, mxolod ekas daqali, mako, gamoTvra da kacebs qei-fi CaaSxama _ estradaze avida, mikrofoni xelT igdo da xmamaRla CasZaxa: `TqvenisTana kacebis dedas Seveci meo!“. gansakuTrebiT sese episkoposi ganawyenebula da makosT-vis eklesiasTan axlos gamoCenac ki aukrZalavs.

gavida xani, eka monazvnad aRikveca. dadga qurdebisT-vis avadsaxsenebeli 2003 weli. tato dodelosTan tolia-tiSi gadabargda. iq didi fuli iSova da eklesiis mSeneb-lobisTvis sese episkoposs fuli Seswira.

tatom mainc aisrula didi xnis guliswadili da mTa-varepiskopos seses kurTxeviT zadenSi qurdis saxelze didi eklesia aigo. ijda toliatiSi _ heroiniT dakaife-buli, mTvral bozebTan erTad, seses mier gamogzavnil

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taZris suraTebs aTvalierebda da sakuTari, ara mxolod amqveyniuri didebiT tkbeboda. saaxalwlod ki, morigi qurduli gadanawilebisas, gasarTobad gamoZaxebulma `se-qs-sneguroCkam“ is avtomatis jeriT sicocxles gamoasal-ma...

orpirelma fukom es ambavi sabas mouTxro, am ukanask-nelma ki morigi igavi dawera, romelsac daskvna daurTo: `... aseTi gaxldaT seses da tatos moRvaweobis gvirgvini _ maT moaxerxes da, sxva yvela `sikeTesTan” erTad, ada-mianebs eklesiisadmi ndoba Seuryies da rwenac mohpares. RmerTi, TiTqos vera... Tumca, verc amas ityvi danamd-vilebiT _ RmerTi kerpma Secvala, qristianuli siyvaru-li da Tavganwirva ki wes-Cveulebis aRsrulebam“. Wiri _ iqa, lxini _ aqa, qato _ iqa, fqvili _ aqao, _ Cveulebisame-br, asrulebda meigave saba.

5. iliaorpiris raioni, sofeli lurTa. iqve Camodis patara

Rele WurTava. Tu gadavxedavT soflis miZinebul peizaJ-sa da mis quCebSi uqmad moxetiale axalgazrdebs, gavbedav da frTxilad vivaraudeb: viRac zarmacs aso _ `W”-s ga-moTqma dazarebia, mdinaris dasaxelebis daboloeba Seu-kvecavs da soflisTvis lurTa uwodebia. Tumca arsebobs soflis dasaxelebis sxva, literatureuli versiac...

me swored lurTas vstumrob. gaCerebuli var axlo naTesavebTan _ iliasTan da mis dedasTan, mariamTan. zaf-xulia, sawolSi vkotrialobT da usaqmurobisgan vitan-jebiT. iqve, mezoblad, ase as metrSi, cxovrobs Cveni saerTo naTesavi, biWiko. ilikos vTavazob: `biWikosTan gadavideT, gaverTobiT, egeb gvaqeifos kidec”. mpasuxobs: `meica, fukoia, igi imdens muSaobs, ro marto yurebiT deviRlebiT”. biWikosTan viziti gadavifiqreT, soflis Saraze gavdivarT.

wreSi zis ase TxuTmetamde axalgazrda. ̀ truxa”, uvar-gis plans aboleben _ filtvebs amaod iWvartlaven. mived-

iT, davdeqiT, gazeTis naglejis didi yalioni mogvawodes. erTi-erTi zecisken ixedeba da oxvriT warmoTqvams: `da-levda kaci arays...”, meore bans aZlevs: àbaa...”. me gak-virvebuli vekiTxebi: `rogor, sofelSi arayi ara gaqvT?!”, koleqtiuri pasuxi: àraa, ar mevida wels àdesa”...

ilia sofel lurTas elsadguris mTavari inJineria. gadasarevi pirovnebaa _ gulRia, alali da uboroto, mu-dam odnav SezarxoSebuli, gaRimebuli saxiT... ki meride-ba maspinZelze augis Tqma, magram CemsaviT udardelia da uqnara _ WeSmariti lurTeli luarsab TaTqariZe.

saxlSi davbrundiT. meore sarTulze did oTax-Si gverdigverd mdgar sawolebze gaviSxlarTeT. lur-Tavul `siestas’’ vawyobT. me vaboleb. iliko mozrdil toms iRebs _ Tanamdebobisa da xelfasis SesanarCune-blad testebi aqvs Casabarebeli. kiTxulobs, Tvalebi eluleba. maleve gaSlil wigns saxeze ifarebs da iZinebs. Cemi maTTan stumrobis ganmavlobaSi es scena yoveldRe ganmeordeba, wigni ki erTsa da imave furcelze darCeba gadaSlili.

erT dResac deda eZaxis, is diasaxlisia da qvemoT, qurasTan, fusfusebs:

– dia, ar vaWamoT fukos ajafsandali? – ki, dee.– moTxare mere kartofili.– lafarTqka araa.– gadai mere mezoblebSi.sanam me da ilia avizlaznebiT da xel-pirs davibanT,

mcire wiaRsvla warsulSi. jer kidev Cemi bavSvobisas, ko-munistebis dros, am miwaze cxovrobdnen Cveni saerTo pa-pidebi _ anastasia da qeTevani. kviraSi erTxel sanaTesao maTTan, sofelSi, vikribebodiT xolme. iSleboda didi su-fra, romelsac `Citis rZe ar aklda”. Semoqmedni am uxvi nadimisa ki iyvnen is xanSi Sesuli, welSi moxrili debi _ anastasia da qeTevani. qalebi, rogorc ityvian, `dRedaRam miwaSi TaviT esobodnen”, oRond CvenTvis eamebinaT. babua

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Tavis Cia tanis gauTxovar debze ase xumrobda _ imxela kecSi acxoben xaWapurs, rom waiqcnen, zed tyupebiviT Ta-visuflad daeteviano.

soflis amJamindel gaCanagebas ojaxis diasaxlisi ase xsnis:

– mariam, Zroxebi ra uyavi?– Zroxaa?.. ui, gaberwda!– Rori?– Rorii?.. ui, Wiri deemarTa!– indauri, qaTami?– indaurii?... ui, magenic Wirma daxoca! mageni ga-

daSenda sacxa, gaminadguren ezo!axla ki kvlav davubrundeT ajafsandalis momzadebis

diad epopeas da kartofilis mopovebis siZneleebs. me da ilia auCqareblad vdgebiT, aseve nela qvemoT CavdivarT da zantad viwyebT `lafarTqis” Zebnas... saxlis sardafis uSedego mimoxilvis Semdeg, mezoblebTan gadavdivarT.

pirveli mezobeli _ uari, meore _ igive... mesamesTan, rogorc iqna gagvimarTla _ mogvces bavSvis qviSaSi sa-TamaSo niCabi... patara vedruka ar moayoles da qviSaSi, fisi- fisi qeniTo, ar uTqvamT...

mokled, rogorc iqna, aTamde kartofili miwidan am-ovCiCqneT da maleve aromatulad Sekmazuli ajafsandal-ic mivirTviT. egaa sul, risi moyolac mindoda.

ori sityviT, ilias elsadgurSi muSaobis Sesaxeb. di-dad arc iq iklavs Tavs. Ramis morigeobaze ki ZiriTadad sZinavs. dRis sam saaTze saxlSi brundeba. erTxel vkiTxe _ Seni ufrosi, Jora, rogor myavs-Tqo? kidev agur- agur Slis Senobebs, armaturebs aZrobs da yidis-Tqo?

ilia mpasuxobs,– biWo, fukoia, magi ki ara, Ramis morigeobaze rkinis kravatze mZinavs da dilaze meSinia, sajarTeSi Cabarebulma ar geviRviZo! me Zils ver ouvedi da Jora kido, jarTis barebas.

...orpirelma sabam, lurTelebs morigi igavi miuZRv-na: ìyo da ara iyo ra, RvTis ukeTesi ra iqneboda. iyo

sofeli planadidi! horizontamde kanafis Tvaluwvdene-li, abibinebuli yanebi. axalgazrdebi da xanSiSesulebi wvanan, erT larian `karbidis” arays ùbraxuneben” da mo-sawevs zantad ùqiSineben”. planadidSi yvelaze defici-turi saqonelia _ asanTi da gazeTi, romlidanac planis gasaxvevi yalionebi mzaddeba. pomidori, kitri, lobio, erT-or, kidev SemorCenil, ucnaur moxucs mohyavs. aravin Tesavs, aravin xnavs, aravin sxlavs, arc Txovdebian, arc mravldebian, metic, Tqven warmoidgineT _ aravin kvdeba!!! yvela arxeinad wevs da `truxa“ plans abolebs...”

6. akakime fuko var, orpiris raionis mkvidri da minda giam-

boT Cems yofil megobarze quTaisel akakize. dRes Cemi cnobiereba cdilobs, im dReebze xsovna, rac SeuZlia, gan-devnos da am urTierTobis yvela kvali amoSalos. ratom ar msurs sakuTar TavTanac ki vaRiaro, rom akaki odes-Rac Cemi megobari marTlac iyo da mTel dReebs masTan erTad vatarebdi, axlave mogiTxrobT.

imxanad quTaisSi daqiravebul oroTaxian binaSi calke vcxovrobdi da biWebi, `naSebTan“ erTad, xSir-ad mstumrobdnen. erTxelac megobarma zadeneli tato gamacno, romelic meore dRis saRamosve, sam gogosTan da quTaisel akakisTan erTad CemTan amovida. im dRes sxva RirsSesaniSnavi araferi momxdara _ cota davlieT, grZlad gavaboleT, bevri vicineT da stumrebi wavidnen. droTa ganmavlobaSi, interesTa Tanxvedram me da akaki dagvamegobra _ me bina mqonda, mas ki axalTaxali `Jigu-li” hyavda da qalebiT garSemortymuli quTaiseli Zveli biWic iyo.

rogorc Semdeg gairkva, akakis, imave `kakies“ Zir-iTad saTnoebas adamianTa modgmis klofeliniT miZine-ba warmoadgenda. am uferul da ugemo siTxes, romlis sul 3-5 wveTi srulebiT TiSavs da erTi-ori dRiT Rr-mad aZinebs brge vaJkacsac ki, is virtuozulad xmarobda.

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wamals mudam jibiT daatarebda da, rogorc ki saWiroeba pirovnebis gaqvaveba-gaxevebas moiTxovda, TviTnaswavli anesTeziologi mtevanSi damalul wamlian tubs SeumC-nevelad Wiqisa Tu saWmlis Tavze gadaatarebda da siTxis sul ramdenime wveTs gamoWyletda. Semdeg arasasurveli mowme Tu piriqiT, metad sasurveli qalbatoni klofelin-ian Rvinos, wyalsa Tu saWmels miirTmevda da 30-40 wuT-Si mTqnareb-mTqnarebiT adgilzeve Rrmad iZinebda. aseTi gaxldaT akakis ulmobeli brendi.

imxanad amgvar `gamaqvavebel“ garTobebSi mec didi xalisiT vmonawileobdi da kargadac verTobodi. maga-liTad, erTxel akakim Tamada miaZina. qorwilSi, magrad dabolebulebi, erTad mivediT. Tamada Cemi qirurgi ma-mis yofili pacienti aRmoCnda, mec uceb micno da Tav-isTan gvixmo. gigantma, romelic ori avtonomiuri naw-ilisgan Sedgeboda _ xeluwvdeneli Ripi da or metramde simaRlis, cximiani xorcis masa _ gverdiT mogvisva da sanam sufra oficialurad gaixsneboda, `gansxvave-bulebiT“ moTelvas CvenTan Seudga. erTi aviTviseT, meo-rem ukve gatexa _ gabolebulze, mJave, Tbili Rvino ar wavida. akakim Tvali Camikra da salaTiani didi TefSis-ken xeli waiRo... meore Wiqas mesame mohyva _ amasobaSi Tamadam naxevari TefSi salaTi kuWSi gadauSva. Semovi-da siZe-dedofali. damkvrelebi, tuSi, milocvebi, kiski-si... da Tamadam didi yanwi Seavso. odnav abneulad ki daiwyo... did xans aRar gaugrZelebia da uZiro sasmisis daclas Seudga. sadRac mesamedze Seisvena, dabneulma aqeT-iqeT gaixeda _ vinmem xom ar SemamCnia, am yanwis da-cla ase rom miWirso?.. arauSavs, `klapani gamexsnebao“, gaifiqra, Tavs Zala daatana da ganagrZo... isev SeCerda, wabarbacda... moulodnelad, deviviT kaci moikeca, Tavi goWis xorcian TefSSi Cargo da xvrinva amouSva! lili-putebis yvirili, gineba, kivili _ yovelive amao iyo _ usulo guliveri xmas ar iRebda, Ripi ki auCqareblad da avtonomiurad sunTqavda... bolos daaskvnes, rom àlbaT

es unamuso qorwilis dawyebamde sadRac gamoTvrao“. go-liaTi sawolamde ramdenime kacma Zlivs miaTria. axali Tamadis daniSvnamde, sufra karga xniT areulobam moic-va, stumrebi araorganizebul Wama-smas Seudgnen. ojax-is ufrosi lamisaa tiroda _ amodena xarji, rudunebiT gawyobili sufra TiTqmis wyalSi Caeyara... Cven, biWebTan erTad, sefis SesasvlelTan tarians vabolebdiT da si-ciliT vixeodiT.

erTxel garkveuli sargebelic miviRe, rodesac ka-kiam, CemTvis moulodnelad, erTi sakmaod mdidari mamaka-ci, romelmac restoranSi migvipatiJa, klofeliniT miaZi-na, mas sabuTebi amoacala da saxlSi ise miiyvana. Semdeg am sabuTebis dabrunebaSi fuli aiRo da gamiyo.

...is droc dadga, romlis daviwyebasac aseTi mon-domebiT vcdilob. me da akaki avtoTi dedaqalaqSi wave-diT. dilaadrian ki, Cemi Tbiliseli megobari ivane da misi Zmakaci ukve saxaSeSi gvimaspinZldebodnen. Semdeg dasasveneblad erT saxlSi migviyvanes. ivikom patieba iTx-ova, radgan, gadaudebeli saqmis gamo, erTi dRiT unda davetovebineT, xolo CvenTan misi Zmakaci darCa. saxli, romelSic davbinavdiT, ivas sayvarel qals, tasos, ekuT-vnoda, romlis qmaric, wlebia sazRvargareT muSaobda. mogvianebiT gairkva, rom saRamos tasos dabadebis dRea da mas stumrad daqalebic ewvevian. akaki aRfrTovanebas ver malavda, me ki vsvamdi da vTvrebodi... viZinebdi da isev Tavidan... mosaRamovda, stumrebma Sekreba daiwyes. amaso-baSi akakim Tavis quTaisel megobars, vaJas, romelic Cven-saviT Tbiliss stumrobda, daureka da isic, yvavilebiT xeldamSvenebuli, tasosTan gamocxadda.

mxiaruli sufra daiwyo, me isev gauTaveblad vsvam-di... raRa bevri gavagrZelo da... rodesac gaTiSulma odnav SeviRviZe, Tvali odnav SevaRe, gadmovtrialdi da... Tvalwin aseTi suraTi warmomidga: gverdiT sawolze taso ugonod egdo, zed akaki mxedariviT ejda da auCqareblad Jimavda. man gadmomxeda, gamiRima da saqmianad gaagrZe-

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la. iqve, savarZelSi, ivikos megobari, Cveni maspinZeli, ugonod esvena. me kvlav Zilma wamiRo. Semdegi Tvalis gaxelisas, tasos ukve vaJa, aseve saqmianad, uqanavebda. me kvlav gaunZrevlad vegde...

albaT gagiCndaT kiTxva: me an Tundac ivikos megobar-ma xma ratom ar amoviReT? yvela erTad, raTa protestis da ganZrevis Tavi ar gvqonoda, klofeliniT viyaviT da-nayrebulni. me, rogorc Sinaurs, SedarebiT mcire doza mergo.

ivikosa da tasos bina im Ramesve davtoveT. quTaisSi Ca mo vediT. me gamovfxizldi da saswrafod arayi moviT-xove...

aqamde ar vici, iviko rom Semxvdes, Tavi riT vimarT-lo, Cemi umoqmedoba rogor avxsna? yvelaze cudi ki is gaxlavT, rom kakiasTan megobroba am SemTxvevis Semdegac gavagrZele da mxolod mogvianebiT davSordi, raRa Tqma unda, samudamod.

7. vaJa orpireli `beRura” saSualo rangis mxedrioneli gax-

ldaT. samoqalaqo omis dros is zomierad yaCaRobda da orpiris sazogadoebis mdidar wevrebs TavSekavebulad awamebda. sando wyaroebidan dasturdeba, rom is brtyel-tuCaTi, rogorc sxva yaCaRebi, adamianebs oqros kbilebs ar aZrobda da cxeli uToTi ar auToebda. swored `beR-uram” saxalxod `mitiska” orpirSi ZmasTan droebiT Casax-lebuli quTaiseli vaJa da dasasruls miaZaxa,– Se, bozoo! gavida wlebi, omi damTavrda. im dros orpirs namorfin-istali Tbiliseli, ukve gaalkaSebuli fuko stumrobda. swored `fukoias”, rogorc yofil, magram mainc asakiT ufros avtoritets, miakiTxa vaJam, ZmasTan erTad, da sTxova, `beRurasTan“ Serigeba gvindao.

Zmebma SexvedrisTvis ucnauri adgili _ rkinigzaze gadasasvleli xidi airCies. fukosTan erTad mividnen. ma-leve `beRurac” gamoCnda. moaxloebisas SesZaxa: `futur-

istebis dro mevida, Tqve bo... is iyo unda daesrulebina, rom mSvidobismyofelma fukom miageba,– `kai biWebs gauma-joso!”. erT sityvas, meore mohyva _ `beRura” moixibla Tbiliselis laRi saubriT. cota xanSi iqve mdgom Zmebs yuradRebas aRaravin aqcevda, fuko da `beRura” xids mieyudnen da mSvidobiani saubari ganagrZes. omi mimoix-iles, wamalze ar usaubriaT, mxolod jiSiani planis adg-ilobrivi mflobelebi gaixsenes da is iyo, fukom stumris sasadiloSi dapatiJeba gadawyvita, `beRuras” miutrial-da... mxedrioneli ki sadRac gamqraliyo...

`blataobiT” garTul `beRuras” Zmebi SeumCnevlad mi-parvian, fexebi gamouSliaT da aTi metris simaRlis xi-didan gadaugdiaT. bneloda, Tumca vardnisas `beRuras” _ `Tqve bozebo” da liandagebze danarcxebis yru xma samives kargad gaugonia. xidis qveSac ar Casulan, fuko mego-brebTan yveboda,– asiani mkvdari iqneboda, Tan paxmeliac mewyebodao. fukom iCxuba, iyvira,– es ra SarSi gamxvieT, ratom ar gamafrTxileTo. bolos ki bedisweras danebda da, ZmebTan erTad, magrad gamoTvra.

`beRura” viRac madlian rkinigzels upovia da saa-vadmyofoSi miuTrevia. eqimebsac Tavis qala auxadiaT da tvinSi CauxedavT. travmis Sedegad `beRuras“ tvins SeSupeba dauwyia. SeSupebuli tvinis qsovili xerxemlis viwro arxSi CaWedila, gaWyletila da kvdoma dauwyia. kidev es undoda `beRuras” liandagebze daxeTqebisgan isedac daJeJil tvins?! swored tvinis Reros kompresiis Tavidan asacileblad, `beRuras” Tavis Zvlovan kolof-Si ormxrivi, oTxkuTxa fanjrebi amoutexes. `beRuras” tvinma amoisunTqa, man gza ipovna da zemoT, amotexil fanjrebSi paskasaviT amofuvda. amosul tvinze eqTnebi `fiziologiuri xsnariT“ dasvelebul safenebs adebdnen _ tvinis ruxi nivTiereba sasiamovno sigrilem moicva. ugono mdgomareobaSi myof, Toliad qceul `beRuras” ki, am dros grili okeane da `dazagruli naSebi“ esizmre-boda.

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aravis egona, Tu `beRura” am qveynisken moixedavda, magram is gadarCa! Tbilisel amfsonebTan fuko ase yve-boda: `dResac magrad ubervas _ periodulad dauToebul cxvirsaxocebs agrovebs mezoblebSi da abarotis aRebaze mainc fiqrobso”.

`beRuras” araprognozirebad tvinTan dakavSirebu-li safrTxeebis gamo, im droisTvis ukve ganarkomanebu-li vaJa da misi Zma ukrainis patara qalaqSi, makeevkaSi, gadaixvewnen. swored iq, yovelgvari àbarotis” gareSe, RviZlis ciroziTa da Camdgari siTxisgan daberili mu-clebiT poves Zmebma samudamo gansasvenebelic...

III. ganxilva

mkiTxvelma daasrula. mweralTa krebuli gamococx-lda. Tavmjdomarem daiwyo:

– maS ase, SevudgeT... raRac cotani varT? Tanamedrove klasikosebi ratom ar eswrebian?

vaJa:– ̀ Tanamedroveebi“? 1977-Si saqarTvelos damoukide-

bloba rom gaasamarTles?! SoTa:– vaJa batono, ar gindaT, kolegebi arian, mainc... – ukacravad. didma gamomcemelma ar dauSva... poeti ki

albaT, ver adga, nabaxusevia.– gasagebiaa... kargi, ise daviwyoT. saba, geTayva gTx-

ovT:– momewona, kargad wers, gabedulia... anaforianebsac

Tamamad utevs, Rirsia! vaJa:– mec ase vTvli! Tavmjdomare:– batonebo, daviT, ilia, akaki, ras ityviT? daviTi:

– cxovelebidan sust sqesze gadasvla kargi iyo! um-weoebze Zaladoba, feodaluri sazogadoeba, saSinelebaa! arc es miTologia da farisevloba sruldeba, gasaocaria _ CvenSi araferi icvleba! Tumca, vgoneb, avtori ciniko-sia, davakvirdeT...

ilia: Zveli eri varT _ albaT geni dagviberda. virTx-

ebs davemsgavseT. dampyrobeli da saukunebrivi mono-ba. sicrue da mliqvneloba, Suri da boRma, uqnaroba da sibnele _ monebis bednieri eri. avtori marTalia, koleqtivizms qirurgiuli meTodebi sWirdeba _ mxars vuWer!

akaki:– me, ara! es araa mTeli eris portreti, es ar gax-

lavT, batonebo, tipuri. yvela erSi xdeba cudi, amaze uaresic. Tan, siyvaruls, sinanuls ver vxedav. Cemi azriT, jer adrea, blogze daiwyos.

tato:– diax, foliantSi Setana jer adrea. blogze dados. Cem win dafa idga. zed ewera: `qarTuli mwerlo-

bis blogi. Tavisufali sivrce. qarTuli mwerloba ar agebs pasuxs postis Sinaarsze, is, SesaZloa, ar asaxavdes klasikosebis pozicias“.

Tavmjdomare:– megobrebo, rogorc xedavT, Cveni samSoblo sauku-

neebia ar icvleba _ mTeli samyaro Teatria, mxolod Cven vcxovrobT cirkSi. vatyob, avtori zedmetad seriozulad aRiqvams yovelives. kolegav, cota advilad, advilad... aba, gTxovT, kidev ras daamatebT?

ilia:– didi modunebaa iveriaSi, erT did amouval WaobSi

vzivarT da RmerTma icis, amovZvrebiT Tu ara. diax, qarT-velebs geni dagviberda!

akaki:

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– `qarTuli geni“ rogoria, germanulisgan gansxvave-buli? aqamde geni dnk-s monakveTs warmoadgenda. ilia Cemo, axali bioqimiaa, `marTlmadidebluri“?.. blogze da-dos, SevxedoT...

me avtirdi, davpataravdi, sad gavmqraliyavi, ar vi-codi. am dros didi gamomcemeli gamoCnda da meubneba:

– fuko, ra dagemarTa, nu tiri sayvarelo. eseni sul ase Cxuboben, adamianebi arian. foliantSi amis Setana di-dad arc undaT, konkurencias esenic ufrTxian. mere, vis uyvars sarkeSi Caxedva? es is SemTxvevaa, rodesac ums-gavsobaze simarTlis Tqma codvad geTvleba. Zmao, dai-kide, mwerlebis mTavari mizania _ klasikosebis siaSi, RmerTma ar qnas, rom axali saxeli Sevides! daikide, Zmao da gaiRime...

– au, aqac igive, daikide, moicade, sanam?! _ gavifiqre me.

gamomcemelma gulSi Camikra da momigo:– mudam gaxsovedes, eseni adamianebi arian, geniosebi,

magram mainc adamianebi. adamiani _ cvalebadia _ amaSia misi sisustec da siZlierec. axals yvela ewinaaRmdegeba. aba, rogor ginda? Seni arCevani protestia _ anu mowameo-ba. amas unda Seurigde. promeTec ki zevsma mTas miajaWva. tkivili _ mudmivi mdgomareobaa... gkocni da mudam SenTan var... droebiT, Zmao!

nawili IV. dasasruli

werili mecxre: fukos qanqaras principi

gwer, Cemo megobaro N, gwer, radgan mxolod Sen Se-giZlia gaiziaro Cemi gulistkivili, gaigo misi mizezi. Tumca, isic vici, rom Sen, miunxenis Semodgomisgan mooqrul parkSi (`Goldener Oktomber”) zixar, susxiTa da gamxmari foTlebis surneliT gabruebuli, kunderas morig toms furclav da Cveni yoveldRiuri yofa nak-lebad gainteresebs. Cemo N, mainc gwer, radgan marto var...

mokled, asea Tu ise, uRimRamo adamianTa zeimia saqa-rTveloSi. ra ginda, rom qna? an unda aqedan gaiqce, an Tavadac koleqtivis erTeulad iqce... Tumca arsebobs me-same gzac... protesti da umravlesobis diqtats kbilebis RWeniTa da moTminebiT, udrekad da uxmod ar damorCile-ba _ yvela Tavis gzas irCevs...

rom gaimarjvo da Tavisufali gaxde, didi gzaa gasavleli. am mogzaurobaSi, albaT, mTavari ori ramaa _ sindisis tanjvani da ganaxlebisken swrafva. adamianis mTavari niWi da mizani, rogorc gio ambobda _ ganviTare-baSia... Tumca, sindisis wuxilisa da Tavmdablobis gareSe, araferi gamogiva. oRond morCileba ar unda iyos moCven-ebiTi, monuri, mxolod Seni codnis, gamocdilebisa da ga-datanili gansacdelis simaRlis gadmosaxedidan gacnobi-erebuli Tavmdablobaa faseuli.

sanam yoveliveSi mxolod sakuTari Tavs ar daadana-Sauleb da ar iyvireb, rom Svela gWirdeba, araferi gamo-giva. nebismieri saxis monobis tyveobidan gamosvla Tavis damdablebiTa da `wylulebis“ gaxsniT, maTi gulrwfeli gamomzeurebiT iwyeba. ase xorcieldeba realur cxvore-baSi cnobili saxarebiseuli principi _ ìTxoveT da mo-gecemaT”. Tu ecdebi yvelas zemodan uyuro, ase verafers

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miaRwev _ monobas ufro Rrmad Camarxav da boRmisgan sab-olood daiRupebi. sakuTari uZlurebis aRiareba _ xsnis erTaderTi gzaa! es aucilebeli etapia, mxolod Semdeg modis sakuTar Tavze gamarjveba.

gaxsovdes, SenSi kidev uamravi ̀ me“ devs! gadaxede Sen-Si arsebul SexedulebaTa sistemas, im etapisTvis morigi kerpi ukuagde da gadadi ufro maRali xarisxis Tavisu-flebis sivrceSi, sadac morigi kerpebi gelodeba da yve-laferi isev Tavidan... ase, am `meebis“ mokvdinebiT izr-deba pirovneba. es metad mtkivneuli procesia, romelsac didi gulistkivili, sazogadoebidan gariyva, gaWirveba da sasowarkveTamde mZime martooba sdevs Tan... me `mec“ var da `daToc“, da kidev bevri, uamravi `mec“. diax, me ara mxolod daTo viyavi, aramed LUCKY - ic, amJamad democ Seviqeni da fukoc gavxdi _ xan racionaluri Jani var da xanac SeSlili miSeli...

adamianis buneba iseTia, rom man jer yvelaferi, risi gulisTvisac cxovreba Rirs, unda dakargos da am gziT gaigos WaSmariti Tavisuflebis fasi. amis gareSe, mxolod wakiTxviT, mTavari SiSis, sikvdilis SiSis met-naklebi daZleva, da, ase yoveldRiuri yofis wnexisgan gaTavisu-fleba ar modis. Tavisufleba _ es aris sikvdilTan maq-simaluri miaxloeba, radgan adamiani zustad da mkafiod, mxolod sikvdilis piras SeigrZnobs, Tu ras niSnavs ̀ amao-eba amaoTa“ _ warmateba, simdidre Tu ulamazesi qali, sxva wvrilmani zraxvebi da `didi“ wyenebi _ `yovelive amaoa”... Tumca zemoCamoTvlils ar unda SeuSinde, radgan daT-menis sazRauric didia _ Tavisufleba mogcems im abobo-qrebuli mdinaris Zalas, romelic koleqtivizmis kldes gaapobs!

Tavisufleba ar aris erTjeradi, Tundac didi Tav-ganwirvis aqti, aramed esaa procesi _ is CakirkitebiT Sromasa da `wveT-wveTad sakuTar TavSi monisgan gaTavi-suflebas“ moiTxovs.

Tavisufleba, rogorc koleqtivis udabnoSi dakar-gul mgzavrs, ise unda gwyurodes. is unda moipovo xangr-Zlivi, mZime mogzaurobiT.

Tavisufleba ar iTxovs himnebsa da oratoriebs, mas sWirdeba neba, gambedaoba da simtkice.

Tavisufleba ar aris nairferadi ocnebiT tkboba, esaa uaxloesi adamianebis mier moyenebuli tkivilis, dacin vis, talaxis udrtvinvelad atana.

maS ase, adamianis simdidre, mravalferovneba da indi-vidualizmi mis cvalebadobaSia. ̀ meebis“ mokvdinebiT izr-deba adamiani. fukos qanqarasaviT uCumrad, bevri yvirilis gareSe, unda gadaixaro da qanaoba daiwyo, xolo sibrtye romelSic Sen irxevi, nela, magram ganuxrelad dedamiwis brunvis sawinaaRmdego mimarTulebiT _ avtoritetebis, koleqtivisa da megobarTa Cveuli wris sapirispiro unda iyos. daiRlebi _ Seisvene, gind ukan daixie _ rxevaTa cen-trisken dabrundi da mere gaagrZele, magram aucileblad gaagrZele!.. Tu bevrs da xangrZlivad iqanaveb, SeiZleba gagimarTlos _ droTa ganmavlobaSi RerZTan damakavSire-beli jaWvi gacvdeba, Semdeg is gawydeba, Sen ki arwiviviT caSi aiWrebi da haerSi ilivliveb...

sanam nairnairi koleqtivebis orbitas sabolood mowydebi, didi da metad mtkivneuli gzaa gasavleli: mokali morigi moZvelebuli `me“ _ mTavaria ar gaCerde da gulSi mainc, ar daacxro protesti; gansakuTrebiT, pro-testi sakuTari arsebobis uazrobisa da egoizmis mimarT, Semdeg ki daixseni Tavi koleqtivizmis marwuxebidan.

dabolos! sicruisa da farisevlobis okeaneSi unda aanTo gulrwfelobis Suqura, romelic ganaxebs gzas simarTlisa... Tu Sen Seiyvareb martoobasa da yoveldRi-urobis wnexis mowameobas, Tanamedrove adamianebi, pirvel yovlisa, Tanamemamuleebi, uaxloesi megobrebi udides pa-tivs mogageben _ SeSlilad gamogacxadeben, SegiZuleben da gagriyaven. yovelive amis jildo ki umSvenieresi iqne-

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ba _ Sen gaxdebi `marili ama soflisa“, Sen `daatrialeb dedamiwas“... da SeuerTdebi maradisobas.

P.S....magram aris kidev raRac ufro didi da Znelad miR-

wevadi, vidre individualizmia... pirovnebis ganviTarebis yvelaze maRali safexuri, misi yvelaze didi miRweva ase-Tia: Tan iyo kaSkaSa, mkveTrad gamoxatuli individi, er-TaderTi, ganumeorebeli da, imavdroulad, Cveulebrivi, rogorc yvela _ esaa adamianis ganviTarebis udidesi xe-lovneba da mwvervali! swored rigiTobasTan Serigebasa da Cveulebriobis gancdis Sesislxorcebaa adamianisTvis yvelaze didi sirTule, aseTia Cveni raobis aRqmis udide-si siZnele. samagierod mxolod am gziT miiRweva WeSmari-ti Tavisufleba da umaRlesi sulieri Sveba!

yvelaze kargo N, dasasruls, sanam dagemSvidobebode, Segaxseneb uiliam Seqspiris cnobil gamonaTqvams: `yovel-gvar SeSlilobas aqvs Tavisi logika“... ase rom, arafe-ria sagangaSo _ me kvlav fsiqiatriulSi vwevar da Senze vfiqrob... Cemo ocnebis gogov, gkocni da geferebi, mxo-lod Sen!

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